On the Cliff
I was alone on top of a cliff. The cold wind howled and blew against me. I shivered, feeling like I was stuck inside an ice cube, frozen and isolated. The temperature made it hard to breathe, but I was used to it. My black fur was thick enough all over my body to keep me warm. But my heart to has been cold for so long, I couldn't feel any warmth my body gave me.
I had a small blue box tied with a red ribbon next to me. The small present looked like it was wrapped hastily, with a note that read “For Martin” on it. The last gift I will ever get. I slowly unwrapped it, revealing a small picture frame containing a photo of my family. They were all smiling happily towards the camera. The beautiful cat with pure white fur all over her body was Mom. She always showed kindness to others, and had always told me that she loved me. The big grey cat next to her was Dad. He always came home late from work, but we were glad to see him every time.
But now... they were gone. I started to feel my heart start to empty. Did they really love me? I didn’t know anymore. I had no friends, I always was bullied everyday. Everyone always beat me up. No one liked me. No one loved me. I was alone.
I wanted it all to end...
I set down the picture and looked below the cliff; seeing ponies going about their lives in Ponyville from afar. I could see all of them with smiles on their faces, laughing with their friends. I wish I had a friend like them, but they wouldn’t like me because I was different. I was different from them because I had large cat eyes that glowed in the dark and frightened most ponies. I had thick fur that covered me and sharp claws that could hurt somepony… too different. No one cared about nor loved me. They always avoided me because they didn't like me. I wanted to end my painful, lonely life.
And now, I could finally end it here with nopony to stop me.
It's so cold here…
I took a step towards the end of the cliff and felt tears forming in my eyes. All I wanted was someone to become my friend, but it was a hopeless desire. A desire that will never be achieved. I grew colder inside as I step closer to the edge. I was no longer thinking. I was only doing.
I took a deep breath for the last time. I would never breathe this cold air again. I should be happy. I could finally end this… Right?
- - -
I flapped my wings as fast as I can to find her. I knew this would happen. Every time I saw her, she always looked so sad. Even with that fake smile of hers, she can't fool me. I wanted to comfort her, but I didn't have the courage to. I was a fool. I was a coward. I had to find her, before she…disappeared.
Her note said that she was leaving. I found it sticking on her door. I immediately knew what she meant by that. Dropping the note, I had started flying around to look for her.
I flew across the sky, ignoring the cold air. I was so fast that everypony would think it was just the wind. I then saw a small black figure in the distance on top of a cliff. I instantly knew who it was, and knew what she was trying to do, and flew even faster towards her. Towards my friend...
- - -
I took a deep breath, feeling torn. I can feel my heart beat faster. I placed my paw down onto nothing, and knew I was there. I closed my eyes, feeling tears streaming down across my face, and placed an empty smile on my face.
“Finally free…” I whispered, spiraling downwards.
I felt nothing as I fell. My worthless body was falling downward quicker than I expected. At least I could end this quickly.
The wind whipped around me until I suddenly stopped. I opened my eyes and found that a pair of brown hooves was holding me tightly. I knew who it was.
Muel always tried to be there for me see every time I showed that I was sad. He always talked to me, and tried to comfort me with kind words. But he couldn't understand how I really feel.
He wasn't the only one who tried to help me. There were others who tried to make me happy, saying that they cared and everything I'd heard before. But after a while, they just stopped talking to me. Muel, however, was different. He always stayed with me without leaving me. I didn't know why. But he was just another pony like the others. I looked up at him and gave a weary smile.
“You tried… but I am already gone… goodbye, Woody…” I unsheathed one claw and swiped at his hoof. He yelped in pain as I expected him to drop me.
- - -
I yelped in pain as she swiped her claw on my hoof. I nearly dropped her, but I was holding her so tightly I didn't let her go. I felt the blood coursing down my hoof, but I'd rather let her hurt me rather than let her hurt herself. I was not going to lose her no matter what.
I flew away from the cliff and headed towards a small hill that gave a nice view of a green, grassy field around it. I always went there whenever I felt sad, and spent most of my time alone there. I landed us next to a big tree, on top of the hill.
I saw her hang her head in defeat, and heard her mumble to herself with tears streaming down her face.
“Why...why must I live through this…? Why must I be alone…?” she muttered.
My heart felt like it was about to break, like it was about to shatter into a million pieces.
Why didn't I help her more? I should have been there for her more often. I felt like everything I have done for her wasn't enough to make her happy. Now, I would do better.
I sat next to her. She was shorter than me, making her the cutest cat I’d ever seen. Her soft black fur reflected the warm sunlight. I could easily give her a warm hug. And I thought it was what she needed right now. She scooted away from me, seeming like she didn't want anypony around her right now.
