Soarin and Rainbow Dash are in love. Will Soarin's secret get in the way, will it cause mayhem? Will what he truly is cause him to loose Rainbows trust forever. And will he even ever tell her how diffrent he really is?
Soarin and Rainbow Dash are in love. They always were, ever since height (high) school. It had always been their dream to become a wonderbolts! Soarin made the cut while, Rainbow's Father said she had to wait and go to collage first! He was forced to leave Rainbow to train and live at the wonderbolts compound. They dated for five years without any complications. They never fought, they were always happy and they were always content with one on other. But soarin never told her! For fear of loosing her. He was a changeling, changlings feed off of love, but what happens when a changling discovers love in a diffrent form? Discovers love with someling or some pony els? He left his hive once he decided he wanted something different in life. Witch he decided when he was very young, but he was still close to his hive. He had communication. Sometimes he brought food to the hive, when he came once a week to get his rations of love. Soarin had promised to himself long ago he would never feed off Rainbow Dash. He loved her and never wanted to hurt her. He didn't look at her as an easy food source, but as a beautiful mare he would give his life for. She was to special to him he loved her. Soarin's best friend (changeling) Tarnix had always supported Soarin and kept his crush a secret. Their hive was peaceful, unlike Queen Chrysalis they never harmed the ponies. some of them had homes and jobs in Equestria. Their queen allowed this as well as to have freedom to choose when they would connect to the hive mind, to get work done. They all had to do their fair share if they lived in the hive or when they came to visit if they were available,of course! However they had the freedom to develop their own characteristics, and witch jobs they would prefer to do. Their Queen was very laid back, but strict when it came to certain topics! And Soarin falling for a pony was not something she would agree with nor take kindly to. So will rainbow dash find out the truth? Will she reject Soarin? Will they get back together? Read on to find out!
Also I don't mind if anyone uses Tarnix's name or him as a character in their story. I actually encourage it if it helps writers to make more changeling romance stories! Just don't take all the credit! Please credit me! Thank you! -orangeblossom1212
Soarin sat their confused and betrayed. Why hadn't the force field pushed me out to oblivion like the other changelings? Am I really like them? Why did Queen Chrysalis-she gave us a bad name! There was nothing to fear about changelings! We were never a threat. At least before Chrysalis became a power freak! Why did she want to have power over all pony kind?
She would get more food if she befriended the ponies. They never would have a reason to fear changelings. If she turned them into slaves fear would become all they felt. It would cover and override any other emotion they had. Even love, so what was the point? Other than simply finding a reason to hurt the ponies? I understand them having to find food for their hive. I too have to do that. However I never harmed a pony and I never will.
My hive is nothing like most. Other hives were constantly connected to the hive mind. In my hive we are only connected with our consent. And we had the freedom to have their own families and hatchlings not just the queen. Queen Athnaties also allowed us to be free. To come and go as we please. Needless to say their was in fact a process everyling had to go through before they left, to make sure everything that needed to be done in the hive, had the corresponding job assigned to someling els. We were free but we still need to protect and care for our hive. It was still our home.
We live in assigned apartments, and have different restaurants in the hive. You could get a tasty snack but only emotion would give you nutrition. That is always given out in monthly or weekly rations. It all depended on what each changelings needs are. For my life style, I prefer monthly rations and to stay at the hive on my breaks from the bolts. It is my home after all. The reason I chose to get monthly rations is because of me being so busy as a Wonderbolt and constantly going on tour.
I always make sure to use my rations as a last resort when we are on tour! I only used it if food isn't available. When I was on a 6 month tour with only a months rations. I wouldn't be able to get to my hive. I would have to feed off of ponies but I never hurt them! Let alone laid a hoof on them. Unlike Chrysalis! She gave us changelings a bad name. And it is because of what Chrysalis did that causes me to feel so betrayed. By my own kind! Even though my hive being as laid back as it is...... I always was a little different to say the least.
I always felt like I couldn't be myself. I always just felt better and fit in more with the ponies, them and my one best friend Tarnix. He too was a changeling, but unlike most he didn't see me as weird. He saw me as a friend, and for who I was. He never cared what anyling said about him for hanging out with me.
Why couldn't Queen Chrysalis treat her changelings like how Queen Anthnaties did us?! Kindly. That's all she had to do! Was be kind and fair! At least to her own hive! But she wasn't, and I know theirs nothing I can do to change her. It wasn't the changelings fault. They were being controlled through the hive mind. Something that never happens in my hive. Sure they we're connected, but we are never CONTROLLED! I feel so betrayed because of what Queen Chrysalis has done to our kinds name. Now changlings would only be seen as monsters! Knowing this hurts. Just like how she was going to hurt the ponies I suppose... And Dashie! If anything ever happened to her! I would never forgive myself! I tried to find her but failed through all the panic.
Soarin's thoughts begin to drift back from when they first started dating. We both had just started high school when we developed a crush at first sight. Everything just always seemed perfect! Like nothing bad could happen when we were together. Like we could take on the world. Rainbow Dash was always a skilled flier... Me not so much. But I always dreamed of being a wonderbolt, as did Rainbow Dash.
Years later, when we entered age to join the bolts. I still could not fly. It wasn't long before Rainbow Dash couldn't watch my, sad attempts to fly the obstacle course anymore. Then training began. By the end of his first day, I was able to go through the course without hit. I was beyond happy. I only improved from there. The goal Rainbow Dash made for me was to be good enough to try out for the Wonderbolts auditions. They were coming up in just under two month.
