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    Cerulean1313's Stories (8)

    • Cutie Mark Catastrophes
      Cutie Mark Crusaders find their marks and look to new horizons; taming colts for themselves.

      215,467 words · 6,154 views · 525 likes · 10 dislikes
    • The Risks of Braving a Storm
      Storm Blitz, a massive pegasus, comes to Ponyville after his grandfather dies.
      87,479 words · 3,958 views · 424 likes · 8 dislikes
    • Under the Starry Skies
      Silver Moonshine opens a tavern in Ponyville, hoping to escape the city and maybe find a nice mare.
      129,502 words · 3,213 views · 368 likes · 7 dislikes
    • Song of Whispers
      Fluttershy befriends a pony who refuses to speak, believing his voice causes only disaster.
      180,578 words · 3,237 views · 381 likes · 10 dislikes
    • Tears in the Snow
      82,999 words · 5,137 views · 483 likes · 20 dislikes
    • Touch, Don't Taste
      4,276 words · 2,404 views · 160 likes · 5 dislikes
    • Unplanned Parenthood
      68,952 words · 3,514 views · 329 likes · 15 dislikes
    • Just a Sniff of Friendship
      13,030 words · 622 views · 66 likes · 2 dislikes
    May
    5th
    2013

    No, really, she does!  What, you don't believe me?  Just read...


    I wandered upstairs to look less lazy as I texted Twilight on my phone, noticed the room was also occupied by that one girl that strangely makes a point of saying "hey" that I always said "hey" back to and then forget about, and plopped down in my seat, swiveling around slowly so I'm facing the table while I finish my message.  Upon doing so and putting away my phone, I take a moment and actually look.  I can feel the awkward already, given how studiously she's ignoring my presence, and I, noticing this, don't say anything right away either, wondering why the hay I'm bordering on nervous.  After a few tense moments pass, I choose her notebook, filled with elegant script in blue ink, as a starting point for conversation.

    "Writing?" I ask, boldly displaying my observational prowess and articulation.  She doesn't even glance up at first, focusing intently on the page.  After a few moments of silence, she nods, confirming my outlandish hypothesis.  Strangely intrigued, and mentally apologizing as I knowingly worsened her nervousness, I pried a little more.  “Is that for school, or just for fun?”

    “It’s a hobby,” she responds quietly, glancing up only for a brief moment before returning her gaze to the page.  “I’m... not very vocal about it.”

    Well, I’m about to be.  There’s another writer here, and I didn’t know?  Now, it’s important to note that I wouldn’t exactly say that I was having a googly-eye moment, as there wasn’t any particular attraction in a physical sense, but holy hayseed, was I interested!  I generally pride myself on being fairly sensitive towards others, knowing when to back off if somepony is getting uncomfortable, but I just couldn’t put a lid on it!  “Wow, that’s really cool!  I didn’t know there was another writer here.”  A smile?  Win!  “What genre?”

    “Historical fiction.”

    Hist... what?  I never liked history...  “...huh!”  ...seriously?  That’s all I’ve got to say?  “That’s really interesting!”  ...aaand now it sounds like I’m trying to hard.  Fantastic.  Why the hay am I even doing this?  “What time period?”

    “I really like the 1800’s.”

    1800’s, okay, that’s...  My rumination was short-lived.  Buck.  I have no idea when that was.  Wait, not when it was, she just told me that, I mean...  Heaving an enormous internal sigh, I concede to her superior knowledge of a subject I never paid any heed and, with some degree of humiliation, proceed to inform her that I don’t really know what the 1800’s were like.  Her explanation was short, and sadly, I can’t even remember it.  This is probably because I, like many males, have extreme difficulty managing any more than one task at a time, and while I try to be an attentive listener when females are speaking, my mind quickly rabbit trailed as I realized I was in the presence of an honest-to-Celestia Fluttershy.

    She... totally is.  The way she only makes temporary eye contact, the nervousness, the not saying much of anything with any greater force and a gentle breeze... hay, am I turning things to poetry already?  What kind of magic is she using on me?  Did they have magic in the 1800’s?  I think most witches were burned around then... not that she needs to be burned!  Why the...  Saving me from my head was the entrance of another co-worker, who took what was already a mutually awkward proceeding and promptly gave me good reason to fear for my everything.

    You see, I don’t even remember what the co-worker said, or even what I said in return, but if there was one word to describe my behavior, I’d say it was either “incriminating” or “smitten.”  For no real reason that I was consciously aware of, I responded to the third persons every comment as if she were drawing up wedding plans, and this poor Fluttershy sitting across from me was either thoroughly embarrassed by the suddenly loud and spastic male acting as if he’d just been caught laying down the moves or slightly flattered.  Maybe both.  By the time I did calm and turn back to her, she was smiling, and managed eye contact for more than a split second before returning pen to the page.  The pen, however, remained stationary as I attempted to escape the rabbit hole and return back to somewhere other than making a fool of myself.

    “I never really liked history.”  She looked up at me, and I assessed the flavor of my foot from where it resided: firmly lodged in my mouth.  “T-though I think it could be really interesting!” I covered, quite serious and hoping that the heat tickling my cheeks was purely sensational and not visible to the human eye.  Fluttershy listened quietly as I went on to explain that history as a subject never held any interest for me, but should I take classes again, what I could learn wouldn’t be so much the events of a bygone era, but customs and lifestyles that could serve to add further realism to my writing.  It was actually a subject that I’d given some thought before, and as the conversation continued, I actually got a few sentences out of her.

    “Yikes, listen to how I ramble,” I interjected after a while, standing.  “I’ll let you get back to writing, then.  Sorry to interrupt.”

    “No, it’s fine,” she replied, smiling again.  “Don’t worry about it.”  As I descended back to the land of work, I found myself unable to get over how uncanny the whole situation was.  Was my interest in her solely for the common ground that I didn’t know we shared, or was there something else driving my inexplicable interest in a person I’d paid little attention?  Hay if I know.  All I know is that Fluttershy writes historical fiction, and I wanna read it.

