This fandom just absolutely disgusts me sometimes. I don't even know why I'm here anymore. I have so little free time, I may as well spend it somewhere that makes me happy. This may not be the end for me, but it's certainly getting closer to it.

So yeah, things didn't turn out so well since my last blog. I have been suffering from a huge financial crisis, which I had to devote almost all my time to fixing (thus my ever increasing inactivity over the past two months). Sadly, I failed. I am now legitimately homeless. You know, like that bearded old guy who lives in a box that smells like urine. I was so close to saving enough money to buy a barely habitable apartment on the bad side of the neighborhood, but alas, I was short by only $200, and I was forced to leave my humble little abode (though the only good thing was that I'd never have to see my landlord again).

Luckily, not all is death and gloom. My Aunt and Uncle were kind enough to let me bunk at their place until I can save up enough money for an apartment. But they aren't in the best financial situation either, and they're facing some personal circumstances that makes their place rather volatile. What I'm trying to say is that I've been inactive, and sadly I'm going to continue being inactive. I need to sort out my life and get things stable again. The reality that I could literally be living on the streets in the middle of winter has become all too real, and it could happen any day now. Also, I'm 21 years old and have nothing to show for it. It's about time I did something about that. I'd love to help out all the people I've promised aid to, but I really need to fix the mess that I call my life. I'm sincerely sorry, and I promise to continue helping you guys as soon as I'm in a more stable position. I also can't wait to continue writing stories. I have so many ideas, and it kills me that I can't find the time to write them.

On another note, I joyfully came back to the MLP fandom to get away from the shitstorm that ravages my life, only to find that the fandom is also in the middle of a huge shitstorm. I won't give any spoilers, but the last episode is going to make huge changes in this fandom. Some people are fine with it. I am not one of those people. In fact, I'm freaking out over this! I can't see how this could end well, and I may even go as far to say that this could mean the end of MLP for me (yes, I know I'm being over dramatic, but this is a pretty big deal). I can only trust that they won't screw everything up, or that the whole situation was just a misconception that we blew up to unnecessary proportions (wouldn't be the first time). I hope to give my full opinion on the matter soon, as well as a few reviews on the show, but I gotta take care of some more important things at the moment.

This isn't the end of Dr. Fumbles, I promise. Stories about colorful ponies are inbound, just you wait.

I'm back! Well, hopefully. I've been gone for almost a week, and I want to apologize to anyone who was waiting for a review or editing. However, I must apologize again, for I may not be back for long, so I still can't promise that I can help you guys. Things haven't been going so great for me (understatement of the century). My life has been one unfortunate event after another, and it seems as though some magical force finds amusement in finding new ways to screw me over. I really wanted to help everyone who was asking for my advice, and I was very excited to continue writing more stories, as well as finishing my current one, but that may be impossible now. It all depends on how things go over the next few days.

I'll post another blog when I'm sure which way the wind is blowing, but until then I intend to enjoy what little time I have before... well, I'd rather not think about it right now.

That explains everything. And yup, I'm still here. Wait, hold on *checks pulse*

Okay, still alive.

(Still working on Pumkin and a few other stories, I just had a lot of setbacks and distractions. Luckily, the apocalypse was not one of them).

Well, I'm still alive! But my drive for writing certainly doesn't feel alive. It was a LONG time ago when I said I was getting close to that test story, saying that I would upload it in about a week. A few months later and no story to be found... When I began writing it, the intention was supposed to be a short one-shot about 2000 words max. But I... got a little carried away. What started as a 2000 word story is now looking like it'll be somewhere around 10000 words...

This is where the problem arises. I have lost all drive to continue writing it, and it still has quite a while to go, despite it being about 4300 words long at the moment. It's not because I suddenly don't like writing, because I still do, but it's because I feel that nobody will like it, or give it a chance. The story premise is very... odd. When I started, I thought that a quick one-shot would be fine because I wouldn't put too much time into it, so there wouldn't be that much of a loss if it failed... but now? I am putting way too much time and effort into something that I feel has a very uncertain fate.

But I thought of a possible solution. I am considering uploading it as it is, and just make two, possibly three parts if necessary. That way, I can still get the critiques I need (which is pretty much the point of this thing, though it has started to turn into more) and my time wouldn't have been wasted. I feel this would be much better as a one-shot, but I just can't continue. If people show interest in its continuation, then I'm sure I'll want to finish it.

If anyone happens to read this, let me know what you think. I kinda just want to move on to more serious, longer projects that I have in the works, but I would feel bad if I just abandoned this entirely due to a fear of people hating it, which might not happen.

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Oh, and the season 3 premiere was awesome. Just thought I should throw that in there.

Yay, first blog post! I know that nobody will read this, so I'm mostly just doing this for myself, and to make my page seem less empty.

Okay, first of all, I decided to write a short, silly, one shot test story before posting my first real story. This should allow me to get criticism on my writing style, technique and story building so I can have at least some idea about what I'm doing before I post any longer stories.

The test story should be done in a few days to a week, depending on how busy I am, so I look forward to it getting ripped to shreds and analyzing what I did wrong, which will make me better. I'm pretty excited about this. I'm so sick and tired of admiring things my entire life. I don't want to just admire, I want to be the guy that actually does something for once. And it's not just about getting popular, I really love writing. I think I have some pretty good stories to tell, and I believe that this is the first step to get there.

Also, this:

Just thought you should know in case there were any doubts.