> A College Life- Trivium's Story Part II > by Trivium > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Chapter 1: Beginning? > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 1: Beginning? The flight was long, cold, sad, and lonely, but hey, at least I made it alive. I stood infront of a large building- the main building of the CIT, where I had to fill out a bunch of paperwork, get my dorm room, and everything along with that. The place was truely stunning- the amazing structural art in everything, the attention to detail, and the massive amount of fellow computer nerds around me. I had been awake with little food or water for around 3 days by the time I reached the college, but some ponies were nice enough to give me some food and water, and then direct me to the main building. I trudged into the place, finding an array of stairs, doors, and elevators all around. I searched for a few minutes before finding the stairs I was to take. I sat in a chair in a generally small room, where there were many other ponies had paperwork to fill out. I flopped onto a chair to wait, and rested my eyes... "Excuse me, sir." I slowly opened my eyes. An office worker was shaking me. "Long flight?" She asked. "Far too long." I groaned, standing up. I walked over to the desk the office worker sat down at. "So here's your paperwork," She said, putting forward a folder with stacks of paper- and a pen. *** I slammed the door of my dorm lazilly. I dropped my items onto the floor and fell face-down onto the bed. The paperwork had taken too long to finish, but now I could just sleep. And that I did. After an undefined (but much resting) period of time, I woke. I lay there staring at the ceiling for a while before I realized that I'd have to get up and un-pack. The first thing I did was set up my computer, and email Rainbow Dash. "Hey, Dash. Just sending an email, I've just got to my dorm and started un-packing, took this time to send you an email. I miss you, and love you. I hope you're having a good time down there! -Trivium" Email sent. After sending that email my eyes seemed to like... Open? I don't know. I just suddenly noticed details of my dorm. The end-table and lamp next to the bed, the large window (which was exclusive, because I was a pegasus I got an extra-high dorm) which could see almost the entire university, the dresser with nothing in it, and a few other things. What I really liked was that the dorm was big enough to give me some room. After a few hours of un-packing, I'd set up my alarm clock, or torture device, I should say. I sat down at my computer, to check my email. "Hey, good to see you made it! I'm glad you're still okay, how was the flight? I want pictures, and things, okay? I've gotta go for now, love you! -Rainbow Dash." There was a picture file attached of the two of us. I instantly made that picture my desktop wallpaper, then layed down on the bed. I suddenly felt a surge of sadness and broke down. I lay facedown crying, un-able to stop. I realized right then, that I might not get to see her again. I would be going years with only seeing her text, and occasionally seeing her pixalated face through computer-calls. *** I slowly woke to hear knocking on my dorm. Sunlight leaked through the blinds and into my room. Frost formed on the window-sill. I groaned, my body feeling sore as I stood. I trudged over to the door and opened it. "Hi.... I heard somepony crying last night and... I just wanted to check and see if... Everything was alright?". A Female pegasus stood at the door, tilting her head at me. She had a mint-green coat with a brown mane and wings. "Yeah..." I said. "You seem troubled... Need to talk?" "Yes..." I admited, hanging my head as I let her in. She sat herself down on the bed, patting next to her. I slowly sat. "Okay, what's the matter?" "It's just that..." I started. "I've lived with my girlfriend for a while and.... It's hard to get along without her around... She's the only reason I'm still alive, and... It's just....." I sniffed, a tear running down my cheek. "I really miss her..." The pegasus wiped the tear, then hugged me. "Hey...." She kept her hooves on my shoulders. "If you ever need to talk, I'm right to the right of your dorm, exact neighbor." "Thanks..." I said, pausing once I realized I didn't have her name. "Serenity..." She said, smiling. "You're Trivium, right?" "What? Yeah, how'd you know?" I asked, already knowing the answer. "You're dating Rainbow Dash, and she's REALLY famous among pegasi." She said, smiling. *** After