I said it was impossible, But Rainbow Dash, as always proved me wrong. She was so excited to see the judges give me my score. Two judges gave me a 10 and one a 9. My score was the highest score so far! Now it was Rainbows turn. She was the last contestant. She sped through the obstacle course with amaizing speed and agility. She was grinning ear to ear as she made all the tight turns with ease. The crowds cheered and all three judges rewarded her with a 10. Her and me both made the cut and were the bolts newest members!
Until Rainbow's Dad found out. She would constantly be gone on tour and doing shows. Her father did have a point when he said it would be very unlikely she would go to collage. So he made Rainbow give up her spot to the next runner up, Surprise. Rainbow Dash's Father thought she should have a collage education. In case something went wrong. And so she would have something to fall back on. Rainbow Dash was crushed. She was forced to give up her spot to the runner up. Forced to give up the spot that would have made her dream come true!
I was going to quit, once I found out. I knew Rainbow wanted this more than anything. But she wouldn't let me. It broke both our hearts when we found out that I would have to stay and live on the base. We had to call off our relationship. I didn't see her again until the gala. Even then it didn't matter. I had been dragged off by fans and didn't get to spend time with her.
"Hey soarin." Some pony interrupted his thoughts "What are you doing out here? Come on! The weddings about to start in less than an hour! You have to get cleaned up and dressed! And that's an order, we're going to be late!" Spitfire said. Soarin sighed. "Ok."
I stood there in front of the mirror staring at myself. I was wearing my wonderbolts official cocaptin uniform. And what I hoped was a formal tie. I was hoping to impress Rainbow Dash, Okay Soarin you can do this! I told myself in my mind. All you need to do is go up and talk to her! Come on don't be such a wimp! "I've fought for equestria a million times, lived through deadly stunt flying crashes and more! I can do something as easy as talking to a mare!" I finally said out loud
I sighed and let my eyes drift towards the window. Oh Rainbow, seven years, it's been seven years scents I've really seen you, danced with you. Hopefully tonight will be different. I never even wrote to you or made time to read the letters you sent. By the time I actually went through all the fan mail and found it... I always told myself I was to tired and I'd do it tomorrow. That maybe I'd tell you my secret. The thing I've been debating ever scents I laid an eye on you. Rainbow I was afraid, I'm sorry. I didn't know what to do. But time flew by Rainbow, it flew by so fast.
I didn't know how to respond. The thought of telling you made me feel sick. Telling you that I was diffrent. Still I never told you. I never even read any of your letters. When you stopped sending them though, that's what really hurt. Not feeling like I had contact with you. That I blew my one chance. Knowing you probably felt like I abandoned you. All because I never took just a minute to even bother replying. I never read them. Except for the ride here I, read them then I thought to myself. All of them dated and read in order from when I received them.
There were about six months worth of letters one every week. The first few were all excited and happy. Updating on all the stuff you was doing and how collage was going, asking about the bolts. As the letters continued they started to ask if I was okay. Why I hadn't responded and to please write back. But then letter after letter they got worse. They started asking if I even remembered her. If I no longer cared about her because I was a Wonderbolt. Asking if now I only thought of her as just another fangirl. But then the very last letter, it was a letter informing me that her Father has died.
The only family Rainbow had ever sense she was a filly. Any pony who knew her knew how important friends and family were to her. Nothing was more important! Why wouldn't it be? She used to be a filly who was all alone in the world. This is such the life of an orphan. The letter said how she actually thought I cared, but how she guessed she was wrong. That maybe I wasn't part of her family now after all. She said how she wished it was all a lie. That she wanted me in her life. That she wanted me to came and tell her that this wasn't true. She said this would be her last letter unless something changed. Unless I wrote back. That if I cared I would come to her father's funeral.
How for the first time in her life she would be happy to be proved wrong. I did care. I loved her, and yet I felt so distant. Like I didn't belong. I never responded afraid of hurting her. But by doing so I only hurt her more. She was BEGGING me to come. Just so she wouldn't be alone, just asking for a second of my time, to show her that she actually had worth. Something she grew up hearing how that was something she lacked.
She said that if I didn't come it was enough proof, that would be all she needed to know that I never truly cared. How I never truly loved her. How I had just played her so I could get into the Bolts. How she was stupid, but still wanted me to come so she wouldn't be alone. Something that she used to be able to latch onto. That I was, no, used to be her security. She admitted it. That that was her one true fear, of being alone, unloved, a failure.
"I never went to her Fathers funeral."
I said out loud as I allowed a single tear to fall. I felt it running down my cheek. Warm salty tears.... just like the ones that covered the letters. Tears of abandonment and fear. She's never going to forgive me I though. How could she? I never took a single minute to even adknowledge her letters. She would never for give me.
Hi it's me, Soarin. I know you probably don't want to see or hear me right now, and your probably about to rip this letter apart. But please don't. Please give me a chance and listen, well in this case read. I'm so sorry! You have every reason to hate me for what I've done to you. I haver meant to abandon you, leave you, to ignore you. I love you, I know it doesn't seen like it but I do. I promise ,your more important to me than anything in the world! I love you Rainbow with all my heart.
