> Tortured Life of a Once Normal Teen > by ponylover > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Chapter 1: The First Day > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hey, my names Jacob. What would you do if you were ripped away from your normal everyday happy life, and thrown face first into something that no child should ever have to go through? That was my life: a killer. I was forced to do things that I wouldn't wish on my greatest enemy. However, by some miracle I was able to escape that life... well, in a way. I can't take two steps without something reminding me of those days. And worse, I fear I might revert back at anytime. I don't know what to do anymore... Now here I am, sixteen years old and I've been allowed back into normal society and into one of the most prestigious schools in all of Equestria, Canterlot High, so I am under the watchful eye of Princess Celestia herself. I was only rescued nine months prior to me being released into the normal world again. I was still having nightmares every night from the days I had to fight for my life. The blood… screams… and hopeful looks in their eyes thinking I would spare them. Only for their hopes to be destroyed with the killing blow by my hands. I never wanted to! I mean some of them I was friends with, but it was either me or them… clearly I chose them. I always would wake up screaming or looking around for help or the eyes of those I had killed. But that was only when I was getting help. Now after those nine months I have been put under the eye of Princess Celestia. At the time I never knew why, but soon that answer would be brought to me. She had explained to me that if I was to have any chance of living like I had before I would need to go to school for it. She said being around hundreds of people could help me with the stress and I could make friends. Of course, I accepted without thinking it over at first, but now as I got ready for the first day of the school I was going to attend I was starting to have second thoughts. Not just the fact that all the friends I had ever made died by or in front of me. Also I knew from just a door slamming I would think I was having to fight for the sound was similar to a shield being bashed by the opponent, the heralding sound of the arena. The arena… with its huge space… blood everywhere and bodies… an announcer on the loudspeaker announcing every move the fighters did… the screaming, oh Celestia the screaming! Sorry… got into a flashback. Anyways that’s why I hate loud noises. But as for what I look like...just picture a normal looking sixteen year old. Around six(feet) and five(inches). I used to have a light built but grew to a medium built from fighting and grueling training. I have short brown hair and green eyes. I am a normal equestrian with tan skin with a good bit of Thai heritage in my blood. But I don't worship the Buddha or anything like that. As for my family, I live alone. Ever since I was kidnapped, I could never find my real parents nor any of my relatives, so I just gave up. What else can someone in my situation do? So now you know a little bit about my life. Now this is where the actual story begins. The story of when I was brought back from hell and into a more peaceful life. But even through peace, hell lurks around every corner just wanting to bring you back from what you’re so close to achieving. I was standing at the doors of Canterlot High in their school uniform. A simple suite like shirt with black dress pants my backpack on my back. Class was already about to start and a bunch of students were already on their way to their own classes. I sighed while walking towards the massive building and up the steps. As soon as I entered the school my ears were assaulted by the sound of chattering kids and lockers opening. Along with the slamming...I swear the first slam made me wanna just jump behind something or just go and hide forever. But I just clenched my hands tight having to hold back the urge to do so. I walked in further trying to just find the office looking for a sign. My movement slow while my hearing as well as my sight were on high alert. After what seemed like forever I saw a sign that said “Main Office.” I let out a sigh of relief as I walked in eagerly. I opened the door and closed it behind me the sound of lockers slamming muffled and much easier to deal with. “Why hello. How can I help you?” I heard a voice say. I turned towards it quickly on instinct. Sitting there was an elderly woman looking to be maybe sixty five. She had short pure white hair and her eyes were behind a pair of elder glasses. Along with a long blue dress with white dots with plain looking shoes. “Um… yes I was wondering if this was the main office.” I said while I get my nerves under control. The woman smiled as she pointed to her left. There were file cabinets sitting on either side of the door that had a small sign that read “Principal's Office”. “Thanks.” I said as I made my way to the door and knocked. “Come in.” I heard a female voice say. I opened it and walked inside. In front of me was Celestia herself, her ever flowing hair shined beautifully as she greets me a warm smile. I did the same though it has been awhile since I even cracked a grin so I was afraid it looked weird. I walked over to her and saw quickly that she was wearing a woman's suite with white tie and tan dress pants. I sat down in a chair that was in front of her. “So… Jacob how are you holding up?” Celestia was one of the few people to talk to me after I was rescued from that hellish place and she even set up therapy for me to go to. So she was one of the people I felt I could open up to. “Not so good… I feel like I am going through all that hell again… like I’m back in that place again.” I slumped over, putting my hands over my face as sweat started to form on my body. Celestia frowned at seeing me in this state. “Please have a seat, you can take the time to relax while I get your paperwork ready.” “Th-thanks.” I stuttered as my mind raced with thoughts of my old life. “I can’t seem to shake the memories sometimes.” I quickly took a seat and sighed heavily. “Don’t stress yourself, these things come with time. And with everything that’s happened, it’s a miracle you came this far, you are stronger than you think.” Celestia concludes as she leaves to get my file. I sit there waiting for her as I calm myself down. It only took her a few seconds before she returned with a folder in hand. She sits down and places the folder onto the desk, opening it. The picture was of me recently taken. “Does it... have all of my information of what I went through?” Celestia looked at me and for once she didn’t seem to know how to answer. All she did was nod. I looked back at the folder. It was very detailed in what it was saying about what I went through. From what I looked like before being abducted. Long hair, always smiling, very skinny, and kind. I quickly skimmed down and saw that all that had changed. It said I was found with a bloody weapon in my hands three bodies around me. My expression was of one who had just got into a fight with anger surging through me like a wild animal. My mind suddenly went to that day. ~*~*~ “Hey, kid come back here or else!” One of the men yelled as I ran for my life. “We aren’t gonna hurt you, we just want to talk!” Another man yelled as he laughed. I was running for a straight ten minutes and was completely out of breath as a rounded a corner trying to get away from the three brutes chasing me. The whole arena was in chaos, they were finally found out and the princess herself as well as a whole platoon of her royal guards marched in out