Sorry, but I'm done with this site. I can't be on here for hours on end anymore, and I need time to get my life in check.
The only reason why I'm even on the site in the first place was MPPT3K, and that fell right through.
I'm just going to be blunt: this site sucks ass. Major ass, and I'm too much of a pussy wimp to take it (as anyone who riffed and PM'ed me knows). The fics that get attention seldom deserve it, all the while the stories that have a modicum of care, love, and attention gets thrown to the way side for repugnant, deplorable, stupid fics.
There's no reason I'm even on the site. I haven't read any new fics in months, I don't write, my blog post aren't riveting, funny, or mind bogglingly awesome/stupid, so what's the point?
But, there's a real reason why I'm not coming back here. It's my mom. She's going to Puerto Rico for two weeks to visit Grandma, and she doesn't look like she has much time. We can only afford one person to go, so it was decided for it to be my mother. On top of that, my mom has thyroid cancer. Turns out my parents were around when Chernobyl blew up (not on top of it, mind you, but close enough), sending massive amounts of radiation to her, my dad, my two year old older brother (don't worry, he's still alive and well. for now), and me while I was still in the womb. Anyway, her health and memory isn't what it used to be (like the rest of the family), and it turns out there's several things wrong with us because of the radiation (but no super powers. what a rip off), but it's nothing to serious. Well, it turns out that not only do we have mental problems because of incident, but our bodies kinda suck as well. I've been told I've got the insides of someone twice my age. Neat, huh? So, on top of my hernia and my spine about to be figuratively ripped out, my body is slowly killing itself. Neat, huh? My brother has more or less the same problems, but he greats them in stride, chuckling at them like their nothing (I guess that happens when you've got a family to feed of your own). Me, on the other hand... if I don't find other work, I'll be in a wheel chair before I'm 30. And that's the tip of the iceberg, but I know that everyone is dealing with just as bad shit (or even worse) so I wont bore you with all that.
Anyway, what I'm saying is that I'm being super emo right now, but I'm totally serious when I say that this is the last time you're going to hear from me. I know it's sad, stupid and cliche of me, but I've got bigger problems in my life that I can't be spending time on a website that I don't even like... except the people I've meet are really awesome...
I can't tell you how difficult it is to describe how sad I'm leaving. When I got here a year ago, I would never have realized how connected I would be to such a warm community of people.
Many times I have been humbled by the kindness of your hearts. When I look at what I've done here, the people I've meet, the stories we've read, I will always remember the good times we shared, even the times where we disagreed and I was an overly emotional baby.
Tomorrow I will wake up in my new life, full of yet-to-be realised opportunities, and empty of your company... I will be in a strange limbo.
You’ve helped me through some difficult times, and shared the joyous times in yours. Some people judge their lives on what they do, others on who they are. I want my life judged on the friends I keep, and how enriched I am from just knowing you.
To out a couple of people:
You might remember a time when I was maddeningly depressed and angry. Well I know it might not seem much to people but Atlas Nebula stepped in to lend a hand, even if he himself doesn't know it. I don't think he knows how much that meant to me. It was a kindness that I now try to return to newcomers. Just being around the guy made me happy, and he even took my whiny bullshit in stride. I'm sorry I got mad at him for helping a clop fic writer and being friends with... a few people I don't really like. I really enjoyed our riffs together - that was easy the most fun I had while riffing, and with you to work off, the riffs just kept coming (even if they weren't that great. I'm talking about mine, of course) Oh, and if need him or whatever, feel free to use Anon in anyway you wish. Just because I'm leaving doesn't mean that guy needs to die with me.
I also want to mention Typewriterpony. Always with a joke and a smile, and no matter what kind of a day I had, I was always welcome to relax and unwind with Typewriterpony's company, even if it was just from a computer screen. It was like a refuge and it's another example of generosity and tolerance that I would like to emulate. He always, always found a way to make me laugh, and I can't begin to tell you how much that means to me. Thank you, Type, and I'm sorry that I wont be able to finish our riff together.
