> Balancing On The Edge Of The Cliff > by ClaireAlphabet > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Freedom > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I stood here. I was looking into the dark abyss. Cold air brushed my hair, somehow holding in a ruined bun. It doesn’t matter for me or for anyone else. Nothing will matter…soon. I looked once more into the abyss. Is this really where my end will be? In some dirty abyss full of spiders and Celestia knows what? Yes. It will be, because I need freedom and this can bring it to me. This is the only way to be happy again, after all those things I had to come through. A small stone broke from the rock near my feet. It was falling and falling and falling. Finally I heard a small bang, as stone fall on the bottom that I couldn’t see from here. It was really deep and I was really high. In one moment dizziness tried to take over me, but I felt strong and I was. I was stronger than ever in my whole long live. Another minute passed and I just stood here unable to move away. It felt like something tied me to this mysterious abyss. It wasn’t just something it was my destiny. I kneeled down and broke a small shard from old bottle. It sides were sharp, just like I wanted. I stood back up. I played with small shard. It left small red stains on my frozen skin, but no blood came out. What a shame. I squeezed it between my fingers. I saw how small drops of blood were going out of my palm. It hurt. I enjoyed it, because this is the last pain I will ever feel. With unhealthy smile I let the shard fall at the grass mostly covered in white snow. After it fall on snow one of many red drops of my blood. As it landed on cold blanket, it started to flood between small crystals of snow. It looked like some sort of a flower in bloom. Another one fall and landed on my dark violet boot. I can promise I even heard how it sprayed at it. The time has come. I lifted my bloody hand and pressed it onto my cheek with few hairs on it. Then I rubbed the rest of my lavender colored face. My hair started to glue at it. This is what will symbolize all my pain; I had to live through in this crazy universe and in Equestria to someone who will find me. No more waiting. I spread my arms like an eaglet trying to fly. I jumped down the cliff. Cold wind was blowing against me, like it was trying to stop me and save me from my destiny. No. This isn’t what will happen. I won’t let anyone to decide about how my life is going to end. My chest started to hurt, because of the freezing air I was breathing, but this wasn’t the only reason for it. The second reason was the fact something in me wanted to cry. That something was probably my heart, but it wasn’t stronger than my soul in need for endless freedom. Fast changing stone walls around me, didn’t make me feel any better. It was making me sick. I hate heights. My eyes shut closed. Now I know it is true, when someone says, that when you are dying you see your whole life right before your eyes. My mind drifted me something about a thousand of years back. -- I sat at a big stone near beach. I was waiting for some boat to came here and give us everything we needed for our lives. Finally I saw a big black silhouette coming from the horizon. The canvas on it was spread. Wind was blowing not so lightly, so the ship will be here in matter of minutes. “Adagio, Sonata ship is coming!” I called into air. My voice was deep and melodic. Ocean echo repeated my words. “I am here!” Behind me I heard voice of my younger sister. It wasn’t as deep as mine; it was higher pitched, but still magical and charming. I turned around and almost kissed her. With red blush both of us started to giggle. “No one cares to tell me what is going on. That is so typical for you two.” Adagio growled. She was levitating next to us with her hooves crossed. “It’s not my fault that you weren’t here to see it.” I almost snapped at my selfish sister. “Oh, come on Aria dear; don’t be so mean at your loving older sister.” Adagio cynically smiled, but her eyes were glowing with rage. “Who do you think is on that sail?” Asked all exited Sonata. “I think they are fishermen.” “They are traders, if you ask me.” I replied to her question. Adagio shook her orange head. “Nah, both of you are wrong, they are pirates.” “Don’t be crazy Adagio.” I rolled my eyes. “Look, something is flying here.” My sisters looked at shadow in sky getting closer and closer to us. Adagio shrugged. “No one cares about strange looking things Aria. That isn’t important anyway, that for su- AAAAAAGH!” she screamed when a big orange phoenix landed at her forehead and started to tear her fin she had at top of her head. -- I opened my eyes to see everything fading in endless darkness, as I was getting away from sun shine. My eyes were hurting from wind taking my tears away and sending them flying on their own. My bun had already surrendered and my hair was dragging after me like some violet and menthol veil. I looked once again at the stone wall fast passing next to me. The felling I am going to throw up changed into a burning headache in my forehead. It doesn’t matter for me. I am strong enough to hold by my decisions. This one was good. No, it wasn’t just good; it was great or even better than just that. -- “Are you sure this is a good idea Adagio?” I asked as I looked down. My head started to spin in circles. We were in height of fifty meters above ground climbing at the top of mountain. Why? Because our leader decided to climb at it and not walk around it like everyone else would. “Yes Aria, for hundredth time, I am sure this is a good idea.” Our bossy sister said for fifth time. “But Dagi I am so tired.” Whined Sonata and stopped climbing. “Well I don’t care.” Adagio flatly answered. “Anyway, we are almost there, so just keep moving.” “Are you kidding me?! We aren’t even in the half of this stupid thing!” I almost yelled at her. She stopped and looked me in the eyes. Her magenta eyes narrowed as two arrows ready to stick into the middle of my head. “Calm it down a bit. Will you?” I just rolled my eyes. There was no point in talking to her. “I can’t hold here anymore girls.” Sonata gasped for fresh air. “Can you help me? Please?” “How are we supposed to do that genius?” I was annoyed enough by Adagio and Sonata wasn’t anyhow better. She didn’t answer. I can saw how her legs were shaking from exhaustion. “Sonata whatever you do, do not fall at me!” I pleaded her. “I don’t want to fall either Ari, but I seriously have to do so.” By that she released rocks she was holding and let herself fall down, right at my beautiful pony-tail. “No!” I screamed as I released the stone wall as well. “That hurt!” Adagio cried. “Sonata let go of my hair!” I was happy, that we were saved but it started to feel like we are going down again. Then I heard an unnamed sound and I and Sonata fall on a tree that was randomly growing in one of many mountain caves. “We are saved!” Sonata happily screamed, with it she throw her arms into air and showed us a big part of Adagio’s hair in one of her hands. -- I smiled at the stone wall, which has in a meantime gone all black. I could still see Adagio’s face, when she find out what Sonata did to her hair like it was yesterday. I looked around. There was no tree, which could save me. But who need such a thing? I don’t, because this will be the best thing that could happen to me in my whole long, super long live. There is no way how to change it and I am happy for it. I turned my head and faced the bottom. I could already see some big stones on it. Everything under me was dark. I turned my head again so I saw sky and sun that was setting down behind the horizon. Cliff was colored in colors like red, orange and everything between. It looked nice, more than just nice. It was glorious. Same like my happy life with the two best sisters I could ever ask for. How is it possible to change so fast? Did it even change? Or is it still the same as when we lived in Equestria? What am I doing?! My mind screamed at me. This was really fast way how to wake me up from daydreaming. In panic I started to shake my arms and legs trying to fly. It didn’t work. It was too late to save myself from death. Bottom came closer to me than it ever was. My end has come and I don’t even want it anymore! Loud sob escaped my lips. Tears started to run from my eyes faster. In my mind I started to please the Celestia for forgiveness and help. I fall at the hard cold ground. I felt intense pain. I heard how my bones were breaking one after another. I tasted a warm blood in my mouth. Everything before my eyes went black. My heart had one last beat. My lungs had one last breathe… …I was free…but I didn’t want it anymore…