    Cerulean1313 · 161 views
    Apr
    25th
    2013

    ...the mare for whom one holds semi-secret affection informs you that her parents would like to rent you a room, for an extremely fair price with all utilities included plus internet, in the same house that their daughter is living by herself because they really like you.

    ...

    Okay, HOLD up a second, life.  That is not the kind of curve ball I've come to expect from you!  You're freakin' me out!

    *takes a deep breath and lets it out slow...*

    Oh, right... I suppose an explanation is in order.  If you've been reading my posts, you know that there are some big changes on the horizon for me, and that I had been slightly worried as to where I'd end up living when my sister moves to Texas.  Well, a certain mare to whom I will refer to as "Twilight" from now on (primarily because she reminds me very much of the adorkable pony that I know and love) messaged me the other day out of the blue with this:

    "So I remember you saying you're going to need somewhere to stay when your family moves and my parents said you're welcome to rent one of our rooms if you'd like.  Just thought I'd throw the offer out there if it puts your stress down a little."  ...down?  Down?!?  You just... you just offered to let me live with you!  Like, in the same house!  She went on to say that her parents, "...said it was fine because you seem like a very good person and they wouldn't mind (you living in the same house)."  Point of clarification: I have never even officially met her parents.  I work at a grocery store, and they came through my line.  Once.  I'm hoping this isn't a terribly huge leap in logic here, but wouldn't that mean that Twilight had to have basically talked me up to her parents?  She's got over 1000 friends on facebook (no joke, and highly intimidating to somepony with as little self esteem as myself), but yet her parents, whom I don't even really know at all, already trust me enough to let me live with her?  Here I was thinking these type of situations only happen in movies...

    For the record (and my mortal well being in case by some bizarre chance she finds and reads this), I am quite firmly in the friend zone, and there I'm content to stay (for now...).  She has a boyfriend, and being perfectly honest, I wouldn't want to risk the forming friendship that makes coming in to work the highlight of my day by trying to make anything happen.  Just being able to spend a little time around her (even if she is poking fun at me most of the time) brightens even my darkest of days, and being extended the trust of her parents, and the opportunity to spend a little more time with such an engaging mare, isn't something I take lightly.  Am I open to the relationship extending further?  Perhaps in time... but right now, a good friend would be far more valuable to me.  After all, friendship is magic, right?

    Now, a word on business and my writing.  "Soon."  Okay, okay, I'll be a little more specific...  As of this blog post, I have four, almost five chapters done on the next fic.  It's going to be shorter than most, definitely not 200k, and I've been working on it in bits and pieces during my hiatus.  It needs a cover art (which I haven't started looking into), but more than anything, I just need a little more time, though not for me...  

    My nephew, who is also my sister's child, is probably one of my closest friends right now.  We've been together for a good 90% of his life, are extremely close to one another, and in a mere two months, we're both gonna have to deal with being apart.  As such, I've been trying to spend as much time with him as possible, and therefore have found little time to write.  In fact, the move as a whole is creating a ton of family tension, and it's only getting worse as the move draws nigh.  After the move, the house is going to be very quiet, and I've a feeling I'll be driven to write out of desperation for something to release some of the crashing emotions I'm sure I'll be having at the time.

    What can you all expect, then?  Well, I am tentatively planning to "end" my hiatus come July.  I will at least release the first chapter of the next entry in the Ceruverse around that time, if not sooner, but with some warning so you all know to be looking for it.  Take caution, though: this next fic is not a happy fic.  Its purpose is to resolve all the side-plots that I've generated that would only distract from the remaining two character's stories (I feel like I've said this before, but I've a terrible memory).  Hay, if I get cover art soon, I may torment you all by releasing the first chapter sooner rather than later with only monthly updates until its finished...

    Oh!  And thanks to those that responded to my previous post.  Melody may well join the Ceruverse, but as to who he'll be shipped with... well, that's up in the air at this point.  See, I had somepony already picked out for Pinkie, but honestly, I think Melody is more engaging, and I already have his back story and character pretty much figured out.  At the same time, I can totally see him working with any of the Pie sisters, so I may end up holding a poll after the next story is finished to see who he should end up with (Inkie~!!! *squee*).  So... yeah!  Thanks for bearing with me through the downtime, and I hope to get you at least a new chapter to read soon-ish.

    Cerulean1313 · 294 views
    Apr
    14th
    2013

    About a day’s trot from Ponyville through dense woodlands and hills, there is a place in Equestria unlike any other.  Said to have been blessed by the Princess of the Sun, the water that poured from enchanted clouds shimmered with every hue as it flowed, pooling into the deep basins that waited below.  Too beautiful to be adequately described, and yet humble as even the most downtrodden of ponies, the Rainbow Falls freely shared their splendor with both great and small, old and young, rich or poor: anypony was welcome.  Near one of the low lying cloud basins that kissed the earth and brought it’s bounty down for all to share, there was a cabin, and it was in that humble abode, little more than a shack with utilities, that the first rays of Celestia’s morn soothed a slumbering form into wakefulness.

    Through the filter of rickety wooden shades, pale shafts of golden light melted into a stallion’s flowing mane, colored like the very sun that slowly offered its luminescence to dispel the dark.  Slowly easing himself upright, mellow tangerine eyes blinked a few times to brush away what remained of Luna’s lurid liquor: a fitful sleep to renew the mind and body.  Melodious birdsong formed the symphony of wakening, bringing a faint grin to the earth pony’s muzzle as he brushed away a few wadded up papers from the bed and eased himself onto the floor.  He glanced at his desk nearby where several pages lay waiting to be finished, scrapped, or laid aside, and softly shook his head, leaving his vision obscured by the colors of the sun.