talking to Serenity, I felt a little better. I sat in my bed for a while, just thinking of Rainbow Dash. After a long time, I got up, and left simply left, to explore the University's grounds. To get my mind off things, and stuff. > Chapter 2: Old... Friend? > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- The air was rather cold, and the wind was sharp. I walked through the crowds of ponies, cold wind blowing constantly against my face. I heard lots of chatter, and I couldn't see very much, because I was significantly shorter then almost every other pony in the area. I eventually found a less crowded area, and started exploring the area around there. This university must've had tons of land, being that it was a major institution of technology in Canterlot. Of course it was going to be massive, what was I thinking? My mind wandered just as I did. I was walking passed some dorms, the more high-end ones, to be specific. I assumed that the reason this area was empty was because most the ponies who lived in those were out being high-class or something. I paused, hearing a voice I'd recognized. "You...." I felt chills run down my spine. "Triv....Ium?" I turned, slowly. "Vadorous?" I gasped, seeing him. "You still mad at me?" He asked, grinning. Typical old Vado. He stood next to a white unicorn, one I recognized from one too many trips to a bar. "You." She said, stepping forwards, cutting Vadorous off. "If you ever, even thing about touching Vadorous, I will be sure to arrange your funeral quickly." Her horn glew red. I felt fear and pain flowing through me, I tried to run, but I was frozen. "Vinyl! Wait!" Vadorous cried out, his voice sounding miles away. "You have no business here." She growled. Her voice seeped into me, like inc slithering through a river, finding its' target with ease. I felt like I was shrinking. I tried again to move, or cry out, but I was frozen, locked in her spell. "You'd best go back to the box you live in." Feeling a rush of fear, pain, shock, and many more emotions was too much to handle. I felt a heavy pang of exhaustion and collapsed. *** "He's fine," I heard a voice. "I made sure of it." "Well," I heard a guard's voice. "Dragging an un-conscious pony through university grounds isn't exactly a great idea, and I think you could image why, escpecially when you're as famous as you are." "Sheesh, I knew what I was doing, everything was under control. He just couldn't handle the pressure, or something, I guess." Vinyl's voice sounded careless, and had a hint of sarcasm in it. "I'll let you go this time, but next time, don't get yourself in any trouble." I heard a door slam shut. "He awake yet?" Her voice got closer. "Nope," Vadorous' voice replied. Without opening my eyes, I tried to asses the situation. I must've passed out in the spell Vinyl cast, and she must've dragged me through the university grounds to her dorm, where I lay right now, on a bed. "Did you really have to do that to him?" Vadorous questioned. "He's probably had a horrible life." I slowly opened my eyes, getting a rush of blinding light. I groaned in pain, rolling onto my back. "Welcome back, princess." Vinyl spat, standing up, and walking away. Being the result of previous events, I was confused, and with good reason. "Where... Am I?" I choked out. "My dorm." Vadorous said. "Vinyl here knocked you out with some... Magic, stuff... For no REASON!" He called, turning his head behind him. "He could have tried to murder you again!" Vinyl called out carelessly, sitting at a computer- a very strange computer, at that. "Would you have tried to murder me?" Vadorous asked me. "No...." I said. "See?!" "He could be lying!" "Are you lying?" "No...." I grinned slightly. "He's not lying." "He could be lying about that!" "This isn't going anywhere." I said as Vadorous turned to me. "What time is it, by the way?" "10:47 PM." "I need to get going, like. Now." I said, lifting myself out of the bed I was laying in. "We can talk later or something, but not for now." *** I flopped onto my own bed. My dorm room felt cold. I'd given Vadorous my email and got his dorm number, and flew (literally) back 'home'. Classes would be starting in a few days, so I had to get textbooks and things. I slipped under the blankets and quickly fell into a comforting, resting sleep. *** I slowly woke, the sun glaring into my eyes as normal. I stretched, feeling the air in the room, much warmer now. I rested my head again for a few minutes before getting up. Then it hit me. In such a