Even when I have no right. I have no right because of what I've done, and I'm sorry. Please forgive me Rainbow Dash. I have some personal things I've been going through scents I met you, and when I joined the bolts, I let it get in the way. I let it get in the way so much I didn't acknowledge you. I was so scared that I'd mess thing up. That I'd do something wrong. I'm so sorry Rainbow Dash, that's no excuse for what I've done.
You deserve so much better than I could ever give you. I'm nothing but a worthless jerk who doesn't even deserve the right to know a mare as amazing as you. I'm so sorry Rainbow Dash please for give me. I was trying not to hurt you- no I was only thinking of myself. I was only caring about what you thought of me, not what I was doing to you. I was being a self centered jerk. I'm so sorry, please forgive me Rainbow Dash.
I never even read a single one of your letters, but I kept them. I didn't actually read them until I finally mustered up all the courage, I had to open them. I read them, all of them Rainbow Dash, I'm so sorry. I never knew your Dad was sick or that he passed. I'm so sorry! I should have been their for you! But I wasn't. I was being to self centered to realize, that by not responding not telling or talking to you. It wasn't just hurting me but you too, it hurt me Rainbow Dash it truly did. I thought, never mind, you needed me and I was caught in conflict with myself with what to do.
I feel like I took it out on you. I'm so sorry Rainbow Dash, I don't expect you to forgive me. I wasn't their during the one time you truly needed me, all because I didn't bother to read your letters. I always told myself I'd read it tomorrow. I always said this to myself thinking that maybe I'd read it tomorrow, and tell you and that the next day I'd have mustered up the courage to tell you. But Rainbow time flew by, it flew by so fast. I'm so sorry. I write this to say, I'm sorry.
I still can't bring myself to tell you my secret. Please don't be angry or try to figure it out. I'll try to tell you eventually, at least at some point I promise. I'll tell you one day if you really want me to, but I'm sorry. I can't, not now, I don't want to loose you if I haven't already. I love you Rainbow. I always have and I'm sorry. I don't really expect you to forgive me, I don't deserve forgiveness, no, not after what I've done. But I promise you, that I meant it when I said I love you. I always have and that will never change.
I promise I will never abandon you again nor leave your side. If that's ware you want me, if you send a letter I'll write back as soon as I get it. I promise, I don't care if I have to quite the bolts to be their for you. I will do anything because I love you. I always have and I always will, no matter what. I never told you how much I cared. I never showed you Rainbow Dash. You deserve so much more than I could ever give you. Rainbow Dash I'm so sorry, I can't even tell you how sorry I am because even that's not enough .I'll be at the wedding tonight. I'll try and find you. If you don't want to talk to me then I'll leave you alone. I won't bother you or break your heart ever again.
A tear hit the paper and the soft sound of sniffles soon followed. Then their was a banging on the door, Rainbow Dash looked up from the letter.
"Come on every pony! Everypony needs to be in the ball room for the ceremony in 30 minutes sharp! Don't any pony dare be a secondlate," Twilights voice snapped, from outside the door.
Rainbow Dash ignored her and looked back to the first line of the letter.
"Hi, it's me, Soarin."
"Does he actually care after all these years," Rainbow Dash thought to herself hopefully.
"I'll give you one more chance Soarin. But you better stay true to your promise because if you break it again, I'm never going to be able to trust you or forgive you again." Rainbow Dash said turning her head to look into her reflection.
Rainbow Dash pricked up her ears when she heard music from outside. She trotted to the window and looked out only to see a frazzled looking Twilight Sparkle yell at the DJ. She was yelling about something to do with how the vibration from the speakers worked, and them not having the proper wavelengths and frequencies. Something witch Rainbow Dash did not understand in the slightest.
"Well I guess I still have to get ready for the wedding either way," Rainbow Dash mumbled, as she remembered what the reason for all of excitement was about.
Rainbow Dash sighed, "oh Celestia what do I do? Should I really give him another chance?"
Rainbow Dash was now looking up to the setting sun as the stars began to appear. Each star shining...Some brighter than others, some colors different than others. But one thing they all had in common, was that they all had a role. They all had a place to be. Whether it was for the distance, or something else such as brightness or color or maybe the fact that some were simply being part of the same constellation. They were all together and had a place and a roll to play...They all had a place, a role, a way.
"maybe I just haven't found my way yet," Rainbow Dash thought to herself.
Rainbow Dash made her way over to a manikin in the corner of the room. It displayed her brides maids dress for the wedding. Rainbow Dash's mind was still buzzing with thoughts. She carefully unzipped the dress and gently removed it from the manikin. Rainbow Dash would never admit it, but she liked to feel good in a dress from time to time. But she would never do it in public, she could never ruin her reputation. That was literally all she had, well in her eye's anyway. Well, that and her friends of course. Rainbow Dash gently lifted the dress above her head and allowed it to slide down her sleek soft cyan coat, before carefully adjusting it. Once it was on correctly and adjusted so that it would be comfortable and not rub up against her skin, Rainbow Dash pulled up the zipper and put on her head piece.