of nowhere. I had to take this chance to escape, before being captured myself. Unfortunately these guys had a different plan. I think they wanted revenge for me killing a mate of theirs, but I didn’t care, I just wanted to get away from this place, to be free. As I rounded the corner, it was blocked of my a gate that had been shut to prevent anyone from escaping. “No, no, no! there has to be a way!” I screamed in frustration. But as I went to turn around, the three men were already on me. I took a swift jab to the stomach then was forced to the ground. I can remember them laughing as they held me there, telling me that I’m done for and that I’d never see the light of day. I watched as one pulled out a knife, licking the blade, cheap scare tactic that I never fell for. But what I knew I had to fear was my imminent death if I didn’t get away. I began struggling as hard as I could muster despite having a buff, fully grown man on top of me. I remembered wailing and cursing at them as they laughed. I watched as the one with the knife slowly inched it towards my face, pressing the sharp edge against my cheek, he slowly started carving, I felt the blood running down my face and neck while they laughed. Thanks to the torture and pain I was used to already, I was able to hold back any tears. As he left a good long cut across my face, he started along my arm; the pain was beginning to become hard to deal with. However, when he suddenly stabbed it to my bicep, I remember letting out the largest scream of pain that I could remember. I don't know why, maybe it was because it was me wishing someone would save me or me wishing they’d let me go. Either way, I lay there as tears start to wail up as he sliced my chest, stomach and legs. I felt myself wanting to slip into unconsciousness, wanting to just finally let all the struggling, all the pain disappear and die off. But then, out of nowhere I get a rush of adrenaline just like when I’d fight for my life in the arena in front of hundreds of people. I didn’t want to die, I didn’t want to fade away and my life end like this. My eyes shot open as I flailed as hard as I could, knocking the guy carving me up and getting one of my legs free. The only thing I remember after this is slamming my foot into the guys hand as the blade pierced his jugular. Blood squirted all over me, a feeling I knew all too well. His friends seemed to recoil at the sight and I managed to free myself long enough to grab the knife, slam it into the guy that was holding me down’s side and repeatedly stab him over and over again until he was a pile of blood and guts. That’s when it faded in and out, the next thing I knew I was standing over three corpses covered in so much blood I didn’t know how much was mine or theirs and in the middle of all this I just cried. I didn’t cry because of the pain, or the blood, I cried because I just wanted the killing to stop. I remember holding the knife to my throat as I knelt down on my knees, I wanted it all to stop one way or another, I figured there’d be no help for me so if I took my own life, at least there’d be peace in some way. And as soon as I was about to thrust the knife forward, a hand grabbed mine. A man in armor looked down at me, eyes filled with kindness and sorrow. He told me that he was there was no need to kill myself, that he was here to rescue me from this life. Soon after that I just passed out from all the stress and loss of blood. ~*~*~ I snapped back to reality when I heard Celesta calling my name. I looked up at her and saw that her kind eyes showed severe worry. I shook my head. “Sorry… sorry... I just had another flashback. Were you trying to tell me something?” I asked once my daze was gone. “I was only saying that if you need any help just ask to come see me. All the teachers know about your condition, but not the students. So you are excused should the circumstances need be.” I nodded at this just happy that she went through all of this trouble to help me. “Thank you... you really hel-” A loud noise echoed through the whole building. The sound on its own was another signal for the arena. It was to say that more people would arrive. Instinct kicked in again as I stood up and spun around to look at the door thinking someone would come rushing out. All I could hear was my rapid heart beat and another loud sound. I started stepping back and ended up knocking the chair over, though I didn’t hear it. Another loud noise echoed as I fell back onto the desk, crawling backwards as fast as I could, my heart beating so fast that I thought my ears would burst while sweat covered my whole body. the bell lets out its last note as I fell to the ground, knocking everything off the desk. I stood up quickly looking around frantically for a weapon of any kind. Suddenly I heard my name being called, though it starts off muffled. “Jacob... Jacob... Jacob!” I shook my head quickly as the loud noise stopping, my heart beat slowly disappearing from my ears. I looked around seeing the two chairs knocked over and the desk no longer having anything on it, but it was all on the floor. I heard my name to my left and saw Celestia there looking at me with worried eyes. Suddenly I felt something trail down my face and my vision got blurry. I then knew I was crying from fear. All the fear I had thought i’d escaped had come back after me. Without saying a single word... she gathered me into a gentle hug. At first my whole body tensed up at first, this is the first time I’ve been hugged like this that I can remember and the whole experience felt strange to me. I was gonna break away until she gave me a soothing noise. “Shhh... shhhh. it’s ok Jacob... no one here is going to hurt you, you know.” She said in the most calming voice ever. I slowly relaxed as I wrapped my arms slowly around her feeling the gentle touch of a hug for the first time in what seemed like ages. After a bit of time passed we both let go as I pulled away. That hug helped me out so much. “Thank you... it helped... er, sorry about the office.” I said apologetically. Celestia shrugged. “It’s ok, no harm done. Listen, I know how hard it’s going to be so I am asking you to promise me something. Do your best not to lose yourself when something loud, or anything that reminds you of that place, for if you do... I'd have to be forced to have you removed if you're a danger to the students, so please, do your best to remain calm and if you ever feel like you can't handle it, come see me immediately, no matter what. All the teachers know about you and will let you go," understand?” I nodded at this, knowing that if I had flipped like that in class some terrible things would ensue. She smiled at me. “Now go on Jacob you’re gonna be late on your first day.” She said kindly. I smiled as I turned and walked out of the office, feeling guilty for destroying it. As I walked through the now slowly emptying hallways that had the little amount of students filter into class rooms. I checked my back pocket and took out my schedule. It said for first period I had to get to classroom two hundred and three for Math. I kept looking down at the schedule, remembering all my classes when I suddenly bumped into something and was knocked back a little. Again my heart raced, it reminded me of all the times I was rushed at by my enemy’s. I looked up and saw that I had bumped into a girl. She wore a green with white lines skirt and white suite the schools uniform for girls, her rain colored like a bright rainbow. She was rubbing her head as I rubbed my chest probably hitting me there. “Ow... hey watch where you're going!” She said with anger. The tone of her voice made my heart race. “I