short amount of time, so much had changed. Here's the list (from what I remember.): I was no longer living with Rainbow Dash, (big one), I wasn't living in an actual house now, I now knew Vadorous again, I knew Vinyl the very popular DJ/dubstep artist/whatever, my depression worsened, and I was now going to classes, and had responsibilities. Whew. I sat down at my computer, jumping straight to my email. I had two new emails, one from Vadorous, and another from Rainbow Dash. Dashie first, I thought. "Trivium, I've got a BIG surprise for you next month." Really short, kind of a let-down. But what was the surprise?" "Any hints?" I replied. Now for Vadorous'. "Hey Triv, just sending this to make sure I've got the right email." Lame. I was hoping to find something exciting going on today, but so far, nothing. I moved on to looking for textbooks, online. The internet is awesome that way. > Chapter 3: Split Feelings > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 3: Split Feelings After spending hours upon hours of "shopping" (browsing for things too expensive for me to ever afford), I basically fell into bed, instantly falling asleep. Classes. Something I'd not attended in a LONG time. I had a pretty busy schedule of classes, lasting practically all day. It was just as expected, dead-eyed students and a dread-voiced professor for basically every class. I really was regretting this choice to go to this college, even if it was enabling me to get a better education, and job, and paycheck, and so on. It was around 8:30 PM when I got home, but with reason. I'd gotten something so useful, so amazing, that it was something I 100% totally needed entirely to survive. Okay, maybe not. I got a coffee maker. I mean, who doesn't want one of those? Bitter, high-caffinated, over-heated drinks in the morning, just the thing. Throw in some of the sun's ability to always get in my eyes, and you've got the dream-morning. I had no classes with Serenity, which was disappointing, but, she did live right next to me. *** After about a week of classes, coffee, blinding light, and lectures, I had a day off. I slept in, skipped the coffee, and spent the day out in the city, like a real tourist. After the long day, I returned to my dorm, to find..... Everything as normal. Being that my dorm wasn't broken into and I didn't have to engage in some giant fight against a billion 1-thousand foot-tall ponies to win back the safety of the world, I calmly flopped down onto my bed, only to hear a knock on my door. Perfect timing, as always. I groaned, forcing myself up to go answer the door. As expected, Serenity sat, smiling warmly. Without a word, I let her in, closing the door lazily. "How's it going?" She asked, sounding happy as normal. "Tired." I said. "Spent the day sight-seeing." "You went without me?" She asked, sarcastically. "We should go together sometime. Seriously." My heart skipped a beat as I sat down. Did she just invite me to a date? "Uh.. Sure, I guess... Sounds fun." Serenity put her arm around me. "Anything been going on lately?" "Rainbow Dash sent me an email... She said she had a surprise for me next month." I paused, thinking. "I dunno what it could be, I mean, she said she couldn't come with me, because she just couldn't afford it, and she didn't want to leave all her friends and everything behind..." "Maybe its....." Serenity turned her head. "Humph. You'd probably have the better guess, sense you're dating her and all..." "She's pretty un-predictable at times, honestly." I said. "You can't really ever predict what she'll do." We sat there in silence for a long time, just staring out the window. It was strange. Serenity turned to look at me, and that's when I realized her eyes. They were entrancingly amazing, contrasting her coat, in perfection. We both leaned into each other, our lips meeting in a perfect kiss. Slowly, We wrapped our arms around each other, getting more and more into the kiss. I hugged her tightly, as she did me. I slowly opened my eyes, seeing that Serenity had done the same. I stared into her eyes, as she did me, our lips locked in perfection. "No!" I cried out, gently pushing Serenity back, breaking the kiss. "I... I..." I cheated on Rainbow Dash. "Trivium..... I'm so sorry.... It's just..." "We...." "There was..." We struggled, searching for a reason, other then the fact that we were in love. "I can't do this to Rainbow Dash......" I couldn't lie to her either. "I.... Love..... You...." Serenity remained silent, staring into my eyes. "You cannot