She then silently trotted up to the mirror and carefully put on some powdered makeup. Rarity had insisted that she must must must wear it. She said that, that was the only way to look 'perfectly fabulous' at a wedding. Rainbow dash said it was stupid, and at the time she meant it. But now, Soarin was going to be there. Maybe it's a good thing Rarity was so persistent after all. Rainbow Dash trotted over to a mirror. She looked in the mirror, Rainbow Dash had to admitte it, Rarity did good work, she truly did look 'perfectly fabulous.' Rainbow Dash's thoughts soon drifted back to a certain colt with bright green eyes and a handsome-
"No," Rainbow Dash yelled at her self.
She sighed, "their's no way I can keep or fight the truth anymore."
Rainbow Dash let her head fall until it was leaning against the glass of the full length mirror.
"One more chance Soarin. You better not screw it up because despite how much I hate it....I love you," Rainbow Dash said.
More salty warm tears trickling down her face in a slow steady stream.
Rainbow Dash glanced at the clock, "darn," she mumbled, "the wedding and after party would be starting in a few minutes."
She quickly pulled herself together and wiped away her tears. Rainbow Dash applied more make up to rid herself of any trace of having cried. She wouldn't ever cry in front of anypony. EVER! She was not weak, at least that's not what she would allow others think of her as, at least not willingly. Despite what most ponies think, Rainbow Dash was always very sensitive. One of the main reasons she acted so tough was so she could hide her feelings and not be questioned. It was her idea of a protective barrier.
Rainbow Dash had been through a lot in her life, even more so because of the fact that now she was once again an orphan. Once again she was all alone, she hated that feeling, of being alone, it made her feel dead inside. Rainbow Dash never talked about her home life or her family. It used to be because it also made her think of the bad times before she had a new family. Now however it was because of that and the fact that now it only served as a painful reminder that she now lost the one pony that was left of her family. The pain she felt never left her, she always felt it but she never showed it. It's truly amazing how far a fake smile will go.
The wedding was great everypony their was happy and enjoying themselves and the wedding, I however just wanted it to end. Not because I didn't enjoy the wedding, it was quite the opposite, really. I was really happy, I would see my Dashie again! That's all that mattered to me. That however also made me feel really nervous. What if she hates me, what if she never forgives me? What if she hates me and I'm the last thing in Equestria she wants to see? "Shut up," thoughts I mentally screamed at myself.
I follow the crowd of ponies through the hall and out side the castle. Where the after party was taking place. The only thing I was thinking about however was what I would say to Rainbow Dash once I found her. I stopped and scanned the scene looking for a familiar rainbow maned cyan Pegasus. She couldn't be that hard to spot, could she? I looked around, no rainbow manes for as far as I could see. "Where could she be," I thought to myself. I continued to scan all of the ponies but saw none that looked familiar or even close to the rainbow maned mare witch I was looking for.
I started making my way through the crowd, after about an half hour of looking I was about to give up. I pushed past ponies towards the closest exit. I pushed through all the ponies only for somepony else to bump straight into me and both of us stumbled to the ground. I grinned as big as I could when I saw Rainbow Dash in front of me. She looked up at me, and I finally snapped back to my senses. I silently offered my hoof unsure of what to say, other than to offer an Awkward smile.
"Here let me help you up," I said.
"S- Soarin," Rainbow Dash asked me, seemingly in disbelief.
"Yeah," I confirmed nervously.
"Look Rainbow Dash I just wanted to say I'm sorry-"
"Save it, she interrupted.
I felt my heart shatter, I'm pretty sure I wilted a little inside.
"That's in the past I guess," Rainbow Dash said sounding unsure. "I don't want to think about it any more than I have to," she explained.
I smiled now getting a small feeling of hope. Maybe every thing wasn't completely lost after all?
"Are you okay," I ask tenderly.
"Yeah I guess," Rainbow Dash said starting to look a little upset.
I picked up on it quickly and decided to change the subject.
"So do you wanna dance," I blurted out suddenly.
Rainbow dash sincerely looked up in surprise. It took her a second to process what I had said before she looked up at me.... A long awkward few seconds. Those beautiful magenta eyes though, I could stare into them for hours. they're prettier than the prettiest diamond in all of Equestria. I would love nothing more that to be able to spend the rest of my life with Rainbow Dash but I know that that's probably not going to happen, at least not any time soon.
"Um, ok," Rainbow Dash asked more than said.
I just smirked knowingly and grabbed her hoof as I lead the way to the dance floor.
It wasn't long before we both started having fun. Both of us were grinning and laughing like the good old times. We had a blast and told each other stories about funny or interesting things that have Been going on in our lives. We were having an amazing time when suddenly their was a bright flash.
"What was that," Rainbow Dash asked curiously.
We both looked around for the possible source of the light but soon shrugged it off as nothing. Sadly nothing lasts forever, time simply flew by. Heh, That seem's to be happening a lot to me lately. Every pony was starting to pack up and leave slowly but surly.
"Aaawwww," I groaned in disappointment, as Rainbow Dash explained that she had to meet up with her friend's and go home.
"Dash," I said quickly, grabbing her hoof before she had the chance to leave.
"Huh? What is something wrong," Rainbow Dash asked me, while giving me one of those 'what the heck are you doing' looks.
"Huh, oh, no, I um, I just," I stammered before finally pulling myself together. "I, um just wanted to know if your not to busy we can meet up this Thursday only if you want to," I added quickly. "I um, have the day off from the bolts."
Rainbow Dash tilted her head, seemingly thinking. Then she smiled,
"okay Soar meet me at my place, say around noon?"
