On prying out nails · 2:21am
I'll start by repeating the edit I made at the end of my previous post:
I've already been made aware in comments that the article I linked to is supposedly a fake. I only say "supposedly" because I have no desire to go digging into it and determine if the claim is correct.
Furthermore, I've concluded that it's entirely possible for this whole thing to just be my depression spiking for some reason and the article was just something to latch onto. And for the people telling me to get help, I already am. I've been on Buspar and Prozac for some time now, and they've both been helping a lot.
Something depression can do, aside from sapping your drive to do basically anything, is drown out the good in things while highlighting the bad. Something friends can do, however, is reverse that. I think my previous post was an example of the former, and the comments on it the latter.
I'd like to thank all of you for your words of support, and showing me the positive side of the brony community again.
I don't know why my depression suddenly spiked so badly these past few days. Usually I can think of something that set me off, but now I wonder if what I thought was the trigger in the past was really just the first thing I reacted badly to while under its spell. I don't know, but maybe it's something I should bring up at my next appointment.
As for my stories, Like Twilight in Kraken, I'm not about to make promises I don't know I can keep. I want to finish Kraken, and follow up on Derpy Day and Dinky Debates, and write the other stories I have in my head, but I don't know when or even if I'll be able to. I don't know if I'm too drained to focus my creative efforts, if I've been out of the game too long for jumping back in to be as easy as before, or if I've just lost the pony muse for good. I guess only time will tell.
tl,dr; you all rock and thank you putting up with my emo bullshit.