> A Love So Much Closer
>  by Not Enough Coffee
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> Give Into Me
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You held your head in one of your hands. You were tired, dead tired, and wanted nothing more than to sleep your worries away. However, your worries were connected to why you couldn’t sleep, so you were just shit out of luck.

Chrysalis, the one being in this world you cared for, had been out longer than she has been in several months. Considering you two were still in hiding from the crown, that was sending off some major red flags in your head.

You felt your chest twist with each passing second, your hands growing numb, and your heart rate skyrocketing. Were you having a panic attack?

You took several deep breaths, each one somehow feeling more shallow than the last. Yup, you were pretty damn sure you were having a panic attack, and somehow knowing that was making it worse, because it was the only thing you could focus on now.

Standing up, you quickly started stretching, trying to reassure you were in no immediate danger, and that everything would be fine in just a few moments after the adrenaline does its course. A moment later, after a few more deep breaths, your heart began to calm down, though your hands still felt numb.

You looked towards the window. Come on, Chrysalis. What’s taking you so long? Please be alright...

You could hear hoofsteps coming from outside your door, your heart now skipping a beat. After a brief pause, you heard them no longer. You nearly collapsed to the floor as you felt your knees grow weak.

“Dammit all…” You utter lowly.

You walked back over to your chair, and sat back down. Your head reflexively found your hand once more, and you began to stare once again at the window. Not like there was much to see, it was just a window after all, but you liked staring at it nonetheless. It somehow gave you comfort when you were all alone.

You heard more hoofsteps by your door, but you ignored them. You were let down once, you were not about to let yourself get worked up over the same bullshit twice in a row. You weren’t that much of a fool.

Though, when the hoofsteps stopped, you heard some sort of ‘fwoosh’ outside your door before it began to open up. You knew who it was, because there was only one specific changeling that had the key to your motel room.

“Sorry for my late arrival, Anon. There was, uh, some complications…”

You took a deep breath and sighed, turning to your roommate and current lover. “I’m just glad you made it back okay. You had me fucking worried, Chrysalis! I thought they finally got you!”

“Keep your mouth down, Anon. You never know who could be listening.” She shot back before replying. “But yes, I was almost caught transforming by some little tykes across the way from here. That could have ended horribly, but I am a changeling queen for a reason. So, I managed to slip by unnoticed and return her as soon as I could.”

You grumbled. “Still, I’m guessing you were out late for more than some children issues?”

“Just out gathering intelligence, as per usual. As I’ve told you countless times before, I’m going to have my revenge against Starlight for ripping my hive straight out from under me.”

She began to saunter your way. “And when I do, I will crown you king. You’d like that, wouldn’t you?”

You laughed. “I’d make a shitty king and you know it.”

She kissed you on the cheek, laying her head on your shoulders. “I don’t think so. You might not be a great king, per say, but that’s where I come in to do the heavy lifting.”

You wrapped your arms around her, pulling her close. You could feel her breath on your shoulder, the rising and fall of her chest, and her sore body beneath your hands. You let it sink into you as you helped wash her stress away.

“I’m so glad you’ve come around to me, Anon. You have no idea how much what we have means to me. You’re the one thing I have right now, Anon. I just want you to know that.” 

She turned and kissed you yet again on the cheek, this time letting her tongue glide along it before she departed.

You felt yourself flush immensely. You might have begun to open up to her, letting your battered feelings come to light, but you were still not used to this level of affection. You tried to hide your embarrassment from her, but it seemed she took notice of your situation as you heard her let out a short giggle.

“My my, it seems one of us is more bothered than the other tonight. I could help with that, you know.” She spoke seductively. 

This only made you flush even harder than before.

She relinquished your embrace, taking a step back from you. “What say you, Anon? Or am I so beautiful that you have no words left to say?”

Well, she got you there. She was indeed fucking beautiful, and you were indeed also out of words to say. Somehow, though, you managed to utter a simple “I don’t know…”

She didn’t seem to take that well, her face beginning to sour. “And why not, Anon? There’s nothing holding you back, is there? Wait, are you, don’t tell me.”