control who you love, Trivium." "But I should be able to control myself...." I sighed. "I can't lie to her.... I will have to be honest with her sometime..." I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. How could I just do that to her? After all she did for me? What was she going to say? How would she react? Will she forgive me? "I.... I think I should go... I'm sorry... I will talk to you later.... I guess..." Serenity basically sprinted out the door. I sat against the wall, my face in my hooves. It was a big deal, me losing control. I loved two ponies, each of them were willing to sacrifice for me. I knew one way, or the other, my heart would be broken, my life changed. *** I wasn't sure how long it was until I heard another knock. It was still late at night. I walked up and opened the door, to find Serenity standing, a sad look on her face. "We need to talk." She said. I reluctantly let her in, both of us walking to the bed and sitting down. "We... Made out. You confessed you loved me, correct?" She asked. "Yeah..." I felt my face grow hot. "Well... Things just got... Carried away..." She said. "You loving me, is completely fine... You cannot control it..." "But I should be able to control myself!" I cried out, breaking down. "It's my fault..." Serenity wrapped her arms around me silently. "We've had issues before... She'll leave me for good this time.... I can't live without her!" I'd completely lost it, crying in Serenity's arms, saying all these things. Serenity stayed quiet, patting my back softly. "I don't want to lie... But I don't want to hurt her..." *** I slowly woke, finding myself resting on Serenity's chest like I used to Rainbow Dash. Her head hung to the side, evidently she'd stayed up a while. I slowly moved, feeling embarassment that I'd cried myself to sleep in her arms like that. I decided to move her first, because she must not've been comfy. I gently lifted her, slowly putting her back down on the bed normally. I slipped a pillow under her head, and slid a blanket over her, pausing to notice how amazing she looked. I promtly layed down on the floor, using my own arm as a pillow. It wasn't nice feeling, but I wasn't about to risk getting in bed with Serenity. I woke a while later, to find that I was in the bed, and Serenity had left. There was a note on my monitor, clearly from Serenity. "I hope you wind up feeling better. Even if we've had personal experiences, I will still take care of you, regaurdless of the situation." I felt even more embarrassed, she's not only held me while I broke down, but she put me back in bed after she woke up. I sighed, my mind wandering to what the surprise Rainbow Dash had for me could be. > Chapter 4: Bitter-Sweet Rainbow Dash > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 4: Bitter-Sweet Rainbow Dash That day, I tried to live normal life, and clear my mind, but I couldn't stop thinking about how Rainbow Dash would react to finding out that I'd cheated on her, and.... And how right it felt... Even if I knew it was the polar opposite... Kissing Serenity... I wanted to do it again. I sat infront of Vadorous' dorm door, waiting for him to answer it. I heard some yelling, and a really loud "GET. THE. DOOR." "Hey, Triv! What's goin' on?" Vadorous sounded cheerful as usual. "Nothing to do," I said, entering as Vadorous beckoned me in. "What about your girlfriend?" He asked, catching me off guard. "My... What? Wait... My... Girlfriend?" I stuttered uselessly for a few long seconds. "Rainbow Dash," Vinyl called from somewhere, laughing. "How's she been?" "Oh... Right..." I sighed. "We haven't really talked mu- wait, how did you know I was dating Rainbow Dash?" Vinyl Scratch poked her head from around a corner. "Dude." She said. "You serious?" "Yeah..." I could almost feel her eyes rolling behind her glasses. "We were best buds back in the day!" She said. "She used to be one hell of a party-goer, probably could get you into any club you want right now." I was surprisingly cool for talking to somepony as famous as Vinyl. "That I can believe..." "Tell her I said 'sup next time you can, kay?" "'Sup." I repeated. "Got it." "Think fast!" Vadorous called, launching himself at me out of no-where, causing me to jump in surprise and stagger backwards before getting tackled to the ground. "You suck at thinking fast." I shoved Vadorous off, getting up. "Such is life." "You're acting..." Vadorous leaned in close, tilting his eyes towards me, as if inspecting my face. "Strange." "And... You're not?" I