    Not even a paragraph, huh?  Shuffling the papers around, he found the title page he’d drafted the evening prior and cringed.  Hay, I must have been really tired...  “The Cabin By the Falls: by Cerulean Sunrise,” he read aloud, shaking his head at his own lack of creativity.  Operating under his pen name, Morning Melody had found a nice little niche writing romance novels that were, oddly, mostly enjoyed by stallions, but his passion also moved him to script lyrics.  Whether it was a heart-moving moment come to fruition after eighty thousand words, or a few powerful verses, invoking emotion within the hearts of others was the stallion’s true passion.  However, that morning was to be one of celebration for the completion of his most recent work.  He held onto his rueful grin for just a moment before clearing his vision and cantering away, easing open the door and stepping out to greet the morning.  

    A delighted moan escaped unrestrained from his lips as the sunlight kissed his cerulean coat, surrounding him in warmth to counter the brisk morning breeze that rustled the grass.  Lifting his eyes, Melody let his gaze sweep out over the place that had become his sanctuary.  Pines, fir, and cypress grew in abundance just a stones throw down the hill, with a mountain spring running just a few minutes walk down the winding path that led to the crest of the hill.  A good days trot from the nearest town, a little place called Ponyville, the solitary stallion took a deep draft of the country air and sighed, his eyes invariably drawn to the phenomenon that never ceased to leave him mystified.

    While many of the falls floated in the sky, there was one that deigned to grace the fallow ground.  Its magical waters tumbled into a basin nestled by a cove around the bend of a rocky spire, and it was one of the most popular spots for the scant few visitors that made the trip.  That morning, however, he could hear the beckoning call of the rumbling cascade that drew him close, and him alone.  Entranced as he always was, Melody felt the flow of lyrics and verse course through his mind like the steady flow through his veins as he neared and gingerly lowered himself into the currentless waters.  Floating on his back with his hooves pulled to his chest, the resident of the falls fell into a trance, listening as the crashing of the falls playing their melody for the rainbows that danced and twirled in the glistening mists.  

    His flowing two-tone mane that had oft left him mistaken for a mare took on hues of magenta and verdant greens as the magic-imbued waters carried it along.  Gentle waves teased his tail that drifted behind him, shifting into hues of vermillion and azure.  Rays of the morn crept further over the trees, lighting the falls and bathing the whole area in shifting lights, and even after the stallion closed his eyes, they lingered still upon his vision.  Just below the surface, if one had looked, they would have seen a golden eighth note surrounded by seven spires to resemble a sun gracing the stallion’s flank, and this mark was neither ornamental nor misleading.  That morning, his inspiration was one of freedom, and the stallion couldn’t help but sing as he leapt from the pool in an explosion of prismatic droplets, lifting his voice to accompany nature’s choir.

    “Blue bird, blue bird, take it away,

    every worry, every care from yesterday!

    The sun is shinin' through the trees

    bathing the hills in a golden sea~

    Robin, robin, carry the tune

    of the buzzing bees and flowers in bloom

    even if the lark should fail to sing

    sparrows will chirp of the joy you bring~!

    Lyre bird, lyre bird, hummin' along

    adding harmony to elation's song!

    Come one, come all, join this Melody

    a gift of joy I'll give for free!

    In the rise of the morning mists I see

    a brand new day laid in front of me

    an endless, reaching opportunity

    a chance to see what I can be~!”

    Responding to his call, the birds of the forest swooped down to lend their ears and voices to their sole pony friend, lighting on his back and working to fix his mane.  Greeting them with jovial words and beaming features, the stallion continued to hum as he cantered towards the rivulet for a drink.  Savoring the crisp, cool taste of the mountain spring, he let out a sigh and tapped his hoof in time with the rhythm still flowing through his mind.  Encouraged by a rather spectacular solo from an enthusiastic starling, Melody joined his host in celebration of the dawn.

    “Cuckoo, cuckoo, what's the time?

    Looks like half passed quarter to shine!

    Would you join me by the trickling stream?

    A little company would make me beam!

    Monarch, monarch, leave your throne

    life's no fun if it's spent alone!

    Come and greet this humble servant yours

    and your subjects gathered on these shores

    Swallow, swallow, grace these skies:

    corkscrews, spirals, dips and dives!

    Like the Wonderbolts in deed and game

    put my bitterness and grief to shame!

    Life's too short to spend one's days

    dwelling on a past that's a blinding haze

    covering my eyes from the stellar rays

    so I ask you, morning, hear me say~

    just take it all away~!”

    Such was Melody when under the influence of a proper night’s rest.  “Thank you, everybirdy!  You were all fantastic, as usual!” he quipped, lifting a hoof and immediately being bowled over by a host of feathered friends.  Laughing and coating an unfortunate sparrow with a sneeze as a wing was unwittingly shoved up his snout, Melody continued chatting with the forest folk until they had finished straightening his mane.  Bidding them farewell and eager to start his next publication, Melody snagged another sip from the stream, skipped the luxury of breakfast, found himself wrestling with a familiar foe the moment he took a seat at his desk.

    “Oh, come on, brain,” he said aloud, throwing his hooves wide.  “You feel that itch?  Huh?  Do ya?  That’s called ‘wanting to write.’  It’s also called ‘earning enough bits to make it through the winter and not starve.  Starving is no fun, remember?  We tried that last winter.’”  A few moments of silence ticked past, wherein neither his pen nor pad bothered to dignify him with a response, and with a sullen sigh, Melody let his head fall to the desk with a dull thud.  “...stupid writer’s block.”

    Alas, inspiration for the poor stallion was much like a geyser, and the spouts had started to dwindle over the past few months.  When he’d first moved to the falls, story upon story had flowed from mind to page, but as of late, it seemed that the tap of creativity had run dry with only minor exception, like the song he had just sung.  It wasn’t that the falls had lost any of their grandeur, no, they were every bit as beautiful as the day that he’d first set down his pack and gaped in wonder, unable to believe his eyes.  However, the faint twinge in his chest after a moment of introspection caused a snort of exasperation, and he folded his hooves across his chest in protest against himself.