"Yup that's perfect, I exclaimed, much louder then I meant to" "I-I mean, um, sounds good! See you then, I said nervously. I was trying hard to fight back the blush forming on my face, from both embarrassment and Dashie using my nickname.
"Just like back in height school," I thought, thinking back to all the fun times we shared.
I Flew as fast as I could south of Canterlot and into the forest beyond. I was quickly approaching my hive. Once I got their I quickly spotted my friend Tarnix and made a bee line flying towards him. I literally ran into him, full force and landed right on top of him! Pinning him to he ground.
"Ugh, Soarin," he groaned. He pushed me off of him, and rolling on his side holding his gut.
"Tarnix! This is an emergency.
"Yeah it is, I think you shattered my ribs!"
"No! Not your ribs, my date," I exclaimed.
"A date," Tarnix asked jumping up all pain being forgotten.
"Sense when do you date, no offense but-"
"No! It's Rainbow Dash," I exclaimed.
"Oh really? Wait I thought haven't been in contact with her," Tarnix questioned.
"Yeah I wasn't until tonight. We have a date this Thursday and- oh no, I exclaimed starting to panick.
"What," Tarnix asked in bewilderment.
"I completely forgot! I need your help to figure out a plan to get Spitfire give me the day off!"
"Wait, Soarin you planned a date knowing you were busy," Tarnix questioned.
"Yes," I admitted, I suddenly began to feel really guilty.
"Soarin that's crazy even for you," Tarnix commented.
Sigh, "Soarin," Tarnix began trotting up to me.
"First of all, your still in pony form and are starting to draw a lot of unwanted attention to us-"
"Oh," I interrupted dropping my disguise.
Tarnix sighed again as he waited patiently before continuing.
"Secondly, if you keep this up this relationship isn't going to last long."
"What do you mean," I ask.
Tarnix trotted up to me and put a hoof around me comfortingly.
"I know that you like this Rainbow Dash and that this is a very sensitive topic for you. I mean I've know you scents we first hatched out of the nursery hive, but your going about this the wrong way," he explained.
"But-"
"No buts," Tarnix yelled with a stern expression. But lowered his voice before continuing.
"I know this is hard but you need to Listen! You can't keep doing this forever.
"Why not, I asked."
"Well, for one it's not right that you keep a big secret like this from her. Secondly! I know your doing everything you can for her, but telling her your going to meet up with her and not even knowing for sure if you can is not a smart move. Now please Soarin tell me what's going on. I'm your best friend, Tarnix encouraged."
"I-I ok," I gave in.
"First she always scent me letters, back when I first joined the bolts. Me hiding my secret made me feel sick. I wanted to tell her but I couldn't. I didn't thing she'd ever look at me the same again. How could I have told her? So I never opened her letters, I was scared to. That is until I heard she would be at the royal wedding. I finally mustered up enough courage to read them on the train ride to Canterlot... When I read them I found out that her father died. He was the only family she had and I wasn't their for her. I promised her is be their but I wasn't... I wasn't because I let my self pity distract me from what was really important. I haven't said a word to her in years.... "
"I finally met up with her at the weddings after party and she forgave me. And I-I couldn't just let her go! I had to come up with something so we would stay in contact. It was a stupid move, I know. Ppitfire won't let me have the day off, especially when she figures out its to meet up with Rainbow Dash. She HATES Rainbow Dash. Ss far as Spitfire's concerned I'm hers. That's one of the main reasons she won't let Rainbow Dash on the team. Now I've set something up, I know I may not be able to do and now I'm gonna break Dash's heart all over again," I said feeling tears fill my eyes."
Tarnix sighed, "ok," he said.
"Ok what," I asked sniffling.
"I'll help,"
"Really? But how," I asked. "What can we do?"
"Dude! We're changelings, remember? We can change to look like one another? sound like a plan?"
"Oh right," I exclaimed, once I finally realized what he meant.
Tarnix playfully hit me up the back of my head.
"You dork," Tarnix teased playfully.
I couldn't help but grin sheepishly.
"Ok, so here's the plan," Tarnix said, "I pretend to be you on Thursday, so you can go on your date."
"Perfect-"
"But!"
"But," I asked nervously. Tarnix always has some trick up his sleeve to get something that would benefit him. But he always pull's through and keeps his word.
" But in exchange you have to tell her your secret."
"What," I exclaimed, "I can't do that she'll never look at me the same again and-"
"If she doesn't look at you the same again, and doesn't except you as you truly are then it wasn't meant to be. It would be her loss. It may sting if that happens but it's better that way. If that happens then at least you would have done the right thing, instead of living a lie."
"You would be betraying her every day if your did! And if no when she found out?!?! Then what? Because if that happens, then you'll really lose her. I know you, you always are kind and look out for every ling else. I know you'll do the right thing with whatever you choose. Weather it be to tell her or call it off."
"Thanks Tarnix," I said giving him a soft smile.
"I know I can always count on you," I say, giving him a friendly hug. He hugged me back,
"No problem Soarin I'm always here for you, just like I know you'd always be here for me."
"Thanks, really but I have to go. I have something to prepare for this Thursday," I said flash Tarnix a goofy grin. Before starting to fly away, now feeling much better about myself.
"Wait, Soarin!" I herd Tarnix call, I turned around.
"Don't forget to change back into your pony form once you exit the hive," he called.