You never felt so hot under your collar before. “Yes! And no! But yes, I haven’t… Well, you know…”

There was more to it than simply being a virgin, though. You, despite your best efforts, were insure if doing it with her was something you’d actually enjoy. Sure, you liked her, you liked her a whole hell of a lot, but she was not human. Despite what your heart desired, your mind simply couldn’t shake this detail.

As if she was reading your thoughts, she told you “I can become whatever you want, you know.”

That, however, didn’t matter to you. If you were to do this with her, if you were going to tie the knot for good, you were going to have to bite the bullet and do it in her true form. That was the only way it’d ever happen. Your conscious demanded it.

“Chrysalis, I… Yeah, that’s great and all but.”

Her features began to brighten.

“And? Go on, Anon.”

You found your words hitching in your throat. It was so hard to reply to her aggressive pursuit knowing that your words would only hurt her. Still, after mulling your thoughts over for the hundredth time, you bagan to speak once more.

“Chrysalis, please don’t take this the wrong way, but I just don’t know if I can do this. There is a part of me that really does want this, believe me, but there is another part of me digging away at the idea of this. You're, well, you know, and I’m a human. Besides that I’m just unsure if I’m ready for this… I just don’t know, Chrysalis. I’m sorry.”

You poured yourself out to her, and you couldn’t bear to look her in the eyes at that moment. 

“I, Chrysalis, you’ve been so adamant about this. I’ve been hiding this for so long, and, well, here we are now…”

You felt a hoof under your chin raise your head slightly to look up into its owner's deep, green eyes.

“Anon, listen. Quit the bullshit, you know this wouldn’t offend me. I understand. You need to be more open with me, you hear?” She demanded of you, causing you to be taken aback.

“Huh, what?” You simply asked.

“You heard me, Anon. You just need to feel it for yourself. You’re a good man, Anon. Don’t let anything tell you otherwise, but you are wrestling with a giant right now. You, if not for me, but for yourself, need to give into what your heart desires. No more thinking, just feeling. Sometimes the heart knows best.”

You never really heard here give a lecture like this before. Sure, she was a queen, and queens were known for giving speeches, but you’d sooner expect Celestia to let you both off scot free than for her to give you such advice.

You felt yourself sinking into her touch. A moment later, you felt your form being wrapped between her hooves, the changeling queen giving you a tight, warm hug.

“I love you, Anon.” She cooed into your ear.

There was a dam protecting your emotions from flowing, but right now, it could no longer hold the pain within. You felt yourself let out a few tears, sniffling slightly.

“I love you too…” You wrapped your arms around her, pulling her even tighter to you. You did not want to let go, you wanted to let her know how much she meant to you.

“So, Anon?”

“Yeah… I think I’m ready to show you what my heart is feeling now.” 

The two of you departed from the contact, looking each other in the eyes once more. You cupped her head under your hand, and she moaned lightly in response. A second later and she let her tongue out, licking all around your fingers and the palm of your hand.

You were growing redder by the moment, but you were already committed to this. There was no going back now.

She grabbed hold of your hand pulling you with her as she made her way towards the bed. She let go as you met the base of it, turning to give you literal bedroom eyes. You never thought your first time would be with a bug horse, but here you were, and you know what? You were happy it was. She mattered so much to you.

She got into bed, laying there seductively, sucking her lip in anticipation.

“Aren’t we going a bit too quick?” You asked, rubbing the back of your head, unsure if you were gonna be up to snuff. This was your first time, after all.

“Hmm. Yes, perhaps you’re right… Come here, Anon!” Her horn flashed a shade of green, and you suddenly found yourself being tugged into bed with her, your lips soon meeting each other.

Your eyes went wide, but after a moment of kissing each other, you closed then yet again and gave into her. Your hand instinctively began to push against her belly, rising slowly up to her chest.Though, there were no tits to grab hold of, you still found it immensely enjoyable, especially since it was getting a rise out of her.

“Mmmm, Anon. Those hands of yours. They are just divine, and they are all mine. Just how I like it.” She said between your make-out session. 

As you rubbed her chest sensually, your other hand found its way down south, grabbing hold of her round, yet firm, flank. 