    “No.”  A few seconds of silence passed.  “I said no,” he growled again, turning his head away.  “I don’t wanna go to Ponyville.  I don’t need anything else.”  Determined to prove to his rebellious emotions the truth of his words, the stallion adopted a smug grin as he marched over to his small fridge, whipped open the door, and felt the corners of his smile melt.  Aside from a pitcher of stream water, a fourth of a head of cabbage, and two ripe tomatoes, the shelves were empty.  “Well, no matter... that’s what I have a garden for.”  Turning away from his dismal larder, Melody walked outside and rounded the corner to find that he may have pressed himself a touch too hard on his last story.

    “...make that had a garden.  Dang it...” the writer groaned, hanging his head in defeat.  A month of neglect does not a healthy garden make, and as he walked through the cultivated rows of various vegetables, he found that very few were still edible, and even fewer revivable.  Discounting the carrots and the potatoes, everything save an uncharacteristically hearty tomato vine and a few stalks of corn had wilted.  Slightly aghast that he hadn’t caught wind of the pungent odor seeping from the rotting cabbages sooner, Melody was forced to concede that, like or not, he would have to pay the town below a visit.

    “Fine, you win,” he muttered to himself as he contemplated clearing away the withered plants right away or waiting until he actually had something to replace them with.  “I’ll go to Ponyville, but let’s get something straight!  There are going to be rules.  First, no looking at mares.  You might think this silly, but I assure you, it is within both of our best interests.”  He paused a moment, staying his hoof while his heart communicated to him a few choice words that his tongue rarely spoke.  “...ok, maybe just a peek.  But only looking, do you hear me?  Mares are a pain.  They’re a lot of work, and... and they break your heart, and... you want to be broken?” he exclaimed, glaring at his chest.  “Well, tough!  I’d rather not go through that again, thank you, so you’re just going to have to be satisfied with sneaky glances and other such socially questionable looking.”  

    This seemed acceptable to his loneliness, and with the matter decided, he gratefully greeted the fresh breeze not reeking of fetid compost as he left the garden and cantered back to his house to gather his things.  Living a simple life, there wasn’t a whole lot to gather: a saddlebag, a sack of bits to pay for some food and seeds, and a canteen for the trip.  Muttering to himself as he packed, Melody turned towards the cupboards above the small dual-burner stove and found them barren as well.  Sheesh, I really haven’t been down to town for a while...  After another few moments spent in contemplation of his solitary lifestyle and the utter lack of social stimulation that came with it, Melody decided to embrace this opportunity as a time to work on his phobia of the general public and, hopefully, return home without alienating himself from the townsfolk further.

    “I wish I had some tea,” the stallion murmured to himself as he closed the cupboard doors and saddled up.  “Water is like... like potatoes!  No, no, that’s not right; potatoes crunch.  Water doesn’t crunch... wait, ice is crunchy, so I guess they really are like potatoes!  Completely bland and unexciting unless they are cooked and prepared with something else!  Well, you don’t really cook water, do you... except for when you make tea!  That decides it: I’m brilliant, and I’m getting tea!”  Pausing as his proclamation from the doorway echoed down the forest trail, the stallion sat with his hoof raised for a moment before his ears went flaccid and reached for the ground.

    “I really... won’t make any friends, talking to myself like that...” he murmured with a sigh, closing the door behind him.  “I mean, who’s gonna want to hang around a stallion talking to himself about potatoes?  I might as well up the ante and talk about yams.  I mean, who talks about yams?  ‘Oh, they’re so orange and mushy when you-’  No!  Nopony talks about yams, that’s who!  Except... for... me.  Right now.  I am talking about yams.  Dang it!”  Shushing himself and adjusting the bag strapped around his back, the stallion continued for another few steps in silence.  

    “...they do taste good with cinnamon, though.  Oh, and sweet cream!  They-” he stopped, clapping a hoof to his forehead and letting out a growl.  “Why the hay am I still talking about yams?”  As if in answer, a cavernous groan from his belly reminded him that he hadn’t eaten in quite some time, perhaps more than a day, and he cringed as another few steps led to another growl.  My stomach is gonna eat me alive before I make it to town.  Even if I ran most of the way, I wouldn’t make it down until at least sunset...  There has to be some way to get there faster!  The corner’s of his mouth slowly curled into a mischievous grin as he turned towards the garden shed.  

    “...that’s it!”  Bolting over in a rush of excitement, the stallion galloped around to the back side of a small tool shack where a small four wheeled cart sat tethered to a post.  “Why the hay did I even buy this thing?” Melody wondered aloud as he examined the cart of questionable structural integrity.  Hmmm, moss growing out the timbers, wheels are coated in... something, certainly not grease.  Smells funky, too.  Leaping into the bed without a second thought, Melody frowned as the whole thing groaned and bowed slightly at his weight.  

    “Well, aren’t you a pathetic cart!” he declared, feigning offence.  “Trying to make an emaciated stallion feel tubby?  You... you beast!”  Sniffing back fake tears, he tested the suspension by rocking side to side.  It’ll turn... probably?  He rocked again, and grinned.  This... is a terrible idea.  If nothing else, the stallion was entirely aware of the sheer madness that was his plan, but this neither stayed his hoof from untying the rickety contraption nor restrained his laughter as he pulled the cart over to the path running down from the house.  Standing poised at the precipice of the ludicrous, Melody dropped the reins, leapt into the bed of the cart, planted his hooves on the sides, and narrowed his gaze into a challenging leer.  “Alright, cart... let’s get some yams.”

    Melody threw his weight forward and tensed as the cart began to roll.  A tentative shift of his weight and the makeshift wagon drifted with him in a surprisingly responsive manner, and while the incline wasn’t particularly steep, momentum continued to build.  Letting out a whoop as the wind caught his mane and whipped it about like linens hung to dry during a spring storm, the stallion banked to the right to keep on the path as he rounded the first bend.  Already racing much faster than anypony could gallop for longer than a few minutes, Melody closed his eyes ever so briefly as the tantalizing thought of a decent meal teased his senses.