"Huh," I asked, looking down. I quickly took my normal pony form and grinned sheepishly, rubbing a hoof along the back of my neck as Tarnix burst out laughing.
"Soarin relax, I know what to do! I'm already at the compound and so far every pony's buying it, so chill. You explained the routine! I now know it better than my own name! Seriously, relax I know. Now go have fun on your date, don't worry I'm sure it'll be fine."
"Thanks for the support, but the date isn't my only concern....."
Oh? Then what are you jabbering on about?"
"I-it's Rapidfire..."
"So? What about him?"
"It's just, he knows me best. I'm worried he'll notice that something's up."
"Dude, it'll be fine! I'm telling you, don't worry, he'll never know the difference!"
"Tarnix I know you won't like this but... You see, I told him that I'm a ch-"
"Soarin, Relax! Alright? Just go have fun in your date and everything will be fine, I promise.
*Sigh* "Alright, I hope your right," I said in defeat.
"Of course I'm right! Now go and have your fun," Tarnix said.
"Ok, bye," I said, finally feeling relieved.
"Tarnix's got this! He'd never let me down!" I told myself, now feeling determined. I did my best to push the situation to the back of my mind.
I finally unferled my wings and prepaired to take to the air, to take flight to ponyville. The flight wouldn't be to long, just about 10 minutes or so. It would even shorter because, one I'm one of equestrias fastest fliers, and secondly I'm litterly on the outskirts of Cloudsdale! I flew into town and began to lazily glide around the small town of ponyville looking for Dashie.
H"uh?" Tarnix jumped at the loud voice and spun around to see an angry looking Spitfire"
Spitfire's face softened from on of anger to one of concern.
"You okay Soarin," Spitfire asked worriedly.
"Oh yeah, of course I am," Tarnix said piping up.
Spitfire sighed, "look Soarin, I'm sorry I yelled at you. I know I can be a little intimidating at times but remember I'm under a lot of stress right now ok? The inspectors comming soon and we have an important show coming up, but you NEVER miss practice. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions, I'm sorry, but we have to learn this routine and get through the drills we have for today ok?"
"Yes ma'am," Tarnix said saluting and marching down the hall.
'I did that right, right? Who am I kidding, of course I did! this is Soarin I'm talking about,' Tarnix thought to himself with a smirk.
Tarnix turned the corner and bumped into some pony.
"Woa! Sorry," Tarnix said trying to sound as clueless as he could.
Rapidfire raised an eye, "Soarin are you feeling ok?"
"What? Of course why wouldn't I be," Tarnix asked in Soarins voice.
Rapidfire just stared Tarnix down with an unreadable expression.
ABORT! ABORT! Tarnix's mind screamed at him as a single bead of sweat trickled down his forhead.
"Alright," Rapidfire said finally after a long pause. He held absolutely no emotion in his voice, nor did Tarnix smell or feel any emotion comming off of Rapidfire.
somethings wrong! It's not possible for a ponies to completely block out their emotions, right? Tarnix thought to himself.
"Alright you two! Let's go, we're already way behind schedule," Spitfire said matter of factly. She came up and started trotting up side Tarnix.
Man she really is in love with Soarin! So much love from her... make - make's my h-hungry-NO! Stupid thought's! Come on Tarnix controls yourself! This is for Soarin! But man, never have I felt so mush love come off one pony like that before! She is litterly head over hooves in love with Soarin.. This isn't going to end well between her and Dash. Tarnix gulped.... Not good.. Tarnix thought.
Tarnix was just glad that no pony else noticed his worried expression before he snapped back to his senses. That is until he met Rapidfire's piercing gaze.
"Oh shit," Tarnix mumbled under his breath nerviously. Rapidfire said nothing.
I happily flew through a nice fluffy cloud the cool off. The slightly damp feeling blowing through my mane and past my face, while small little wisps of what were left of the cloud danced across my cheek as they evaporated.
"Aaaahhhh," I sighed in contentment as I neared Dash's house.
I may be a changeling but this is the life for me. The one place I truly belong. I can't change it nor can I deny it. I'm a changeling, I don't like it, but it's who I am. I'm a changeling who's really a pony at heart. I'm more of a pony than I'm a changeling... And flying, man, I was meant for this! I love the sky and everything I've worked, learned, and done as a wonderbolt. I wouldn't give it up for anything.... Except Dashie. I would do anything to be able to be with her.
i love her , I thought to myself.
A peace of cloud hit me in the side of the head, I spun around.
"Huh," I questioned.
Only for another one to hit me on my back!
"What the!" I exclaimed flying in circles, trying to figure out the source for the strange little puffs of cloud.
Then I heard giggles. I flew closer to them and soon found out they were coming from. They were coming from a cloud that was to my left. I scilently flew up into it and saw a cyan pygusus who was trying to contain her laughter. She has still neglected to notice me. "Perfect I muttered to myself smirking evilly.
I pounced on her!
"Whoa," she yelled in surprise, as I pinned her to the cloud.
"Look what the cat brought brought in," I teased.
"Hey get off me," Rainbow Dash demanded.
"Um, no," I said tilting my head as if considering to let her go.
"Get off!" Rainbow Dash yelled now flustered, "I mean it!"
"Aaaawwwwhhhhh, but your so cute when your angry," I teased as her face burned up red with a deep blush.