She jumped a little. “Oh my, you’re really into this, aren’t you? And to think you were having so many doubts just moments ago.”

“I know, shut it.” 
Before she could rebuttal with her trademarked wit, you kissed her yet again, pushing against her teeth with your tongue, demanding entrance. Not denying your passage, she opened her mouth almost instantly, allowing you to explore her mouth with vigor.

Her mouth was much larger than yours, and so was her tongue. She pushed against yours with strength you couldn’t hope to muster, but you still fought back anyway. You were just way too into this for your own good. 

Pushing to the side a little, you felt her teeth, sharp and pointy. The thought of them nibbling your neck sending shivers down your spine. 

She, much like you, explored your mouth, feeling your comparatively less pointy teeth. She didn’t seem to mind in the slightest, she was into this just as much as you were.

You both had to breathe desperately, so reluctantly, you both stopped making out to look each other in the eyes. 

Panting, you spoke first. “C-Chrysalis. That was…” You couldn’t finish your sentence, your mind was in overdrive and the words were having a hard time coming out.

“Wonderful? I know.”

Shifting ever so slightly, she found herself below you, her mane frazzled off to the sides of her. “I think we’ve warmed up quite a bit now.” She giggled. “I think you’re ready for what’s next.” She licked her lips, eyeing you up.

You, however, found yourself looking down. You were not surprised to see there was indeed a difference in human and animal genitalia. Though, it didn’t look all too unappealing. You were sure you’d get used to it.

You unzipped and unbuttoned your pants, taking them off one leg at a time and tossed them across the room. A tent was pitched quite comfortably in your underpants, and Chrysalis was ogling it with sexual intent.

Not wanting to deny her request, you slowly took off your undergarments, tossing them aside much like you did with your pants. You were bottomless now, the air nipping away at your genitals. Though, despite the cold air, you were feeling quite warm.

“I’m waiting, Anon.” She spoke, breaking the silence as you let your member hang in the air, waiting for its purpose to be fulfilled. Taking a deep breath, you lined it up with your target, pressing its tips against her walls. She moaned out loud, enjoying the contact. You felt your tip moisten, letting her natural lubricate wash all over it. 

“Okay, I know you said you’re ready and all, but—”

She cut you off. “Just push it in, Anon!”

Listening to her demand, you slowly began to sink into her, the warmth almost overwhelming you. You imagined what this’d feel like in your head dozens upon dozens of times, but it didn’t really live up to expectation. You had to be careful not to cum then and there.

Instinctually, you began to pull in and out. It started at a slow pace, but then began to pick up speed. She moaned louder and louder to go along with it.

“Yes! Anon, don’t stop!” She tried to speak more, but the pleasure she was experiencing because of you took over her ability to speak. She just kept moaning in ecstasy, for this was what she wanted most in the world.

You kept going, despite the building release drawing nearer, you kept pushing onward. You grunted, the feeling you were experiencing was just too great to keep internally. You mouth groaned without your bidding to do so.

“I… I don’t know how much longer I can last…”

“Just keep going. Just keep going, Anon. Fill me up.”

Your mind began to wonder if it was possible to knock her up, but a more primal part of your mind tossed that thought to the side and decided cumming inside her was the only option you had.

“Urgn, I… I” You couldn’t finish your sentence. You bagan to cum inside her, your pent up frustration making you push hard within her. Your size couldn’t quite reach all the way in, but you shot your load with such strength, you were sure it hit the deepest corners of her sex.

You both were breathing heavily, taking in the afterglow.

“Was that so hard, Anon?” She broke the silence. “You should have listened to your queen sooner.”

“I know, I just…”

“I know, Anon. I know just how hard it is to give into feelings and trust somepo—I mean someone this way. You’re doing well, Anon. You really are. Now come here and give your Queen another kiss. That’s an order!”

You did as she said, letting yourself give into her once again. Sure, you still had much to learn about your own feelings, but you were willing to give everything to understand them if it meant you could experience this love with another so important to you. It meant the world to you, and you were willing to put faith that this would all work out in the end, despite all the pain it was going to take to make it all come together in the end.

Giving in was something you would do with pride.