just have to get away as quickly as possible!” I thought to myself as I just rushed by her, looking down at my schedule, fearing if I looked at her again I would get the urge to do something I’d regret to an innocent student. I kept walking as she was yelling about how rude I was and if I was ever going to apologize to her. My heart rate starts to slow down as I get to my classroom. The room was packed with students goofing around and doing school work. “Oh you must be the new student?” I heard a voice say behind me. I turned and saw an older man standing there. He had on a brown suit with a black tie and brown pants with black dress shoes. I stepped away from the door so he could walk in. He had black hair and brown eyes with a beard. He walked in. “Your name is Jacob, yes?” He asked. “Yeah... it is.” I said to him trying to not sound weird. He was one of the first people I had talked to, besides the lady in the office, that I didn’t know. He smiled. “Ah, well good. Happy to see you made it to the right class. I’ll let you decide whether or not to say hello to the students or not. Either way, you can sit at one of the empty desks on the back.” He says, pointing to an empty seat. As I got to the back row and sat in one of the available desks, I noticed the girl sitting next to me, I found it a little strange how I only just noticed her. She had long pink hair that that went past her shoulder with blue eyes. She was wearing the same uniform as the other girl was only it seemed very tight around her chest area. I shook my head realizing I shouldn't be looking at girls in that way. Then the loud noise happened again, I remembered what Celesta had told me that I should keep my cool and try my best not react the way I normally would. I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath and held it for a few seconds. In that time frame all the noises came and went. I opened my eyes as I exhaled, finally figuring out that those were bells that signaled when a class ended and when a new one starts. Knowing that helped me a good bit. “Excuse me...um, are you... ok?” I heard a timid voice say to my right. I looked and saw that the girl was looking at me with concern. Half her face covered by her long pink hair. I nodded. “Yeah... yeah I’m... fine..” I said with a hint of a chuckle hoping the lie would work. She gave me a small smile and looked back up front. I did the same as all the students took their seats. “Ok everyone please settle down now. It’s time to start class so here we go.” He turned to the board and with a white piece of chalk wrote up a equation. 6x-2=10. Above it he wrote the word ‘Solve’. I took out a folder from my bag that was labeled ‘Math’. Celestia went through the trouble of getting all my supplies. I also took out my pencil from the bag and opened the folder. Inside was notebook paper and a few math sheets that could help get caught up. I looked around and saw that some students were whispering amongst themselves not caring for the work that the teacher had given them. Others were working as if it was easy and some, like myself, were struggling on how to even start it. I refrained from looking at other peoples papers not wanting to make habit of depending on others to do my work for me. I wrote down the problem onto the paper I had and just stared at it. My mind a blank on what to do and how to work it out. Only a minute passed before the teacher tapped his desk. Everyone stopped and looked at him. “Ok everyone that should’ve been enough time. Volunteers?” He asked. No one raised their hands. He sighed as he turned and did the problem explaining that you add two to both sides, then divide by six on both sides making X equal two. I was surprised as I put the notes he said down as he spoke. The whole class went like that. Him writing problem after problem onto the board and explaining each problem. Once he was done for the day he said that we had a few minutes before class was over and it would be time to go to the next one. Suddenly, one of the students started walking up towards the girl next to me. Fluttershy looks up and then quickly back down, avoiding eye contact and looking really nervous. The student walked over to her resting his hand on the back of her chair. Fluttershy looked at him and I saw that she had a look of fear in her eyes. “So, little Miss Fluttershy I hear there’s a certain rumor going around.” The guy was very buff with a leather jacket draped over one shoulder with the words, “Canterlot High Football Quarterback.” I looked and saw the teacher was out of the room. I just looked at my notes as he continued. “I heard from a certain person that you like to stuff that huge bra of yours. I figured hey why don’t I see if that’s true?” I looked over this time hearing what he was gonna do. He suddenly grabbed her chest and the girl yelped. She tried pushing his arm away in vain since he was obviously stronger than her. I looked around hoping someone would help her. No one seemed to want to help the girls looking away while most of the guys ignored it a some seemed to be wanting to see more. I looked back at what he was doing as he gripped her shirt starting to pull it down. “Stop, leave her alone.” I said as I stood up grabbing his arm in a quick motion. The guy looked at me shocked as I gripped it so hard for a second he lost his grip from her shirt and I pulled it away violently, but not in an effort to hurt him. “The... what the fuck you think you're doing?!” He yelled in anger. I let go of his arm as he stepped back. “She’s obviously not the type that likes being treated like that, so leave her be.” I said in a calm voice. He looked at me in anger. He had short blond hair with blue eyes. His eyes seemed to be burning with anger and he came up to me quickly and shoved me back. I stumbled back and got my footing as I looked at him. “What are you gonna do!” He yelled as he shoved me again. I could feel my anger rising as I looked at him. “Shove me again... and I will break your fucking arm.” I said in pure anger. He chuckled at this and even at that moment I knew my face had to have changed. Into one of a person who was ready to pounce, ready to fight, and ready to kill. The jock rushed forward and did one hard punch to the right side of my face. My head jerked to my left as he stood there smiling. I slowly looked at back at him a grin on my face. Blood slowly trickled down my face near my lips and I lapped it up in my tongue the taste of blood making me smile more. He recoiled a little at the sight. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him close till I was face to face with him. “Stay away from me and if you come near me, I may not be able to hold myself back.” I looked at the girl to see if she was ok. When I did, she had a frightened and timid look on her face, I can guess why though as I looked back at him. “What’s going on here?!” I heard the teacher say behind me. The jock looked at him the anger quickly leaving his face. I let him go from my grasp. “Nothing at all. Just guys fooling around is all. Am I right?” He asked looking back at me. I nodded not losing eye contact. The sound of what I figured out now was the bell rung. “You better watch yourself from here on, punk.” He whispered to me before walking away. My face was normal again, the rage dissipating. I looked at the girl who was being harassed to ask if she was ok. However, before I could get a word out, she jumps out of her desk and left as quickly as possible. I sighed to myself as I packed my things and left to my next class of the day.. All the other classes were fairly difficult as well, since I wasn’t taught much other than fighting tactics and whatnot. I even saw the same girl as before in my other classes, making it a little awkward as well, I could tell she didn’t really want me near her so I tried to sit in different locations. My last class was science class. It wasn’t very exciting for me either, I’d had hoped things would at least be interesting here, but I guess not. Suddenly, the phone rings in the front of class, causing me to jump slightly. “Jacob. Celestia wants to see you.” I only nodded as I walked out of the classroom and made my way to the office. As I headed inside, and saw Celestia sitting at her desk. She looked up at me. “So Jacob, how was your first day?” She asked. She didn’t notice the wound I got on my face so it must have been covered by my hair. I decided against my judgement to lie to her. “Went well. Nothing bad happened.” I said. She smiled at me. “Happy to hear that, Jacob.” The bell rings and I managed not to flinch. “See, I’ve gotten better already.” I said smiling weirdly again. She smiled back. “That’s great. Well that’s all I really wanted to talk to you about. You can leave if you want, Jacob. Be sure and stay out of trouble and you know where I am if you need me.” She said with a gentle smile. I smiled back before turning to leave the office and head home. As I stood outside of the school, I let out a sigh, mixed emotions filling my mind. ‘This has been one hell of a first day. But I have to make this work somehow. I have to control my impulses so I can live a normal life.’ I thought to myself. > Chapter 2: The Second > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- The roar of the loud crowd was deafening of people cheering my name. I hated becoming famous in a place of blood and death. Suddenly a flash caught my eye as I jumped back seeing a man holding a shield in his left hand and blade to his right. He roared aloud as he sliced at my neck, going for the kill. I barely managed to dodge it in time, a small cut appearing where he swung. I rolled to grab a blade on the ground next to me and as I get to my feet, the bulky man charged at me as I run him through, blood pouring from his gut all over my blade and hands. I ripped it out as he fell over, slowly losing consciousness as he looked up at me, silently begging for me to spare him. As I raised my sword over my head, I can hear the cheers become even louder as they started telling me to kill him. And in that moment, I dropped my sword and started looking away. Suddenly, the man I stabbed jumped up and rushed me with his sword, I could only watch as the blade headed straight for my chest. I rocketed out of bed, ripping the blanket off me as I looked around frantically, expecting the man to attack me at any second. I let out a sigh as I realized I was in my own messy room. A simple desk with a laptop on it and a dresser for my clothes. I looked at the clock seeing it was 6A.M. When I usually got up, I stretched as my sweat began to cool from my fantic nightmare. I made my way to my bathroom and quickly washed up in the shower. Once I was done, I did the usual. Brushing my teeth, doing a quick shave, and making sure none of my many scars didn’t open. The wounds… scars… they were all over me. Mostly my chest and arms the faded white lines scattered all around my body. Small and big though the biggest one was straight down my chest. From my neck to my stomach a long thin line went down my body. I looked in disgust and anger. I walked out of the bathroom angry clenching my fists. I came to my drawer and opened it taking out the same kind of clothing I had the day prior for school. I quickly got dressed and walked out my room and downstairs getting a quick bite then gathering my book bag. I then left the house and walked to school that was only at least a ten minute walk away. By the time I got to school, I noticed that most students were already heading inside, so I ran up the stairs quickly to get to Celestia’s office before class started. As I entered her office, she gave me a soft smile as I approach her desk. “How are you doing?” she asked, stacking some folders. “I’m still having nightmares, I think I’m handling them well,” I explained. “Well the important thing is you’re trying to get past them,” she said as she finished and looked at me. I took a seat at one of the chairs that was in front of her desk and placed my book bag on the ground beside me. I looked at her and asked her. “How did you find out where I was? I mean after all this time you never told me once how you found out where I was nor did you tell me how you knew what would be waiting for you.” As I asked this she didn't look surprised or even shocked I asked this. More like she was...expecting me to ask her. She just let out a small sigh. “Jacob...I feel if I told you now it would just make your recovery much harder than it already is. I’m sorry, but I can’t tell you not yet anyway.” Now most people would probably understand and not pry. Or just get angry and hold it in. Not me because I wanted answers, and I wanted them now! “Celestia with all do respect I have the right to know. I mean I was locked away in some cage with barely enough food to get by, barely had friends, and I had to do things that I would never dream of doing. So...please just tell me before I end up losing myself.” Now I know I could have spoken better or at least nicer to her. Hell maybe even be careful with what I said. But like I said before, I don’t take nothing easily especially when it comes to finding out just how she found me it was important to me. I could clearly see that even though she had a calm face she seemed to have a small hint of fear in her eyes. “Jacob...I understand how angry you must be and how upset you are that you had to spend two long years caged up like an animal only to be used for someone's enjoyment. But I told you now it would only bring more harm than good.” She still spoke so calm despite the fear she might have had in her. Though at the time I didn’t care. The anger was building up inside me, and I was starting to get crazy ideas in my head. Like did she know for two years where I was the whole time, or did she think I would demand to know all those that had watched and not lift a finger to help. Which I would just so that I could find them and show them what they saw up close. I shook my head, teeth clenched in anger. I spoke as calm as I could though it was hard. “No...you have no idea what it’s fucking like Celestia. You don’t know what’s it’s like to kill someone that you grew to know just so you could live. You don’t know what being in an empty filthy cage is like. I had to go through all of that for two years. I had to grow up too fast and had to fight. You got to have a nice room and not worry about living or dying at the end of blade. I have reminders everyday. You...you don’t have any painful memories as bad as mine.” Again, I could have been nicer or even not spoke what I did. But her hiding something like that sends me off the deep end. Then all I could've seen was her fear replaced with sadness. At the time, I did not care. I stood up and took my bag putting it on. I walked out the door as I heard the quiet sound of a sob from behind me. I closed the door and walked out of the office. I made my way to my first class and once I entered I sat down at the desk I sat at the day prior. I looked around a little and saw that most of the students looked at me then back at their group of friends. No doubt about what happened between me and the Jock along with how animal I acted. Then walked in that same girl. I looked at her for a second then away as I grabbed what I would need for the day. After a few seconds, I