shoved Vadorous back again. "I'm strange normally... Which means... Wait, dude, what?" He looked around the room, as if his memory had just vanished. "It means..." I took a step back. "Think fast!" I lowered by head, charging, easily knocking him onto his back. *** A few days passed, the surprise Rainbow Dash had in stock planned to come any day now, and it was driving me crazy. I heard a knock on the door. I went and opened it, to see Serenity standing there, a worried expression on her face. I stepped aside, letting her in. "Triv..." She said after sitting down on the bed as normal. "You okay?" "You always ask me that, ya know." I said, sitting down next to her. "You cried yourself to sleep in my arms the last time I saw you. I have a good reason to be concerned." I felt my face growing hot. "It's just... I... I'm going crazy... The guilt is eating me alive..." "I've said this before... You can't control who you love." She put her hoof on my shoulder. "You're not in control of your bodies chemistry." "I know.... It's just..." My voice trailed off. "I just.... She did so much for me... And I just.... Betray her like that..." I practically fell onto hugging her, holding onto her like she was keeping me from drowning. Serenity wrapped an arm around me, gently rubbing my arm. I could feel tears welling up in my eyes already. Whenever I was around Serenity I became a fountain of tears or something. "I know, it's confusing sometimes..." She spoke softly. I moved one of my arms from around her, so I was just leaning on her, not clinging onto her. We sat in silence for a long time, which was comforting. "Serenity...?" I spoke, lifting my head. She looked at me, making eye-contact. "I... When we kissed...." Our lips met again. I wrapped my arms around her as we both fell onto the bed on our sides. I hugged her tightly, as she did me. I felt her hoof moving slowly towards my flank, and held her even tighter for a second. I let out a soft moan, massaging the base of Serenity's wings. I opened my eyes, making eye-contact with Serenity. "N....No...." I let go of Serenity, pulling myself away. "N... Not... Again..." I sat with my back against the wall, my face in my hooves. "I'm... Sorry..." I choked out, tears building up in my eyes. I felt Serenity's hoof on my shoulder. I fell into her arms, breaking down again. *** I woke in the morning, Serenity stroking my mane silently. "Morning, Triv..." She said softly. "You.... Feeling alright?" "No...." I croaked. "I'm... Horrible..." I stayed in Serenity's arms, where I felt safe. *** After Serenity left, I felt empty. I lay in a ball on my bed, crying, for a long time. *** After about a week, I was almost feeling good. A long day of classes had passed, and I was now "home". I collapsed onto the bed, staring at the wall. I felt extremely depressed a lot of the time. After an un-tracked amount of time, I heard an un-familiar knock on the door. I sighed, pulling myself up, trudging to the door. I opened it, and fell forwards in shock. ... I slowly opened my eyes. I was on my bed. I heard the door slam shut. "Morning, Triv!" Rainbow Dash said loudly, trotting up to me with a huge grin. "Rainbow... Dash?!" I jumped to my hooves, hugging her tightly. "What are you doing here?!" "I told you I had a surprise!" She said, her voice sounding energetic and happy. "I missed you so much..." I said, pulling my head back, meeting Rainbow Dash in a kiss. This kiss quickly became a make-out. We stood on our hind hooves. I wrapped my arms around the back of her neck, hugging her tightly. Rainbow Dash slowly moved towards the bed, where we fell on our sides, hugging tighter. After a little while, we separated our lips. Rainbow Dash scooted to the wall, leaning her back against it. I snuggled up against her, resting my head on her shoulder as we sat. She wrapped an arm around me, massaging my arm. She began to tell me about life back home, and things that had happened while I was gone. I closed my eyes, slowly drifting into sleep. I slowly opened my eyes, hearing Rainbow Dash snoring softly. A blanket had been draped over her and I, (I assume Rainbow Dash did it because the door was locked), and the moon was shining brightly through the window. Rainbow Dash was resting her head on mine, her arm now lazily draped over my shoulders. I snuggled up to her tighter, feeling safe at last. > Chapter 5: My Fault > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 5: My Fault Sunlight leaked through the window, getting right into my eyes. I