"Besides," I continued, "rumor has it your very[ ticklish/b]," I said trying to hold in my laughter, when I saw the horrored look on her face.
"NONONONONONONONONO," Rainbow Dash said in horror as she held her breath to try and fight Back her laughter.
"Alright everypony, good practice today," Spitfire praised.
"Soarin," Spitfire barked, as Tarnix prepared to trot past.
"Uuhhhh," Tarnix said nervously.
"What the heck is with you today," Spitfire asked, "its like you forgot the whole entire routine!"
"Heh, heh, he, um s-sorry? I'm, um, not feeling quite myself today-"
"Whatever! Just be prepared for the next show! We've worked hard for this! In this next show Princess Celestia herself will be attending," Spitfire warned.
"O-okay?"
Spitfire glared harshly at Tarnix, "yes?" She asked.
"Yes?", Tarnix muttered nervously, suddenly feeling like he just shrunk.
"Yes Ma'am?" Spitfire questioned her eyebrow raised with annoyance. She looked ANGRY! Like she was trying very hard to compose herself from going crazy!
"Yes ma'am," Tarnix said trying to sound confident. but like him no pony else believed him.
"Good! remember, I don't do disrespect when we're on the practice field, k? You don't normally forget anything, you feeling ok Soarin," Spitfire asked all her anger turning to a look of concern for her friend.
"Y-yes? I mean yes! I'm fine," Tarnix corrected while giving the goofiest grin he could muster. "Yup, I'm fine, I just wasn't feeling so good earlier, but I think I was just stressed. I think I just need some alone time for a while," Tarnix said quickly.
"Ok, if you say so, Spitfire said, shaking her head.
"Come on every pony! Let's hit the mess hall," Spitfire called out. Everypony began to file inside the building behind her.
"Phew," Tarnix exclaimed wiping a bead is sweat from his forhead.
Tarnix turned to walk past the building only to be grabbed by rough strong hooves and slammed into the brick wall!
"Aaaaahhhhhh," Tarnix screamed.
"You have two seconds to tell my where Soarin is," Rapidfire yelled in Tarnix's face. Tarnix could hear the venom in his voice, and feel no other emotion other than pure hatred illuminating from Rapidfire.
"Hahahahahah," Rainbow Dash laughed so hard her chest hurt.
I finally stopped tickling her so she could catch her breath, but I still kept her firmly pinned to the cloud beneath us. Rainbow Dash gasped for air.
"You, you, you'll pay for this," Rainbow Dash said panting trying to catch her breath.
I leaned up over her so that our muzzles were only a few inches apart, then I smirked.
"Oh yeah? What are you going to do little Dashiekins?"
"You'll see once I- "Rainbow Dash huffed while trying to pull out of my hold.
"Hahaha, funny, you know why," I asked.
Rainbow Dash glared daggers at me. "Are you laughing at me?! Because I swear to Celestia that you'll regret it if your laughing at me! Rainbow Dash yelled getting even more embarrassed by the second.
I simply laughed , "aaawwwww, Dashie, your so cute when your mad," I teased.
Rainbow's face flushed.
"You know, it's funny really," I continued looking away smirking. I glanced back down to see Rainbow Dash glaring at me and sulking, "that I can do this!"
I blew raspberries on Rainbow Dashes tummy, and once again the air was filled with laughter.
"S-stop," Rainbow Dash said through gasps of laughter.
"I dunno, I don't think I can until you tell me who equestrias best pony is....."
"Me, dummy," Rainbow Dash managed to yell through all of her laughter.
"Noooo, because honestly, really I think it's me," I said now tickling her even more.
"Hahahahahah, ok! Ok! You win!! Stop, stop," Rainbow Dash yelled while laughing.
I grinned and let her go.
"I hate you," Rainbow Dash said pouting after a long pause.
"I love you too," I teased, while Rainbow Dash shot me a playful glare.
"So what do you say we go and eat? I'm starving," Rainbow Dash said jumping up.
I simply shook my head with a smile.
can't blame a guy for trying I thought to myself. I know all to well that when Rainbow Dash gets an idea their was no changeling her mind. "looks like our tickle fights over," I mumbled to myself.
Alright" Dashie, come on! I know the perfect place for our picnic! It's got an amazing view, plus, bonus, it's getting kinda late so the sky will look perfect," I said with a smile.
Rainbow Dash blushed, "s-sure sounds good! Sappy and a little too romantic for somepony as awesome as me, but good, I think I can handle that," Rainbow dDash said nonchalantly.
"WHO ARE YOU?!? AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH SOARIN?!?!"
"Nothing I swear," Tarnix yelled, now in fear for his life.
Rapidfire only glared, "don't play dumb with me!"
Tarnix eye's shifted back and forth in panic as he contemplated his options, while silently praying for one of the other wonderbolts to come and rescue him.
"Answer me," Rapidfire demanded.
"I, I um," Tarnix studdered.
what do I do, what do I do?!? Their's no fooling him now! Telling him the truths the only way I have ANY chance of living!, Tarnix thought in quick panic.
"My name is Tarnix," Tarnix unintentionally blurted out.
"I'm listening," Rapidfire said softening his glare. He was finally getting somewhere. Still, his eyes felt like they were shards ready to Peirce through your soul at any moment.
I "I, um."
"Your a changeling aren't you," Rapidfire asked bluntly.