    “Mmmm... oh hayseed!” he yelped, lunging to the right as a boulder jutting out of the path raced towards him.  Racing, however, was not the stallion’s talent, and his overcompensation nearly toppled the cart.  Banking for a few terrifying seconds on two wheels, the cart slammed back down to earth on a collision course with a solid rock face.  Not particularly taken with the notion of creating a mural with his muzzle, Melody jerked to the left, losing the path completely and careening down the steep and untamed hillside.  One might expect a pony hurtling towards their certain and assuredly painful demise to at least scream a little, but no, the stallion looked rather bored as nettles and briers loomed in the distance.  Heaving a little sigh, Melody hung his head and donned a rueful grin.

    “...looks like I'm a masochist.”  The briers agreed.  A lot.  Plowing through the brush and collecting quite a thorny following, Melody cleared his vision and planted his hooves on the sides, determined to make the most of his last few moments with all his limbs attached.  “Brier!  Tree!  Tree!  ‘Nother tree!  Nettles!  Bench!  Wait, what the what?” the stallion murmured, glancing behind him at the random piece of furniture that was quickly lost among the trees.  “Who the hay leaves a perfectly good b-”  There was a massive crunch as the cart plowed headlong into a rather solid oak, followed by a glorious feeling of weightlessness, and just moments later, the stallion found himself soaring over the treetops with all the grace of an audacious dodo.


    A/N: Just a chapter of a story that will likely never be completed.  It was supposed to be a story about my OC, but I decided writing a romance for myself when there is nopony in my life would just come out feeling empty, so I discontinued it.  It was fun to write, though!  If anypony would like to see this continued, let me know.  I could at least get Melody to Ponyville, maybe...

    Cerulean1313 · 344 views · Edited 4w, 6d ago
    Apr
    6th
    2013

    New Story+ · 5:37am

    As promised, and only two weeks late, I've a new one-shot out!  Go read it!  Or not.  Yanno, whatever y'all feel like... and to those who have read it, yes, I know, it's really strange.  The next one-shot will be more grounded, I swear.  Also, I've an update on my living situation, but I'll make a new post for that in a few along with some other tidbits of information.  Hope to see you all in the comments!

    Cerulean1313 · 220 views
    Mar
    21st
    2013

    So... Dysrhythmia · 12:38am

    TLDR: On hiatus, one shot coming soon, health update

    Hey, everypony!  Just wanted to give you all an update in regards to a number of subjects, so we'll start with my health.  I went to the doctor today, and the results were inconclusive on just about every point.  My blood sugar checked out just fine, which I expected given the fact that I've already started exercising and eating healthier.  The chronic chest pain I mentioned resulted in an EKG which came out fine as well, but in so doing revealed that my heart is acting a little funny, by which I mean that the valves are opening/closing out of sync.  This "Dysrhythmia" in and of itself isn't a cause for immediate worry, but they want to sent me to a cardiologist for an Echocardiogram.  Only problem is my "insurance" that I do have may not cover it, at which point that problem will have to go back on the shelf, which is slightly worrisome to me because I found out upon returning home that "Hypertrophic Cardio Myopathy" is genetic and runs in my mother's side, and may well be what's going on.  Translation?  I could be risking a heart attack if I let myself get overly stressed or engage in cardio.  Lame...  Don't freak out, though, as I seriously doubt I am currently at risk of such things.  In the next week or so I'll be getting some labs done to test my blood and cholesterol, as well as chest X-rays.  I will likely do another update to let everypony know the results once I know what's going on in a week or two.

    In other news, it's been confirmed that my sister is moving to Texas, and there is even a date set for it sometime the end of June.  This is no longer a mere possibility, and as such I've requested more hours at work to try and build up my savings so when the time does come, I can stay here.  I really don't want to move, and I'll have until October to figure out what the hay I'm doing, but for now I'm going to just assume that I'll be staying in the area.  No word on that new job opening up yet, sadly, so I'll be sticking to the one I have for the time being.

    On to more happy things!  I know it's been a while since you've all seen any writing, and I know I promised you some shorts a while back.  Well, my editor has been dealing with stuff just as hectic as my situation, if not moreso, and simply hasn't had time.  However, he'll have this next week off of work, and if nothing else, I should have at least one of my one-shots ready for the public eye.  Also, I recently was sent some fan art that I'd like to share with you all!  This was sent to me in a PM, and I just had to feature it cause it totally made my day.  Thanks, OathOfCalm!

    <3 RumbleBloom! <3

    Now... I'd just like to take another moment to do two things.  For one, thank you all again for being amazing and supportive.  It really means a lot to me!  Secondly, I'm not done writing fan fiction.  Production may slow due to real life things and, of course, the fact that I'm on hiatus, but I don't intend to just drop this series.  I may, however, be writing a book pretty soon here.  Like, a real one.  I've come up with some characters, am ironing out the setting and story arcs, and am strangely excited for it to the point that I can't stop thinking about it, which is a good sign.  After all, that's part of why I kept writing here on fimfiction: to develop my skills enough to use it for a career.  I can't reveal any details yet, but I'll keep you all informed if and when progress is made on anything I've mentioned above.  Until then~

    Cerulean1313 · 296 views
    Feb
    15th
    2013

    There’s a lot to cover in this blog post, as there is a lot going on in my life right now.  However, for those who want the bottom line, here’s the tl:dr, because this is a really long post.

    Author Status: On Hiatus

    Now, I’m sure this is the last thing anypony wants to hear, but allow me to elaborate.  Anyone can work themselves to exhaustion, and I hit that point oh... right around the time I finished “Under the Starry Skies.”  That was roughly half a year ago, but as you are all aware, I kept writing.  However, updates took longer, my next story was a focus-scattered clusterfluff of mistakes, and the time it took me to write moved from days to weeks.  That’s not to say I didn’t work on my stories, no, writing is pretty much my only form of entertainment, and I worked on them nearly every night.  However, after “Starry Skies,” something shifted, and it’s been wearing on me ever since.