yawned, waking up. Rainbow Dash was wide awake already, but stayed where she was to make sure I could get my fill of sleep. "Morning," She said. "Ready to get up?" "....Yeah...." I yawned again, taking one last second to snuggle with Rainbow Dash before getting up. I had no classes today, so we could spend the entire day loving each other and being a couple and stuff like that. (Making out) "No classes for me today," I said. "So we've got all day to do whatever." Rainbow Dash hugged me, feeling warm. "All day? I've been without you for too long, can we just hang around here?" "You read my mind," I said, feeling a pang of guilt, remembering that I'd made-out with Serenity twice behind her back. "I've gotta get more coffee blend later, though." "I've got some in my bags," Rainbow Dash beckoned to the bags by the door. "Wanna help me un-pack?" "Sure," I nodded. After a while of un-packing, joking, telling stories, and me realizing how dis-organized my drawers were, we had everything un-packed. We sat on the bed, sipping coffee. Time flew quickly that day. We went out sight-seeing for a little, but generally stayed indoors like a couple of weirdos. Early that night, she lay down on her back, and I snuggled up on her chest like we used to. I hugged her tightly. I'd planned on confessing to kissing Serenity tomorrow, so I wanted to enjoy when we were both happy while I could. *** I woke as normal, finding that Rainbow Dash was still sleeping. I closed my eyes again, feeling relaxed. After some time, I felt Rainbow Dash shift slightly. I opened my eyes, seeing that she'd woken up. "Mornin'" I said, stretching, still laying my head on her chest. "Sleep well?" "We always have petty morning conversations..." Rainbow Dash chuckled. "One of these days, we'll mix it up." "One day..." I sighed, rolling onto my back next to her. She put her arm out, allowing me to lay my head on it and lay there for a little longer. Eventually, we got up, starting the day as normal. After we both got showered, and had sat down to have coffee, I decided to tell her. I took a deep breath. "Hey, Rainbow?" I asked. "I uh... I needa tell you something..." She took a sip of coffee. "What's up?" "So... My neighbor, her name is Serenity... She was really concerned about me when I first showed up, and kinda was my counciler, or something like that... Life was... Really difficult without you around... One day... We... She came over, we talked and stuff... And... We... Kissed....." Rainbow Dash put the mug down, looking at me. "You kissed her?" She didn't sound too happy. "Is that all, or do you have more to tell?" I sighed. "I'm so sorry... Just... There's more but... I'm so incredibly sorry..." Dash stayed silent. "We... Kissed twice, actually... And...." "Twice?!" "Rainbow Dash, please... I'm sorry..." "There's more, isn't there?" "I... I think... I'm in love with her..." Dash stood up quickly. "I trusted you Trivium. I thought you said you could control yourself, but...." She sniffed. "Obviously not." She stormed out of the room, slamming the door hard behind her. I slowly fell over on my side onto the bed, tears already running down my face. I buried my head in a pillow. She was gone. She hated me. I heard a knock on the door. I hoped more then ever that it would possibly be Rainbow Dash coming back, somehow instantly forgiving me. I dried my eyes and walked to the door. I opened it to see a worried Serenity standing there. I stepped aside, letting her in. I lazily let the door slam shut, and looked at Serenity. "What..." I heard noises and... The door slammed... What happened?" "She..." I sniffed. "She's... Gone." I felt a tear running down my face. "She...?" "Rainbow Dash...." I felt a pang of guilt, just saying her name. Serenity extended her arms, and I fell into them. She sat down on the bed, her arms wrapped tightly around me. I buried my face in her shoulder, crying shamelessly. All I could think about was how it was my fault, and she had no good reason to forgive me, or even come back. (Other than the fact that her stuff was here.) *** I slowly opened my eyes, realizing I'd fallen asleep. Cold air blew in through the window, which was left open for some reason. I slid out of bed and slammed the window shut, only to realize how late it was, and that Rainbow Dash was probably still outside. At nearly midnight. I sighed, walking to the door. I went over and knocked on Serenity's door, hoping she was still awake. After about 10 seconds, she opened the door, looking awake. "Hey," I said. "I'm