I would like to thank Thorax for being the very first person to add me to their watch list. He's a very cool guy with a very awesome sense of humor, and his fics reflect that a lot. If there's one thing you can take from this, check the guy out. He deserves some good attention. His blogs are hilarious as well.
There's also DPV111, who's not only an awesome person, his blog is all about showing the best/underrated fics on the site. Not only that, he's the first person to offer his help towards my riffs, and his input was and always will be most appreciated. He makes great points and has logic to back it up. That's rare nowadays. Thank you.
Dragon Emperor Geon. Man, I miss that guy. I first came across him when I was reviewing a terri-bad Mary Sue HiE fic, and he asked me to judge his OC. We talked for a bit, and it was revealed to me what a great guy he is. He even took one of my ideas and wrote a fic about it! But, the thing that I'll miss the most about him will be his blogs. Back when he was an active member, his blogs where always informative (and sometimes crazy), no matter the subject at hand. And he's really funny as well.
I remember a guy called Reasonandrhyme. While he didn't agree with my views on one of his favorite fics, it's always pleasant to talk to him. He even let me proofread a fic of his! It's awesome, by the way. I wish we had more time to get attenuated better, but...
TheGentlemanCreeper, Coffeebean, Crowley, and TimeBomb0 for being the reason why I even came to this site in the first place. (did you know that TimeBomb0 actually added me to his watch list? One of my favorite pony authors ever likes my shit enough to warrant that response - he even likes my riff! can you believe it?), and AnonAuthor for writing my favorite Mature fic ever. Atlas knows the one.
RatherHomely for writing up the awesome MPPT3K ( I liked him even before he wrote that, and his Choose Your Own Adventure fic was hilarious), but for allowing the likes of me to have guest riffs, no matter how bad mine were. It was the first time I've ever written anything that wasn't an assignment (and it showed) but he gave me a chance anyway.
And who could forget about Fallen Prime? No one, that's who. Don't worry, dude, being near the bottom of this list doesn't mean I love you any less than anyone else here. All of the homo. Anyway, I think the first time I meet the guy was during a riff shuffle (one of the first times he got editorial powers, I think. my head is like a thing with very many holes in it), and I would like to think that he and I are friends by this point. I would like to thanks him for his time and patience. Don't worry, he knows what I mean (wink). But seriously, I'm going to miss you, man. Good luck with everything (especial with those riffs you have to do. I saw that list. Yeesh.)
R1NGmasterJ5, for being the "former" riff master and starting the whole FanFic Theater 3000 thing on this site (he is the one that did that, right?) Remember that review you, Fallen and I did on that one Dusk Shine fic? That fic is an abomination, but I was happy that at least it was a reason to meet you. It was an honor, sir.
Hey, I'm looking at you, MrSing. I remember seeing your name all over the place WAY before you made an account here over in that gigantic riffing dock. Even if your time was brief, I'm glad that we had a chance to riff together. I wish we could've interacted a bit more so I would have more things to say about you. I'm sorry that your part is not as pandering sappy as the others.
Hey, it's Super_Big_Mac! I'm still surprised a fellow riffer actually asked me to riff something! It's too bad I'll never get the chance. I'm sorry that I couldn't deliver on my promise.
Muleicous. I've always enjoyed your riffs, and I've always wanted to so a co-riff together. Continue to be awesome, okay?
I really hope you write a fic that gets the attention it deserves, Burraku_Pansa. Seriously, it's a crime that your fics get 5 thumbs ups at best. I know a few people that can relate to that (a few of them I have links to their stories on my front page)
I want to thank everyone that I riffed together with in my time here ( I know I missed on some names, and I'm sorry. even in my goodbyes I'm an incompetent moron), all the ones that I've only meet once for bringing me laughs and enduring my company while we all mock the crap out of a horrible fic. The first one I ever did was that horrible Mykan one, and as terrible as that fic is, it did bring a lot of us together, so there's something good that came out of that.
To see you here in front of me (you know what I mean, right?), the last time all together, is a picture I will treasure for a very long time.
So... until the next time we gather, my very dear friends, farewell for now.
This has been NaturalGlitch.