    When I first started writing, I was doing so because I had something in my head and heart that I wanted to share.  As time went on, I stopped writing because I had it in my heart to do so, and more because it was expected.  I had fans.  I had readers chomping at the bit for more, and I... well, I listened.  Or tried.  It became increasingly difficult to write, but I was too afraid to take a step back and refocus, so I barreled forwards without having any clue what I was doing, and I’m paying for it now.

    I am not saying that “Song of Whispers” is a “bad” story, but it has a lot of problems.  I messed up so many parts of the story, mainly by not even focusing on the main pairing half the time.  I mean, Whisper is adorable!  And when you mix him with Fluttershy, well... remember when he discovered the microwave?  There were moments during that story where the old passion I once felt on a daily basis flared bright, and it’s visible in the writing.  The rest was me trying to string those things together, desperately hoping for inspiration to strike again.  It was a horrible experience for me, and after delving into serious matters of controversy with Rarity’s struggle when it shouldn’t even have been in the story in the first place, I walked away from that fic exhausted.

    I couldn’t even rest after that, though, as I had already released the first two chapters of “Cutie Mark Catastrophes.”  However, any author that wishes to improve accepts constructive criticism and applies it to grow, and after the mess I feel I made with “Songs,” I refused to force a chapter a week.  I had started a story, and inspiration or not, I wanted to do it right, so I worked chapters, reworked chapters, and worked them again until I was satisfied, or at least not ashamed.  The only problem is that the story hadn’t had any time to develop in my mind, and couldn’t when I was constantly trying to “make it work.”

    Now, know this: I’m bucking proud of “Cutie Mark Catastrophes.”  It’s way longer than I had anticipated, and there were times when I nearly dropped it and walked away, but it’s a story that I am proud to have my name to.  But I was already exhausted by the time I started, and it’s only gotten worse as the months have gone on.  From start to finish, this story took eight and a half months.  “Risks of Braving the Storm” took me eighteen days start to finish.  “Under the Starry Skies” took right around a month and a half if I recall.  That, my friends, is how I can write when there is passion to do so, but I can’t feel passion when all I see is pressure.  Most of it is imagined, purely in my head, because every time I posted begging for your patience, you all shouted back “chill out and take your time!”  I probably should have listened, but I can be a little thick sometimes, and now, eight and a half months later, here we are.

    Real life has a way of screwing with plans.  Originally, I had planned on saying “give me one month to recuperate,” but no, I’m not fixing a time limit, and there are a number of reasons why.  Firstly, the moment I drop something like that, it becomes a deadline in my mind, and I can’t well feel free with that hanging over my head.  Obligation is one of the biggest threats to my productivity, and I can’t risk it.  As of this post, I am on hiatus, and I don’t know when I’m gonna be back.

    On a more serious note, there are some crazy changes coming up in my life.  As of right now, I live with my sister, paying only 200$ for rent, free utilities.  For those of you who don’t know, living in California is bucking expensive, and I’d be lucky to live in a cardboard box for under 650$, and that’s pushing it.  My sister’s choice leaves me with three.  I can try to make it on my own here, and I could possibly survive.  However, it’d be paycheck to paycheck, and Celly forbid car trouble or health problems.  Oh, those... yeah, I’ll cover those in a bit.  Secondly, I could move with her to Texas... to a tiny town of some four thousand people.  I don’t even know the name, but it’s friggin’ tiny.  Thirdly, I could move to Virginia and live with a brother who is ashamed to be seen with me in public because I like ponies.  Yeah, not the most encouraging prospect, is it?  

    (Oh, and on the off chance you read this, brother?  I’m not happy.  I came out there to patch things up, and you wouldn’t even deign to indulge me in serious conversation.)

    Right now, I make 11.00$ an hour, no benefits.  I didn’t care about that at first, but I’ve noticed a steady decline in my physical health.  I don’t think that any of it is life threatening, but it’s more worrisome than I care to think about on a daily basis.  What was even more frightening to me is when I found out that the majority of the symptoms could quite possibly all be linked.  I recently discovered that I’m showing 80% or more of the symptoms for Type 2 Diabetes, and that doesn’t even touch the chest pains (been going on for... two years? three?  So, it’s likely not life threatening, but it sure is distracting) and another problem that isn’t pleasant.  Oh, and one of the many symptoms of Type 2 is chronic fatigue, which is mutually exclusive with having the will to write.

    If I may be perfectly frank, my life right now is... scary.  I’m having health problems when I used to be healthy, I’m likely going to be uprooted from the only town I’ve ever known, and to add to all this, I’ve been fighting tooth and nail with depression.  I love all of you, my readers, but it hurts to wake up and know that nopony I can drive and visit even remotely cares about the things that interest me.  I feel isolated and terribly lonely, and such sentiments make it rather difficult to write cute and happy romance stories.  Add to that the fact that season 3 has disappointed me on a number of levels, and I just... don’t find a whole lot to look forward to.

    Hope is not lost for me though...  I’ve suffered through darker times and soldiered on, because in case you all haven’t figured out, I find love fascinating.  As much joy as I can glean from crafting a moving story, I hope to one day live my own, and that singular desire to find somepony who I can look in the eyes and tell them that they make every single pain, from start to finish, worth every second... well, I’ve clung to that for twenty four years now, and it’s not gonna change.  I’m depressed with how it feels like every time I stand it’s only to be knocked down, frightened of all the changes in my life and in my health, and isolated even as familiar faces around town greet me with a smile, but I refuse to give up.