really, really sorry to disturb you but... Rainbow Dash hasn't come home yet..." My voice trailed off. "I'm awake, got studying to do." Serenity said. "So... You want to... Like... Look for her?" "Yes... Please..." I was really worried. "Can... Can you help?" Serenity closed the door, stepping out. "Let's go." *** We walked out of the dorm complex, the cold air feeling sharp and bitter. I looked at her worriedly as we walked. "What's the plan?" I asked. "Let's split up. You search on-campus, I'll search the area around outside. Try to keep track of the time, every five minutes we meet at the campus entrance, to check up." She patted me on the back. "Good luck... Keep a clear head out there, be careful." She took off, flying gracefully but hurridly. I took off myself, aimlessly wandering the skies, keeping my eyes sharp. After what felt like five minutes, I headed to the campus gate. Serenity was sitting there, alone. I roughly landed next to her. "Nothing?" I asked. "Nothing." She replied. "Keep looking, we can't just quit." *** After about 30 minutes of searching and gate-checking, I was freezing. I flew to the entrance, much slower than before. I spotted Serenity flying strangely and slowly, something in her arms. As I got closer, I realized this "thing" was Rainbow Dash. Serenity was cradling her, Rainbow Dash's arms wrapped around her, her face hidden. "What... What happened?" "We need to get back to your dorm." Serenity sounded very serious. "She's... She's not okay..." I was worried. Rainbow Dash would near-to-never let someone hold her like that normally, so something must've happened. *** I held open the door for Serenity. She gently layed Rainbow Dash down on my bed, face-up. She had lots of bruises and looked beaten. "Oh my god...." I gasped, seeing her. "Rainbow Dash...." She was unconscious. "I'm..." "It's not your fault," Serenity said. "Don't be too hard on yourself." She looked at me dead in the eyes. "You need to get some sleep. You can go, to my dorm. I'm trusting you. I'll take care of Rainbow Dash." "Okay..." I said. "Just...." I hugged Serenity. "Thank you..." She nodded. I turned to leave, feeling a wave of sleepiness. I closed the door, realizing how nice Serenity's dorm was. I didn't want to spend too much time checking the place out, so I slid into her bed, falling quickly asleep. > Chapter 6: Worse Than Heartbreak > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 6: Worse Than Heartbreak I slowly woke to hear the dorm door opening. I forced myself to lift my head and look, only to see a tired-looking Serenity closing the door behind her. "Hey Triv..." She said quietly, slipping into bed next to me. "Rainbow Dash's still unconscious... but... She's going to be fine." I sighed, having nothing to say. My mind kept repeating harshly at me It's your fault. You're the reason she's injured. You're the reason she hates you. You're the one that had to go and make out with your neighbor. I found myself snuggled against Serenity suddenly. She was hugging me, patting my back while I hugged her around her chest. I felt tears running down my face. "She's going to be fine, I promise..." Serenity said. *** I slowly woke the next morning. "Triv..." Serenity was saying softly. "Wake up... Come on..." I inhaled sharply, opening my eyes. I rolled onto my back, letting out a deep breath. Serenity wordlessly got up out of bed, as did I. We walked together to my dorm. I opened the door, walking in. Rainbow Dash lay on her back, still managing to look amazingly graceful. She had an icepack over one of her eyes, a bandage on her forehead, and gauze wrapped around one of her arms. She was breathing normally, and looked like she was sleeping. She was still stunningly beautiful as well. "Rainbow Dash..." I muttered, looking at her sadly. "I'm so sorry..." I knew she wasn't conscious or coherent, but I couldn't help myself. It's your fault. I tried to push the thought out of my head, but it was my fault. All because of me, Rainbow Dash was beaten up on the street late at night, and is now in some form of "medical care". Serenity stood next to me, in silence. I was extremely thankful for her. Taking care of Rainbow Dash at times, saving her life possibly, and comforting me so much. If she's that great, go have sex with her again. I winced, practically having a mental war with myself. We've never had sex. Yes you have. No, we haven't. Not yet. "Trivium, you okay?" Serenity said, piercing my thoughts like a bullet. "I'm..." I paused. Fucking crazy. "I'm