heard her sit beside me and with my eyes I saw quickly she wore the same kind of clothes she had on before. I looked back at my work and then the teacher came in. He went to the board and spoke. “Now...i’m sure we all had an interesting class yesterday while I was gone. Something involving our new student and the football star Kevin. I want everyone to know that it’s unacceptable to have that kind of behaviour. Do I make myself clear?” He looked right at me as he finished. I did a simple nod at him. Then he went on with is lesson. I swear I could feel so many eyes on me again like when I was in the arena. I hated it, but I ignored it the best I could. Several times the teacher asked for everyone to pay attention. Once class had ended I got up with my bag and went for the door. That’s when he came back. Of course the teacher was gone yet again and here came the Jock who I now knew as Kevin. “Well well well...if it isn’t the new student Jacob. Listen here. I heard something while I was at the office and when you left I went inside to talk to the principle. She seemed very upset and a thought came to mind. Only girls would cry if their heart was broken. So tell me...was there something going on between you and her?” Now of course I wanted to just pop him once in the mouth breaking it then rip his jaw off and shove it so far up his ass that he it would reattach with shit on it. So safe to say that I was beyond pissed that he would say anything like that. It’s one thing to insult me, but bring someone who saved me and helped me? Might as well get a coffin and a spot picked out. I visibly clenched my fists angry at him while all the other students looked at me either shocked or with grins on their faces. I saw some take a picture and then starting typing and I knew at that moment rumors would spread. He smiled a little as if he was expecting this. Then a thought came to my mind. His main goal was to get me so pissed I would want to fight him right then and there. Not like the day before where it was just a punch thrown or two. A full blown fight with kicks and tackling just everything. So instead of giving him the satisfaction of being able to do so I just looked at him pure rage in my eyes. “I see what you are doing. Trying to get me mad so that I will fight you. What are you not man enough to start one? Have to make someone start it instead so that you won't get in trouble? You’re afraid and I can tell.” His grin went away and was replaced by sight shock. “You decided to try and find a way to make me mad by going to people you know I talk to. Now here’s the thing. Celestia wasn’t crying over what you think it is oh no. She was crying because she lost a loved one and when I went in to ask her a question she just broke. So using someone who is in pain and someone who wants help to aid you in your little plan is your big idea? You should look into things before hurting people that don't deserve it.” I then walked past him as he stood there shocked at what I said and the other students looked at me then him shocked as well. I got to the door and stopped looking back. “By the way I was there to ask if there was a chance to change my schedule. Lets just say I decided to comfort a broken heart over my own needs.” I then walked out the door and when I was in the halls heading to my next class when all I said made me think. I then suddenly was hit with extreme guilt. All I had said was a complete lie from the start in an attempt to stop a rumor from starting. I don’t know why I tried to stop it... maybe I did feel guilt and thought in some way that it would help make things better if I told a few lies to counter another lie. A part of me at that moment wanted to go to Celestia to talk to her. To tell her how sorry I am for yelling at her over something I could have waited. Something I could have dealt better with. I realized how stupid my anger was directed to her wasn’t needed. I could’ve been much less hostile at her. The woman who saved my life... the one that took me in to help me... “Oh god... i'm such a fucking idiot...” I put a hand to my head as I walked now in a slight daze. It took a bit of time but I managed to get to the next class and I staggered to my desk plopping into the seat. I layed back against the chair and placed a hand to my head sighing. I was struggling to not just go to the office and talk to Celestia. But I knew I would have to make up a good excuse to go there but I couldn't think of any. At the time anyway I couldn’t, but now that I think back I could’ve said I needed to talk about easier classes or something. Though I figured eventually would she want me to talk to her even after I hurt her? Basically telling her I couldn’t trust her anymore? How much crueler could I get? These questions popped in my head left and right as I tried to figure out what to say if I did go back to her. Suddenly I heard the tap on the blackboard making me come back to reality. The teacher cleared her throat then went on to explaining the topic. I sighed as I took my book bag off and set it down beside me getting my notebook and pencil. When I sat back up I noticed that the girl was again to my right. Her long pink hair going down her face. I just ignored her thinking about Celestia again. I wanted to help her in some way, but I couldn’t think of one. This went on for the rest of class and all the other classes. They went by so fast that only my body was moving not my mind. Before I knew it the school day had ended and I was heading towards the door. I was nearing the main office where Celestia was. I thought long and hard on what to do and I finally got my answer. I took a chance and walked to the office door and opened it. The same old secretary woman was sitting there sorting papers. I didn’t even give her a chance to look who walked in as I walked pass her and opened the door to Celestias office. I saw her sitting there sorting papers and signing others. I saw that her eyes were slightly red from what seemed like tears. She looked up to see who walked in and she looked slightly surprised. “Oh Jacob... can I do anything for you?” She asked as if nothing had happened. I felt extreme guilt. “No... no I just wanted to come and talk to you about something.” I said as I walked forward closing the door behind me and making my way to her desk. I sat down in the chair in front of her and put my book bag down. She set aside all of her work. “Oh... is it about how I found you?” She asked. “No... well sorta... just I wanted to come and say i’m sorry.” She seemed surprised then a slight bit happy. “Jacob...” “Just... as I went through the day I realized that I was out of line and I shouldn’t have reacted the way I did... I should’ve kept my cool and not get so angry. It’s just I wanted answers so badly and being in that hell... just got to me... just... I guess that it never left me.” I said as I looked at her desk and not her. I could hear her get up and walk to my side. I looked up at her to see that she was smiling at me tears threatening to escape. I got up from the chair. I was afraid I still did something wrong. Only for her to wrap her arms around me. I was surprised. “I’m happy you came and apologized... I thought you didn’t change.” I then knew the possible main reason why she cried. She thought I was still the berserker killer from when I was in the arena. I let out a small sigh as I wrapped my arms around her to comfort her for a change. “Don’t worry... i’ll never go back to that time for as long as I am able.” I told her. Though I didn’t know if I would be able to do such a thing at all. I knew I could possibly lose it again at a much worst time. “Good.” She