Retrospective · 10:34pm
Man, it has been years since I started writing fiction on this site. Anyway, I just wanted to say that when I started writing, I was not in a good state. Constant anxiety, some depression and overall shitty mood.
I started writing because it was a good way to clear my brain. My first story ever posted, Spiked Flowers was just a half assed slapstick/situational comedy with no actual depth. With very mild success, it drove me to continue as to where I wrote my second story Endurance.
With this story I adressed some of my personal issues while writing them as a main theme. Loneliness, anger and a want for hope to get out. Seeing this story reach out to people made me realize that I wasn't a bad writer, as with some work I could do something better and more extensive.
When The Wind Changes and its sequel Through Changes.
This is the story that officialy got me some recognition amongst the large amount of writers here. I never meant for it to extend the way it did. I had twenty chapters in mind but blew it out of proportion. I got confident, even though my technical writing skills lacked. What I do regret about it however are two main points.
1. The supposed time skip.
2. The sequel.
People are gonna wonder about why the sequel is a negative but I have good(?) answers. It was a rushed and poorly planned sequel, where the main "story" consisted of a forced "adventure" that was so rushed it just flew by in no time at all. Bad cameos, rushed integrated story building from the prequel and no real commitment from me, which made it take twice the time WTWC took to finish on half the chapters and not even half the word count from that.
If i would do something different, I would have scrapped the sequel all together.
Out of all the one shot stories i've written, Me is still my favorite by far. It is much more serious then the usual dribble I wrote back then and has a stronger point of view.
The stories I wrote gave me a bit away from my usual state of mind and made me feel like I was making other peoples days a bit better with releasing chapters of some stories every now and then, but it eventually stopped and it became a chore and I had more responsibilities and other things to do. I just slipped away from this site to other things. I had worked out my conditions and didn't need something to keep me stable anymore. I guess I grew out of it as a person.
I never properly did this, but I need to thank everyone who ever read, favorited, voted on my stories, be it up or down, tracked and shared my stories and followed me. It gave me the sense of accomplishment that I could do what I needed, or wanted to do. It was a great experience to take share and learn from. I can't point out enough of how much this place helped me.
But as I said before, I was just another writer on a site for horse fanfiction. And what a great time it was.
See you crazy kids around.