Burn · 6:04am
I've just rewatched 'Luna Eclipsed' because of the date and all, and then, because eff it, I watched the first eight minutes of Crystal Empire Part 1. I hadn't seen an episode of pony in... months.
I'm glad I did, now, but I also feel like a guilty fool.
Immediately after watching, my brain exploded when it tried to acknowledge the existence of this site modeled after the show I'd just seen. It's a strange distortion--a sick, far-out distortion--and I'm not able to fully grasp what's gone on; it's as if someone dropped a toddler in a night club, or something.
In fact, it makes me feel dirty. I feel guilty for having even been in a place like this when it bastardizes something so heartfelt, sweet, and pure. It's a corruption to me right off the bat and every last little thing I've ever read about Twilight that hasn't been in the show makes me feel like I'd read about an impostor--an impostor pulling cheap cash off of their imitation.
I know Twilight sparkle--I just saw over half an hour of Twilight Sparkle. And you know what? None of the fake copies on here can match her.
I can't do this.Knowing the love Lauren Faust and the creators of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic must have for this show makes me extra aware of what's going on, here. If someone took something of mine and wrote or drew something 'fan art' completely out of context, something not even plausible or entirely inappropriate in the universe or canon or reality I'd found, I'd be...
I'd be downright hateful.
Hell, I'd even be pissed they were spending so much time on it when they should be out discovering their own worlds, not stitching multicolored pieces of fabric onto a work I've already sown. What an ugly, non-original quilt that would be! What a gaudy, insulting mess. Mutilation is the most sincere form of fandom appreciation, it appears.
I just can't watch an episode of the show and then acknowledge how much frigging goddam porn and bullshit there is based off of it. It's not something I can do. My Little Pony is a sanctuary, it was meant to be a sanctuary, and people are using it to get off. This is worse than when Jesus caught moneychangers using a temple for business. This is like running a prostitution ring overnight in a daycare center, even letting the clients use the toys. You may clean them off with some Chlorox wipes, but the memory remains, and you can't take back what just happened.
It's rape. It's a passive-aggressive rape for an audience to approve of, for people to get their physical and egotistic rocks off, and I can't sit around here anymore. No. No, no, no, no.
The stories on here don't feature the characters from the show... they use cheap Chinese-factory-stitched costumes and stuff whatever they want inside, then beat them around and call them "Applejack" or "Rainbow Dash" when they're puppets filled with sickly meat. You can put makeup on a pig, but you can't call it Giselle Bundchen.
I might be going off the rails, but I look back at the show, and knowing what I know about this site, I simply cannot justify 98% of the stuff. Sure, maybe the sexual or even adult-humor stuff is spun off of a 'love' of it, but none of that is evoked by the show, and I especially am sure that its creators don't want to acknowledge its existence; if they could, they'd probably burn and ban it all, too.
Think right now how Lauren Faust would feel if she examined this website. Think how she would feel if she took a look at "Equestria After Dark." A lot of you have probably met one of the voice actors--can you think about meeting them, shaking their hands, seeing their smile, and acknowledging what you're read, written, viewed, or even jacked off to without some guilt or shame? Embarrassment is a burn you can't bury in a circumstance like that.
We're using someone else's toys in ways they were never meant to be used and calling it love and creativity. This isn't love, and this is rearrangement and utilization for an unintended purpose, not creativity--this is bastardization of a temporary obsession, raping something for what it's worth while it's there until the next sparkly toy rolls down the production line.
I'm not going to partake in this 'fan facade' gangbang anymore. I became a fan of pony for the right reasons, found a true love and appreciation for the show and its characters, and then partook in the fandom, where I found all the wrong methods and actions, and I'm done sitting in a place where Lauren Faust's children are played with like fuck toys and plastic action figures you can smash against the floor.
I am out. No more of this--I've served my time in this psycho ward, and I won't get bitten by this sickly serpent again. I sincerely hope those of you who love fiction continue writing and grow to be awesome at the art, if you choose to continue this path. Please... find something all your own, a world no one else has discovered, yet, and breathe life into it as it so deserves. Do not continue claiming love for something this pure and then doing nasty, traitorous things.
It's not funny... that's just the false excuse we use to cover our asses. "I did it for laughs." No, you did it because you could, and the only way to cleanse yourself is to get off the addiction. Stop abusing this beautiful, pure thing to get high or get off or get your kicks.
No more mixing alcohol with the kids' drinks. No more raping something so clean as this. "The Library Club" is as true a thing as I could ever write for this place and submit.