    In light of all these changes, I honestly don’t know when I’ll have the last three stories finished.  I don’t even really want to write the intermediary fic because the whole deal with Cerulean’s parents is a product of me blundering forward with no direction.  At first, I was gonna model them after my own parent’s relationship, and then I kinda bailed on that, and I just kept ad-libbing, and now, well... I’ve got a whole lot of questions to answer that wouldn’t have come about in the first place if I wasn’t, well... a noob.  That’s right, I said it!  Before “Tears,” I’d never written anything outside of schoolwork, so let’s chock this fiasco up to me being a novice, eh?  Mulligan?  Anypony? *sigh*

    Now, all this being said, what can you all expect, then?  Well, it’s not the next story in the Ceruverse, but I do have two one-shots finished that I had a lot of fun writing, and will be releasing those sometime in the not too distant future.  One of them is an idea that came to me in the midst of a high fever and reflects my delusional state fairly well, as the fic is... well, bucking strange, I’m told.  Entertaining, but bizarre.  The second is a short and sweet one with a hint of TwiPie, though no actual shipping occurs.  There may be more that pop up, as I doubt I’ll stop writing completely, but again, no promises.  None.  Sorry.

    I have what would be a short story that’s totally different from everything else I’ve written, and by different I mean HiE/Sad/Tragedy.  I’ll probably never finish it, but it’s basically my vent fic that I only write for when I’m totally bucking depressed.  

    Now, for something that should be counted as good news!  While I know everypony is eager for more in the Ceruverse, the fact of the matter is that my aspirations to make my living as an author may well become a necessity to eat.  Basically, I may need to start writing my first real novel sooner rather than later in light of my coming living situation.  Now, I will say that my sister moving isn’t 100% at this point, but it’s looking to be a good possibility, and that’s something that I can’t just shrug off and “deal with when it happens.”  Life does not shine brightly for the apathetic, and I may well be forced to ply my trade for money before I had intentioned.

    However!  What I would like to do is ponify the story (would still take place in the fim universe, but the story would focus around OC’s.  The mane six would appear, and one or two would play minor roles, but otherwise, it’d be OC-centric, and OC x OC romance) and publish it here to work out kinks and get feedback.  It’d be the first in a trilogy, or so I hope, and it’s quite a bit different that the fics I’ve written so far.  I’m actually really excited about it!  Again, though, I can’t say when such a thing would come about.  I may post some of the dialogue, or maybe the intro, as a blog post to see what kind of a reaction it gets, but that’s some time off.

    Yeesh, how I ramble...  My apologies if it was disconcerting at all, having somepony get so personal, but that’s part of who I am, for better or for worse.  I’m pretty open, even about some really deep/painful/sensitive things, and when asked, I normally answer.  I guess I wasn’t asked in this case, but I also have a habit of over-explaining things, and I feel you all deserve to know why you’re being forced to wait.  I wish I didn’t have limits, but I reached exhaustions months ago, and I’m finally putting my weary hoof down and saying it’s time for me to rest.  By rest, I mean read, write whatever I feel like, and explore new horizons.

    Ok, so not the greatest, most spectacular piece of art ever to grace your retina’s, but just hear me out.  Firstly, I’ve never taken a free-hand drawing class.  In fact, the only art classes I took were what was required of me in the educational system, and a beast of a course in college called “Introduction to the Elements of 2-D Design.”  The other day, I swung by Best Buy and picked up a stylus for my iPad which had been collecting dust in the corner of my room.  I had literally bought it for the sole purpose of playing the Ponyville game, and... well, the romance didn’t last with that.

    So I nabbed the stylus, drove home after a clusterfluff of four wasted hours of a day off, and started browsing the apps.  Downloaded a few, started doodling, and this was the first product.  Now... this may sound silly, given that it’s, honestly, sketchy for a sketch, but I was bucking proud of myself!  I mean, no prior experience, and I made that?  In, like... an hour? (please excuse me while I sing praises to myself to accompany the crickets...)  Good or not, I hadn’t had that much fun since writing about Pipsqueak using the syrup bottle as a cannon, and I couldn’t put down the stylus.

    Ok, second pony I ever drew!  Different program, different tools, different look.  Yes, his schnoz is outta control, I’m aware, and his cutie mark was a pain to try and draw!  Perspective is a beast when you’ve never been taught about it, really...  Anyways, I was still happy with this, particularly his mane and tail.  Oh, and when I say “his,” I mean me.  I figured it was time you saw all got to see my OC, so here his is: Mo(u)rning Melody - Author, lyricist, eccentric hermit.  His Cutie Mark, while not shown, is an eighth note surrounded by seven spires (or at least that's how it's set right now.  It look like a sun, with the round part of the note forming the core).

    Ok, third pony!  I hate drawing eyes.  They are so freaking difficult!  Actually, the face as a whole is my weakest point.  This is the OC of one of my best buddies.  He goes by Sterling Pinion, and is a unicorn engineer that dreams of flight.  He loves tinkering, and is currently working on a set of magic-powered wings so that he can soar the skies.

    Bam.  Fourth pony.  Look at pony 1... and now pony 4.  This is still the first day I tried my hoof at drawing.  Forgive me again if I sound proud of myself, but... I’m bucking proud of myself!  I’m no Tsitra360, not even close to JJ, but for a first timer?  I was (am) stoked with how this turned out.  Her name is Honeygold, distant relative of Applejack, and one of the OC’s that I plan to use in that trilogy.  I won’t divulge any more details just yet, but she talks with a thick scottish accent, and works the Rugged Russet Range.

    Oh... my freaking goodness... did this mare’s mane take for freaking ever!  Maybe she’s gonna be more of a pain to woo than I thought... *ahem* right, um...  This is Serenity.  Her Cutie Mark is a pink lotus blossom, a symbol of purity and, like her name, serenity.  While not terribly versed in magic, she knows a variety of calming spells which she can use in conjunction with her skills as a masseuse.  At least, she would, if she was ever allowed outside for more than an hour at a time...  Won’t say any more, but she’s also another key character in the trilogy I have brewing in my head.  She's also my first attempt at doing color/shading, and it's far from perfect, but... could be worse!

    That’s all the drawing stuffs I have for now, as I’m still new and they take time.  That, and I’ve run out of days off for the week.  Now, I don’t know if you’ve all picked up on this or not, but Morning Melody and Sterling Pinion will both be main characters in the trilogy as well.  In a way, you could say that this makes both characters partial self-inserts, and the reason for that is simple; if the story is good, why does it matter?  It’s not like I’m gonna go cavorting through Ponyville, bedding every mare I find, right?  My character lives alone in a cabin a day’s journey from Ponyville, and he doesn’t even LIKE going to town.  I think I’ll be dodging most concerns that arise from self-inserts.  That, and the story ideas themselves are largely from RP that I do with Sterling, and they get pretty hilarious at times.