fine, just... It's hard to see her like this..." "I understand," Serenity said. "She always seemed so... Invincible..." "How'd you know how she seemed?" I asked. No WAY she knew Rainbow Dash before this. "Uh..." Serenity looked at me strangely. "She's a celebrity... And... So are you... Remember?" "A what? Oh... Right... Great, amazing flyer, and stuff..." My voice trailed off. "And you're dating her, so..." Serenity didn't need to finish the sentence. "I'm going to make coffee." She said, turning to my coffee blender. "Want some?" "Yes please..." I said, keeping my eyes on Rainbow Dash. You're dangerous. *** I sat next to my bed, with a mug of coffee that I wasn't particularly wanting anymore. I forced myself to take a sip, trying to seem casual. After some time, Serenity stood up. "I've gotta get some stuff done back at my dorm, ya know. Classes and stuff." She said. She quickly have me a hug. "Try to keep your head clear, Triv. I'll be back. I promise." "Don't worry, I'll be fine." I said. Serenity looked at me for a few seconds, than left. Once the door closed behind her, I knew it was just me and my evil thoughts. She doesn't love you. It's your fault. I pressed my head into my hooves, feeling tears oncoming. I grabbed a spare pillow, pressing my face into it instead. Try suicide again. *** I sat next to m bed, staring blankly at a wall. My eyes burned, my head throbbed. I let my thoughts beat me up. Suddenly, I heard Rainbow Dash draw a deep breath. She stirred slightly. "Rainbow... Dash...?" I asked, leaning close to her. "...Triv...?" Her voice was weak. She slowly opened her eyes. They were clearly not focused, and her eyes swam randomly. "Keep still..." I put my hoof on her shoulder. "Where.... Am I...?" "We're back at my dorm..." My voice cracked. "I'm... I'm so sorry, Rainbow Dash..." She smiled warmly somehow. "I... Love you..." She said. "I... I love you too." My heart raced. "I'm so sorry... This is all my fault..." "No... It's not... I should have... Listened... I'm sorry, Trivium." She closed her eyes again. "I'm sorry I over-reacted...." I blinked back tears. "I should have had more self-control...." I said. I noticed Rainbow Dash scooting towards the wall. "C'mere..." She said, making room for me on the bed. I slipped under the blankets. I scooted close, resting my head on her shoulder. I let my eyes drift shut, relaxing, feeling safe. *** I slowly woke to hear two voices talking. "Thank you... You... Saved my life..." Rainbow Dash's voice was stronger now. "Don't thank me, it was all because of Trivium." Serenity replied. "He was the one that asked me to help look for you." Rainbow Dash went silent for a bit. "So..." She chuckled. "How was it?" "What?" "How was Trivium, good kisser?" She laughed softly. "Oh." Serenity chuckled herself. "He was okay..." "He hasn't changed much then has he..." Rainbow Dash said, patting me on the shoulder. Okay?! You're not even a good kisser! "So I guess all is forgiven?" Serenity asked, sounding awkward. "Well..." Rainbow Dash sighed. "Not entirely... Trivium just... He needs me right now, it's hard for him to see me like this... Could you imagine him having to think I was mad at him on top of this?" "I'm sorry." Serenity paused. "I should have known better then to let him kiss me." "It's not your fault, I've long forgiven you." I slowly opened my eyes, yawning. "Hey, Triv." Rainbow Dash said, shaking me lightly. I stretched, snuggling closer against Rainbow Dash. "Hey guys..." I said drowsily. I pretended to not have heard the conversation they just had. "Feeling better?" I asked. "Yeah, much better." Rainbow Dash said. "Thanks to Serenity, here." "Thank you, so much." I said to Serenity. I couldn't thank her enough for all she'd done. > Why I Haven't Updated in a While > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I haven't been able to update for a while, for quite a few reasons. My dad recently had a minor heart-attack, which sucked of course, and yesterday my mom broke her left hand and wrist. This means I'm a lot more busy around the house than normal. I also am having a lot of problems with my laptop. It freezes a lot and frequently will drop connection to my internet, along with it being slow as fuck. Another thing, is that I've hit a huge writer's block. I'm out of ideas for the story. I normally don't stress too much on asking for ideas, but now I need some. If things keep getting worse I will probably have to put my stories on hiatus for a while, and I REALLY don't wanna do that.