"How did you!- I mean, uh, what no! Are you crazy! Changelings are evil!"
"Sure they are and big and scary too," Rapid teased, "now seriously, I know your a changeling and where's Soarin!?"
"I, um, he's on a date," Tarnix said In defeat as he begs. To relax.
"With who? Rainbow Dash?"
"How'd you know," Tarnix asked suprised.
"I suspected it. It was only confirmed when I saw them dancing at the wedding, luckily I was able to snap a picture," Rapidfire said with a mischeviouse grin.
"Um, could you possible let me down now please," Tarnix asked nervously.
"Huh? Oh yeah, sorry, but seriously, why are you here?"
Tarnix sighed, their really wasn't any hiding the truth now.
"Soarin and I switched places so he could go on a date because he knew Spitfire wouldn't let him have the day off."
Rapidfire sighed, "yeah that's true, she wouldn't, she has a HUGE crush on him.
"Yeah I noticed all the love coming off her, and it's making me hungry!"
"Hey," Rapidfire scolded.
"Sorry, sorry," Tarnix muttered while looking to the side.
"Just a tip, always address Spitfire with respect, and try to stay calm around surprise's antics."
"Huh," Tarnix exclaimed snapping his head around to face Rapidfire in pure shock.
"Are are you helping me?"
Rapidfire smirked, "look, any friend of Soarin is a friend of mine. Plus you haven't given me a reason not to trust you. I'll give you a chance, but Soarin better be back soon."
"Well I should' t have to worry then," Tarnix replied with a friendly smile.
"Mmmmmmm this is the BEST apple pie I've ever had," Rainbow Dash commented as she took another bite. The crust was perfect, nice and crispy whol the middle was sweet and gooey. "Mmmmmmnnnn," Rainbow Dash moaned again in pure bliss, as she let the delicious pastry melt onto her tongue.
I chuckled as I watched her enjoy her pie.
"Yup! that's Sweet Apple Acre's pie right there! It's the best their is!"
"Wait, what? Applejack made this?!? I knew she could cook but I didn't know she could cook like this," Rainbow Dash said throwing her hooves up in the air dramatically.
I laughed, "yeah I got my first one at the gala, remember when you saved it?"
"Yeah, Rainbow Dash laughed.
Rainbow Dash looked up at the evening sky and smiled when a small gust of wind blew and tickled her cheek.
"The sky's beautiful...... But not as much as you."
"Wait what? Are you saying you thing I-I'm pretty," Rainbow Dash asked blushing.
"I, um, wait, what?! No," I panicked.
"I mean your not pretty! I-if that's what you want I -I mean no! You are pretty! I just, um, oh, um, I-that's not what I meant," I continued to jabbered on helplessly .
Rainbow Dash leaned over and calmly put a hoof over my mouth and I became silent. I didn't dare utter a word, for I was unsure of what to say.
"I love you too," Rainbow Dash said.
I sat there stunned like and idiot!
"You do," I asked in complete shock.
Rainbow Dash chuckled, "Soarin I've liked you ever sense I first met you."
"Really," I asked.
Rainbow Dash simply laughed at me as we got lost in each other's eyes. We both began to lean in we were only a few inches apart, then I relized, I couldn't have her, I didn't deserve her, anything we would ever have between us would be a lie.
"No," I yelled jumping up!
Rainbow leaned back in surprise and looked at me surprised.
"W-what,?!"
"I said no! I'm sorry, but no I can't do this!"
I flew as fast as I could and I didn't stop until I saw a lake and landed on its bank. I dropped my disguise and began to scream and yell as much as I could at my reflection.
"Stupid, ugly, monster! You'll never be good enough! Y-you!!!---"
_"--kind, caring, and the sweetest pony I've ever met!" A voice behind me shouted, I spun around.
"R-rainbow?!?!" I stutter nervously backing up until I was ankle deep in the still water of the lake, but she kept coming towards me. Her eyes, her face, they held no fear only concern.
"Soarin don't you dare walk away from me," Rainbow Dash ordered.
I hung my head low and slowly trotted up to the bank, I didn't stop until I was right in front of her.
"Rainbow I-"
"Save it," she interrupted in a harsh angry tone. I hung my head low.
Rainbow Dash closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "Soarin," she began gently, "why would you think your a monster?"
"Because I am one! I'm a changeling! And changelings are monsters! Look at me"
"Now stop right there, Soarin! Look, being a changeling doesn't make you a monster. What makes you a monster is when you go out of your way to hurt others! You remember queen Chrysalis right?
"Yeah," I said quietly, "she gave us a bad name. Ponies didn't even know we existed until she attacked canterlot and now.... Every pony fears us."
"See! You care! Plus you look out for every pony, this proves your not like the others," Rainbow Dash said placing a comforting hood on my shoulder.
"I'm still a changeling," I said sadly, lowering my head even closer to the ground.
"Soarin look in the water, what do you see?"
I looked into the water at my reflection like Rainbow Dash said to. All I saw was a black twisted figure full of holes and fangs.
"All I see is a monster," I said quietly.
"No soarin, look harder," Rainbow Dash said as she bent down and and twirled her hoof in the water causing it to ripple. I watched the ripples start to clear and spread out towards the center of the pond..... but when it cleared, I saw, not a pony, not a changeling, but two changelings standing side by side............ as equals.