    I... think that about wraps it up.  I hope to be rested and writing sooner rather than later, and I think having a new outlet in drawing will definitely help, and hey!  Ponies.  Sketchy ponies, but ponies nonetheless.  Thank you all for your support and understanding.

    Oh, right!  Here's a link to my DA, where I'll be posting new stuff as it comes.

    Cerulean1313 · 524 views · Edited 13w, 1d ago
    Jan
    25th
    2013

    So... I wasn't planning on doing another blog post just yet, but a commission Magical Trevor put in for me a while back finally got done, and it's not like anypony will complain about more Dawn, right?  It's also worth noting that this is the best picture of Cerulean (no, not me...) to date.

    Anyhow, after everypony has had a chance to appreciate the chart-topping levels of adorableness in the picture, there's one more thing to mention.  Magical Trevor, somepony who's been helping me with editing since Risks, is going to be writing his own fic pretty soon here, but he's taking a poll to see who the OC should be paired with.  Head on over here and vote!

    Art by fuzzetch of DeviantArt

    Cerulean1313 · 391 views
    Jan
    21st
    2013

    Sheesh, it's really been two weeks since my last chapter post?  Time doesn't stop, does it?  Anyhoof, here's the tl:dr - I'm working on it.  

    I kinda went nuts writing the "final" chapter for the CMC, so much so that it came out to 14k.  While there are scenes I'm really proud of, I've been informed by one of my pre-readers it's a bit dry in spots and there's likely a few thousand words of unnecessary stuff that needs heavy editing or deletion.  I finally have a day off today, so I'm gonna try and get it all worked out so I can post it before the end of the week, and after that I just have to get the final two chapters ready and edited before the relief of slapping a done label on this thing comes to pass (I've been working on this story for nearly seven months now; I need a break!).

    On a side note, how set are ponies on having a Gale chapter?  I mean, I have one written, but... well, the first 2.6k or so is Gale being awesome, and then the next like 4k is really sad.  Would you all like to see that sadness, vaguely hear about it in passing, or just rest easy knowing that everything turns out ok in the end?  It seems a little out of place for a story I've tried to keep light-hearted and comedic, and maybe I just need to completely rewrite the dang thing, but I figured I'd ask all of you.

    Cerulean1313 · 349 views
    Jan
    2nd
    2013

    Let Me Dream · 9:08pm

    So... I had originally intended to make this really long new year's blog post with information on coming fics and other such things, but instead, I'm going to wait on that stuff until after the last chapter of "Cutie Mark Catastrophes" goes up.  In the meantime, have a song I wrote on the first of the year.  It... really describes how I felt on new years eve and day.  I hope you enjoy, and I'd love to hear feedback.  

    “Let Me Dream”

    The glowing night will soon be upon us

    and I’ll bask in a thousand dancing lights

    here... within the calm of the forest

    clinging to the sweetest kind of lie

    Sometimes, the truth seems too much to bear

    so as I lay my head upon this earthen floor...

    Let my mind drift away... and wander

    to a place where I can find something more

    As I think of brighter days,

    of you and I in summer’s rays,

    may the warmth become the binding seam...

    never to be torn apart,

    because we never got to start,

    so I ask... Luna, please let me dream.

    (Luna)

    borne upon the wings of the pegasi,

    cast aside the earth, let it fade away

    with a shimmering horn, light my jeweled sky

    to be shared with the one you longed to stay

    when the time has come, I’ll let Celestia’s pride

    rise upon this glade where you lay alone

    may her rays be gentle, for the tears you’ve cried

    are more precious than every costly stone.

    As I think of brighter days,

    of you and I in summer’s rays,

    may the warmth become the binding seam...

    never to be torn apart,

    because we never got to start,

    so I ask... Luna, please let me dream.

    (me)

    there’s no ire in my heart for the rising morn

    I’ve no grievance towards Celestia’s domain

    but in reality I have no wings, nor horn

    so intact, let this fabrication remain

    I know the day will come, the sun will climb

    and with a heavy heart, my head will rise...

    this place is not my home, but for a time

    let these whispering woods guard my eyes

    For now, I live in brighter days,

    you and I sharing summer’s rays,

    may the warmth become the binding seam...

    and when it’s torn apart

    I’ll be right back at the start,

    so I ask...

    just for now...

    let me dream...

    Luna, please... let me dream...

    Cerulean1313 · 420 views
    Dec
    28th
    2012

    Hey, guys... updated the progress status, as should be obvious.  I wish I could say that the conclusion chapter is nearly finished, but the truth is I've been struggling with a sudden bout of depression, and the holidays only made things worse.  Angry customers at work, family tensions, getting chewed out by my ex-girlfriend Christmas eve, finding out that I might be displaced this summer and forced to move... it hasn't exactly been fun.  I've been steadily working towards prepping these final four chapters, because they are, in effect, the finale, with just a chapter or two afterwards, but I haven't been getting much else done.  I was hoping to get this fic done by the turn of the year, but unless something shifts, I doubt it'll happen.  I'm trying, though!

    ScootaPip: 100% - Posted!

    RubySpoon: 100% - Posted!

    RumbleBloom: 100% - Undergoing final edits

    SpikeBelle: 100% - Undergoing final edits

    Gale: 40-50% - Uh... he's not really part of the CMC, but adopting Pipsqueak is kinda related, so... there seems to be enough interest to justify a chapter to describe his little adventure in Canterlot.  It may not happen, but I already have some good stuff written, so I'll probably force myself to follow through. (also haven't touched it since this post went up...)

    Picture is of Flying Grace, Scootaloo's mother.

    Art by kryptchild

    Cerulean1313 · 178 views · Edited 20w, 2d ago