said as she squeezed tighter. I smiled as I held her close. Suddenly I could hear the slight click of the door slightly open. I moved my eyes to the source of the noise and saw the door that led into the office open a little. I could see a hint of a face. Blue eyes and pink hair. That’s when it closed quickly and I sighed. I knew rumors would spread for real. After a while Celestia let go of the embrace smiling. I smiled back at her happy that all was forgiven. “You should get back to work. I need to head home and get my homework done.” I said. She nodded as her smiled went away and she whipped her eyes. “Yea that would wise. Well, come see me if you need help with anything alright?” I nodded. “Yes of course.” I said as I grabbed my bag and she sat back down at her desk.With that we said goodbye and I walked out of the office and out the school. “Day two done. Going into day three.” I thought to myself. > Chapter Three: Day Three > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter Three New Friends Day 3      For once in several years, I finally got a full nights rest. I don’t know how that happened, but I was glad that it did. I slowly sat up and yawned, stretching my limbs. After I sat there for a few seconds I slowly got out of bed and headed for my bathroom. I went in and stripped, I stepped into the shower and started the water.      I got out of the shower after washing myself and put on my clothes for the day. I left my house, and headed to the school. After walking for about ten minutes I reached the school. I walked up the steps, and opened the door. I walked in and made my way to Celestia's office. I knocked on Celestia's door, and heard her voice from behind it.     "Come on in." She said. I opened the door and walked inside, shutting it behind me.     "Jacob!" She said happily. "It is nice to see you, how can I help you today?"      "I just wanna know where I should go in the mornings before first period." I told her.      "There is a room assigned to you that you go to in the mornings called homeroom. Yours is room 205." She informed me.      "Alright, thank you, Principal Celestia." I said as I left her office. I walked down the hall, making my way to the room she gave me. I passed room after room, eventually I got to room 205 and walked in. I noticed there was a name on the board as I approached the teacher and tapped her arm. She turned around to look at me, she had silvery hair, and looked very cheerful.      "Miss Cheerilee, I'm in your homeroom. Do you have a seat for me?" I asked.      "Yes, I do, right over here." She pointed to an empty seat in the back left corner of the room. I walked over to my seat and sat down. I put my bookbag next to my chair and looked around the room. Sitting next to me, directly to my left was none other than the rainbow haired girl who had been mad at me for bumping her. To my right, was a girl with purple hair and a pink streak through it. She had kind of pale skin, while the rainbow haired girl had a bit of a tan. I stared down at the table in front of me, hoping the rainbow haired girl wouldn't notice me. The bell rang and everyone stood up, and started leaving. I grabbed my bookbag and went to my first class.      I walked in and sat down at my normal seat. Fluttershy sat down next to me, and smiled at me.      "Um...hello..." She said shyly. I smiled back at her.      "Hi, how are you?" I asked kindly.      "I'm fine..." She said, still smiling. The teacher interrupted our conversation when he told the class to start working on the warm-up problems. The rest of class was the normal lectures from the teacher and writing notes and math problems. I went through all my classes like I normally do, apart from basic interruptions, like students knocking on the door, or the teacher getting a phone call, until Fifth period. We were dismissed to go to lunch, I walked down the hall with all the other students who were dismissed. I waited in line to get my food, eventually reaching the lunch-ladies. I got my tray of food and left the line, I sat down at an empty table and began to eat my hamburger.        As I ate I noticed Fluttershy approaching me. She sat down in the seat next to me with a salad on her tray. I smiled and greeted her, and noticed another girl I recognized sitting down with us. She was in the seat on the other side of Fluttershy.      "Rainbow Dash! I'd like you to meet my new friend Jacob." She said to the rainbow haired girl sitting at our table.      "Yeah, I've met this moron before. He bumped into me in the hall." She said, glaring at me.      "Yeah, sorry about that." I said, scratching the back of my head.      "Yeah, sure, whatever." She said, coldly. Two more girls approached the table. One was the other girl from my homeroom. The other I had never seen before. She wore a cowboy hat with her hair in a long ponytail. They both sat down with their trays. Fluttershy greeted them both, and introduced me to them as well. Their names were Applejack, and Twilight Sparkle. I spent most of lunch listening to the girls as they told each other about their days.      The bell eventually rang, dismissing us from lunch. All the girls said their goodbyes to me except for Rainbow Dash, who left without a word. I went on my way to Sixth Period, sitting through that class with the normal note taking and lectures. I went through Seventh period with the similar lecturing and notetaking.            Eighth Period came around, and I stepped into the classroom. I took my seat, and looked around the room. What I saw surprised me. I noticed for the first time that Rainbow Dash is in my Eighth Period. After sitting through an hour of the teacher, class was finally over. I got out of my seat, and grabbed my bookbag. As I was leaving the school I saw Rainbow Dash crossing the soccer field. I saw Kevin making his way over to her and stopping her. I got close enough to them to hear their conversation.       "Hey, it's Miss Flat-chested bitch!" yelled Kevin, trying to get the attention of the other students. I saw Rainbow clenching her fists in anger.      "I bet everything on you is big except what really counts." She retaliated, gritting her teeth. I heard people around them giggle, and laugh. It was clear that she was pissing Kevin off. Suddenly, Kevin raised his fist and tried to punch Rainbow Dash.      “Enough out of you!” He yelled as his fist flew toward her. I decided I had to intervene. I ran over and tackled Kevin, taking him to the ground before his fist could connect with her. I grabbed his wrists and held them on the ground.      "Don't you ever raise your fist at a woman again, or I will personally rip your hands off. Do you understand me?" I said coldly to him, anger swelling inside me.      "Yeah..." He muttered quietly.      "So they can hear you!" I yelled.        "Yes, I understand." He said loudly. I let him go and stood up. I turned to Rainbow Dash, and unexpectedly, she was looking angry. I started to speak, but she cut me off.      "I can handle myself, thank you very much." She yelled before she stormed off toward her soccer practice. I noticed Applejack approaching me, with an amused look on her face.      "Even though she'll never admit it, she is grateful. Thanks a lot, Kev." She said.      "Of course." I replied. I left the soccer field and took my ten minute walk home. I spent that ten minute walk thinking about the four new friends I’d made today. I, for the first time in a long time, had people I could call friends. I entered my home and flopped down on the couch, feeling beat. I looked at the clock, it was 2:45 PM. I decided I had time for a nap, so I layed my head down on the couch, and let myself drift off into sleep. When I had awoken the clock read 6:15 PM. I slept for a while. Even though I still felt tired, I got up and changed into my gym clothes and headed out of the house. I walked down the sidewalk, making my way to the local gym. I stepped inside and made my way to the desk. Celestia had already set up a membership at my request. As I left the desk, having talked to the woman behind it, I looked at the clock, it was 6:30 PM now.      I made my way further into the gym and to the workout area. I sat down on a bench press, and as I was adjusting the weight, noticed something that caught me off guard. Rainbow Dash and Applejack were walking into the workout area. Applejack noticed me, and nudged Rainbow Dash, pointing me out to her. Rainbow rolled her eyes as the two made their way toward me.      “Hiya, Kev! Didn’t expect to see you here!” exclaimed Applejack with a smile on her face. Rainbow stood next to her, seeming uninterested.      “It’s nice to see the two of you.” I said with a smile. Rainbow took a look at the weight I had on the bench press, and had a smirk on her face.      “Trying to push yourself, huh, Kevin? You can’t lift that!” She said mockingly.      “Are you kidding me? I lift 230 normally.” I said casually. Her face told me she didn't believe me, so I laid back and started lifting.      "One...two...three...four..." I counted each lift until I'd finished the set at ten. After I'd finished, I sat up and looked at the two girls. Rainbow Dash was grinning, and Applejack slapped her hand on my back.      "Great job, Kev!" She exclaimed happily. Rainbow chuckled with her arms crossed.      "Yeah, good job, dude." Rainbow said, still grinning. I smiled and got up from the bench press. Rainbow and Applejack walked away and started using the other machines, one of them spotting the other. I began to use different machines as well. I walked into a small side room with a kick-bag and punching bag in it. I stepped up to the punching bag and lifted my fists in a fighting position. I punched the bag softly at first, gradually getting harder with each punch. After the sixth punch, I began to feel angry. I punched the bag hard, and it flew backward, dangling on the chain violently. I punched the bag harder, and harder, eventually I lost control, I just  started to savagely beat on the bag. I turned around and kicked over the kick-bag. I started beating it relentlessly, I heard the muffled voices of Rainbow and Applejack, and felt them pulling me backward. I leaned down, putting my hands on my knees, and breathing heavily. After I'd caught my breath I looked up at Dash and Applejack who looked concerned.      "What the hell was that!?" yelled Rainbow Dash. "Why did you beat that punching bag like that!?"      "I...I just...lost control..." I struggled to get the words out as I stared blankly at the two girls. I felt so weird, my mouth was dry, I had a slight ringing in my ears. It wasn't easy to hear what the two of them were saying. Applejack put her hand on my shoulder.      "Is there something you need to tell us, Kev?" She asked, looking very concerned.      "I-It's a long story..." I said quietly, looking away. “Just...Just forget about it, okay?” I left the workout area with my head down, feeling ashamed that I’d let myself get out of control like that. I walked out of the gym and sat down on a bench near the door. I leaned my head on my hands and closed my eyes. I had a terrible headache. I took a long shaky breath, and stood up. I began walking down the sidewalk, and made my way home. I walked for a while, not really paying attention to time. I finally got back to my home, and opened the door. I stepped inside, and looked at the clock, it was 8:00 PM now. I went into the bathroom and got undressed, I got into the shower and turned on the water. I leaned against the wall as I let the water hit me, it relaxed me.      “I can’t let myself get out of control like that...what if the next time that happens, I don’t beat up a punching bag…” I said to myself as the water hit my back. After I washed myself, I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. I found some shorts and put them on. I went to my bed and laid down, closing my eyes after a very exhausting day. I let the pull of sleep take me, and drifted into my dreams. > Chapter Four. Day Four > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 4 Day 4 Things take a turn      For some reason, this night was calm and collective, just as the previous one had been. I didn’t get any flash of memories of having to fight for my life or having to kill again. It was all just...calm. The most i could remember was that I was laying on the green grass as I looked up at the clear blue sky with some clouds mixed in. But, I also remember that someone was beside me, I felt their hand holding mine and heard them breathing softly.      It was a girl, that much I could tell. We started to talk, but I never looked to my right at all. We just talked and talked happily and laughing, it seemed so real... Then when I looked to see who she was, my alarm blared loudly and I jumped at it. For once my alarm woke me up, I groaned as I turned and looked at the time. 6:55.      “Shit...I'm gonna be late... OH SHIT I'M GONNA BE LATE!” I yelled as I threw myself out of bed and got into some clean clothes, stumbling around in a hurry. I quickly grabbed my bag and rushed out the door, I ran as fast as I could to get to the school. I managed to rush inside and got into my homeroom just as the bell rung. I sat down and sighed panting slightly and sweating a little. AJ and Dash both looked at me confused at to why I was panting and sweating a little.       “What in the hell? You look like you just ran a mile.” Dash commented. I nodded at her, still panting.       “I think I did...I woke up late and had to bust ass. Damn, I ran faster than a leopard on steroids.” I said, still trying to catch my breath. AJ laughed at this and Dash just shook her head, chuckling. Miss Cherilee then got to the front of the class and took attendance. We all answered her as she called out names, waiting for the bell to ring. Dash tapped my shoulder and I looked at her.       “I forgot to say...um thanks for helping me with that guy a couple of days ago.” She said. I smiled and shrugged.       “I would’ve done that for anyone. I don’t like to see people being bullied.” I said. Just then, the bell rung and we all got up. The three of us went to our separate classes. I went into first period and sat down with Fluttershy beside me. We smiled and said our greetings to each other. We began the work that was already on the board. It was getting easier and I was understanding it all pretty quickly. I was among the first to get it done as was Shy. The teacher looked around, seeing how people were doing. After around five minutes had passed, the teacher tapped his desk.      “Okay, class, I think that’s enough time. Let’s go over it.” He said as he turned around, and began working it out step by step. We spent maybe half an hour on a new way to do different problems. Once we were done with discussing, we were given the rest of the time to work in partners, in order to finish the nights homework. He said we were allowed to work in partners. I was gonna work myself but Fluttershy reached over and tapped my desk. I looked at her, questioningly.       “Um...wanna work together? I can help if you need it.” As she spoke, I looked at the paper and shrugged.       “Yeah, sure, I don't mind.” I said as I turned my desk to face her. She did the same. Everyone around us and the classroom were doing that to their own group of friends or partners. Though most of them blew the homework off and just chatted about random things. Fluttershy and I worked on the paper ourselves, not getting sidetracked. We helped each other a few times. Sometimes she would get stuck and I’d help her, vise versa. After maybe twenty minutes we had both finished and realized we still had about a half an hour to just chat. We put our papers away and started to talk.       “So Fluttershy...what do you do after school?” I asked to start things off.      “Well...um I help my mom with the animals she cares for. She’s a veterinarian, and I want to be one when I get older so...it helps.” She said. I nodded admiringly, at the fact  that she has a kind heart and gets it from her mother.      “What about you, Jacob?” She asked.      "I mostly just hang out at home, sometimes I go to the gym and work out." I said, feeling like I was just a boring couch potato compared to Fluttershy. "I know it isn't much, but generally, I don't like to be around very many people."      "No, I think it sounds just fine." She said with a smile. I smiled back at her. The bell rang to dismiss us to our next class. I said goodbye to Fluttershy, and went to my next destination. I went through all the other classes with ease. I was quick to catch these things, but there was one class that I still had some trouble in, really. It was math. I just couldn’t get it done right or done in the needed time. I would always get stuck on one simple step that I forgot to do. Other than that, though, all the other classes were easy to do. When it got to lunch time I grabbed my lunch and sat beside Fluttershy. She didn’t seem to mind and smiled at me. I smiled back getting used to this feeling of content. Now knowing it didn’t look creepy...at least I hope it didn’t. AJ and Dash both made their way toward us, like before, and sat around the table.      We started to eat and the girls gossiped again about things or just talked. I didn’t say anything, like before, and I was okay with that. I just liked the idea of being around people who weren’t so afraid of me. About halfway through lunch I felt a tap on my shoulder from behind and I turned around. When I did I let out a sigh.       “What the hell do you want?” I asked. It was the same old Kevin looking down at me. He had the same pissed off look, but he now had three of his guys with him. Big ones at that, gut and arm wise. I stood up and he spat in my face.        “You have some balls to fight someone like me. You see I’m the one that leads the football team and wins every game we play, but, because, apparently, I caused a disturbance in the parking lot yesterday I’m suspended from the team for the rest of the season. So, because of you, this team won't win any games at all.” As he spoke I wiped the spit off my face and looked at him as he spoke, feeling pissed. Though I honestly didn’t really care at all. When he was done he wanted me to reply. So I just shrugged.       “So? You harassed two girls in one week. This is what you get for doing that. Karmas a bitch isn’t it?” He didn’t take too kindly to that.       “Well if you just stayed out of everything then i’m pretty sure this ‘karma’ thing wouldn’t even have gotten to me or whatever. So you are the reason not that... karma bitch or something.” I noticed that most of the students were watching and the teachers that were watching that lunch period were doing other things not noticing. Shows how things work. Despite them knowing what i’ve been through. I sighed.       “Look. The last time you tried to start things your ass was handed to you. The second time you ate concrete. So why not just leave me alone and I won’t bother you ever again alright?” He just looked at me as some of the students laughed making him more angry. Then he cracked a grin.           “How about this? We play a little game. In this game it’s like a promise or a deal. You see it involves strength. I hit you three times and if you’re standing you hit me three times. We keep going till one of us is on the ground. I win I get to do whatever the fuck I want. If you win I won’t bother you are those girls ever again. Does that sound okay to you?” He asked. I looked around seeing now everyone was watching or standing up and moving around to get a better look at what was happening. I thought for a bit and I sighed. To hell with what I knew what was gonna happen. If it meant that he would leave us alone I would take it.      “Alright. When do we start?” I asked. He responded by blind sided me with a hard punch to the right side of my face and I staggered to my left a little but kept standing. I slowly stood straight up and he smirked. Some of the students laughed and cheered at this. He walked to me as I stepped back a little so I wouldn’t run into someone. I got hit a second time on my left and as I was still staggering he uppercutted me making me stagger back now in a daze. But to his surprise i'm sure I slowly stopped staggering and recovered standing straight again.      “The hell...?” I smirked as I stepped towards him...and I had no control of what I said or would do after that. As I expected and to my fear, I was back in the arena. Back in that hell. There was no one there except for him and me.       “Is that three already? Oh well looks like I get to hit you three times now.” I cracked my knuckles and my neck. “I hope you’re ready.” I said smiling. I could see that his anger was now replaced by slight fear, but he apparently had to keep his image. He nods as he steps up to me.       “Yea. Three hits. Now be warned i’ve taken some pretty hard hi-” I cut him off with a hard punch in the gut and he gasped in surprise as the wind was knocked out of him. Then I quickly stepped back and hit him on the left side of his face. As he was falling I spun in a 360 degree angle elbow out and hit him square in the face making him fly backwards onto the ground knocked out. I stood straight up again as I saw that he was bleeding from the nose and I knew i broke it. I smirked.       “Looks like I win.” I said as I looked at his three buddies. They raised their hands slightly in surrender. I nod as I looked around. The arena slowly faded and I was back in the school cafeteria and everyone looked at me in shock.        I had to blink a few times before I rubbed my eyes my vison going blurry and back to normal again. I then came back completely realizing what I had done. I saw how the teachers looked at me in fear and shock. Along with the students. I looked at the three girls and all three looked shocked the most. AJ was just shocked while Dash looked both shocked and amazed. But Fluttershy...she had fear in her eyes. I shook my head and tried to speak but I just clenched my eyes shut and I sprinted out of the cafeteria and out the school. I ran for I don’t know how long. I ran and just ran feeling like memories were chasing me. I had to get to my house, but I went down different paths and alleyways in a panic. When I finally got to my house I busted through the door and shot it locking it tightly. I panted as I leaned against the wall then turned my back to it and I slid down the wooden frame of the door.        When I touched the ground I sighed breathing heavily as I stared at the ceiling. As some time went by I slowly raised my hands to my face and leaned over. That’s when I began to weep. I cried because I had released the monster inside of me again. I released the devil that laid dormant for so long. I had done something I promised I wouldn’t do. I attacked someone who didn’t truly deserve it. I almost killed someone who was just trying to be a normal person. Someone who was afraid.