“What were you trying to do?” I coldly asked, trying keep my voice still. She didn't answer and looked away. She was trying to ignore my question. I knew why. She didn't want to break my heart, or make me sad. But just her going to the cliff itself was enough to break my heart into a million pieces.
- - -
“Nobody cares…” I coldly said as I tried to steady my voice. “Nobody cares about me. They care about themselves. They care about their pony friends. But no one cares about ME!” I miserably failed in steadying my voice as I ended up screaming at him. Tears rolled down my cheeks, leaving red tracks. I was glaring at him now. I wanted to avoid this and just quietly disappear. I didn't want this...
“Why would you say that?” he snapped back at me. “I care about you! I'm your friend!” he shouted at me with a stomp of his hoof.
“Stop lying to my face!” I screamed from the top of my lungs, causing my voice to break.
“You think I'm lying? You really think I’m lying when I say that I care for you?!” he shouted at me with a broken voice. I stared into his eyes.
“Of course you're lying! Everybody lies! Nobody means anything!” I snapped back at him. I wanted to be alone. Why couldn't everyone just leave me be?
- - -
My heart felt burning pain, as if a sharp knife had pierced it. I wanted to comfort her. I wanted to help her. But she thought that I didn't care about her. I tried to open my mouth and say something, but no words came out. I wanted to tell her that she was wrong. That I really did care about her. But my mouth didn't move. Tears started to fall from my eyes as I breathed heavily.
She shot me a glare as her body is started to tremble. After a moment of silence, the cat turned to leave, to be alone all of her life, once again. But after a few steps, she crumpled to the ground, bursting into tears. I could hear her loud cries of sadness and loneliness that had been inside her for a very long time. I slowly walked towards her. She sank down as she heard my soft hoofsteps emitting from the soft green grass. I walked closer to her, seeing her now crouching down to the ground in fear.
I was now right next her, I could feel her body heat that needed love. I gave her a warm hug, saying nothing. I felt her gasping for breath, choking between her tears, trying to say something, but nothing coming out but cries. As I hugged her, I felt tears forming in my eyes. She needed a hug. A warm hug from a friend. A hug from somepony who cared about her. I was glad that she let me hug her.
- - -
This hug… it felt so warm. I’d always wanted a hug. I felt his body heat press to me. It felt different than any other hug I had before. It warmed my heart that had been frozen for years of loneliness. I didn't want him to hear my cries. I was so ashamed of myself letting him see me like this. I wanted to say something, tell him that I was fine, tell him I was used to it, tell him I was worthless. But this hug felt so warm, I didn't want to break it. So I just let him hug me as I cried into his chest.
“Don't say that.” I heard him say to me. “Don't you ever say that to yourself.” He said as he held me tighter. “You mean a lot to me.” He whispered so tenderly, it made my heart melt, melting some of my pain away with it.
"I-I'm sorry..." I whimpered back. "I... I didn't..." My voice trailed off and I shook my head. I didn't know what to say. I was useless, worthless, dumb. And it's all the truth. Why would he tell me not to say it?
I could feel his arms hug me tighter, and I can hear him sniffling. He was actually crying. “You are my friend. My best friend and I care about you. Why can you not see that…?” He trailed off.
"Because I'm so alone..." I say, wanting to sit like this forever and simply exist. "I'm one of the only cats in Equestria who can talk, who can live among you all... I'm so different, I can't stand... I just want it all to go away..."
I didn't want to break this hug. A hug I've longed for. A hug from someone who actually cared about me. "You're a cat. And that makes you a special friend to me." He said in a soft and quiet tone. “You have me. You're never alone, my friend.” He said as he gently stroked my fur. I remembered the times when he was with me. The times when he talked to me, and comforted me.
We were silent for a moment, and then I took the courage to say thank you. I felt better now. I wasn't alone anymore, knowing that he would keep being there for me. I looked back at my past and realized I wanted to ignore the fact that I had a friend who was always there for me.
He just smiled and whispered “I'll always be there for you, my friend.” He didn't break our long warm hug, and patted my back gently, letting me know that he really meant it. A purr escaped my throat as I wiped away my tears with a paw.
We were both smiling now. We could see the sun setting on the horizon in front of us, showing its gleaming orange rays. I glanced back at the cliff I had been on. It was being shaded in darkness. I then decided to look at my future with happiness in my life with a real friend by my side.
I was once lost in darkness, but my friend is showing me the way to the light. And I will be walking in it, with a bright outlook and with my best friend by my side.