Oh sweet Celestia it’s good to be home. I mean, Gaia was interesting, and I would have loved to have gotten the chance to learn more about it, but I definitely couldn’t live there the rest of my life. I have too much to keep me here in Equestria. But I don't really have to worry about not being able to study more on that world, because Trace decided to come with me!
On top of that, when we finally reached Equestria, I kissed him! I was so happy to be home, and to have him with me, that I just acted on the first thought that came to mind!
Of course, once the excitement died down I couldn’t believe what I had done. What if he wasn’t ready? Sure he was the one that suggested we attempt a relationship in the first place, but what if he was having second thoughts? Maybe he felt it was too sudden?
Thankfully I had nothing to worry about, not only was he okay with it, he kissed me back!
As happy as I am about him coming with me, I can’t help but think about everything he left behind, he had family, friends, even a position in one of the most influential organizations in that world. I can understand he didn't care much for the position, but he still left his friends and family behind without much hesitation. Can anypony care about somepony so much after only knowing them for a short time? Does he care for me that much, to just leave everything behind and follow me to another world? And if I had been put into his position, would I have done that same?
Trace meeting my family definitely could have gone better. I mean, it could have gone worse, and I’m glad it didn’t, but I still can’t believe how they acted. Where do I begin...
My mother is a good place to start. I can’t believe how she behaved! I know she didn’t exactly approve of my relationship with Rover, but she didn’t have to be so rude about it. And did she have to come off as a speciesist by telling me I should dating ponies despite not knowing anything about Trace? I love my mother and I know she’s only concerned about my well being, but I wish she’d accept that I’m not a little filly anymore and can look after myself.
My brother wasn’t much better. while he didn’t immediately object to our relationship, I could tell he doesn’t approve, and probably would have spoken up if Cadance wasn’t there. And thankfully he talked to Trace for a bit and seemed to at least accept it, though I still can’t help but feel it’ll take some time before they have a chance at getting along.
Speaking of Cadance, her and father were the only ones that didn’t cause any problems… besides the rather disturbing incident when Trace was affected by Cadance’s aura, but overall they all got along pretty well. Cadance talked to Trace while we were waiting to meet the princesses, and they seemed to be getting along fine. From what I saw when my dad talked to him he was being his usual protective self, but at least seemed to give Trace a chance.
In the end, I guess I can’t blame my mother and brother for being concerned, mom’s never seen anything like Trace, and Shining has heard about how dangerous humans can be from talking to Alex and Matt about their jumps, so he’s probably just worried about if Trace ends up being a threat, especially one so close to me. I don’t know how to explain it, but every time a thought like that comes to mind I can’t help but feel Trace would never do something like that to me.
I guess I’ll just have to wait and hope they get along in time.
Dear Diary Why? Why in Celestia’s name did I go to Rarity about this?
I could have gone to any of my friends, but I went with Rarity…
She’s my friend, and while I trust her opinion on some subjects, relationships might not be the best choice. I’ve seen the books she’s borrowed in the past, and I can’t help but feel her view on relationships might be a bit… skewed.
I should have gone to AJ, at the very least she’s in a healthy relationship and would’ve been able to offer even a little advice if I need it.
At least she promised to keep everything a secret for now, so I guess that’s at least one thing I can be glad about.
Though she also seemed to be focused on more ‘intimate’ aspects of a relationship. She seems as obsessed with fingers as Lyra, or Rainbow now that I think of it. Trace and I haven’t been together that long, and I don’t even know if Trace would be okay with something like that. It’s too early to consider it, I mean, I've never even thought about doing that with him.
Speaking of Trace, I guess he had a better time. when I came home he seemed it a pretty good mood. Though, the letter he had was rather disturbing.
What could this “danger” be? and more importantly, why does Trace seem so calm about it? Does he really think he can handle whatever it is that’s coming?
Most of all though, I can’t help but wonder if the favor Trace did for Shiva has anything to do with the “scar” he suffered in the past.
How could I have been stupid!? Why couldn’t I put something other than “Love” in the note. What if Trace doesn’t feel the same way. He probably thinks I’m being pushy. No! I shouldn’t be thinking like that, Trace does care about me, maybe even loves me. I’ll just have to tell him tomorrow, hopefully he feels the same way.
What’s worse, everypony probably suspects how I feel about him. I did a horrible job of keeping myself under control. but I just can’t help it. To think if something happened to him... I don’t know what I’d do.
Is this normal for new relationships? I suppose I could ask Rainbow Dash Dash or Rarity. Dash is married to a human, so she’d have more experience. Rover might have been from a different culture, but he was still Equestrian. Rarity on the other hoof is always talking about the various romance novels she’s read, or the occasional date with a stallion.
Well, I shouldn't be thinking about that,I'm sure he'll be fine. Instead I should talk about Fei.
I’ll admit I was a bit nervous when I heard her name, considering what Trace told me when I first met her. but seeing her as a child, I actually thought she looked... cute. I don’t know why, but seeing those ears on top of her head made it hard to think of her as I used to. She seems really nice, if a bit shy. She even explained that the “fangblade” was just a title, and that she’d never actually... killed anypony... and the kitsune were mostly against violence.
I’m actually a bit concerned about her education, being a child in appearance, it might be difficult to get around the topic. I suppose I could talk to Cheerilee and see if I could homeschool her (with Trace’s approval of course) and have Cheerilee stop by once and awhile to give her tests. At least until school starts again, it would be good for her to socialize with others her age, and it would be better for her to get an education from somepony qualified to teach.
On to Trace...
I’ll admit right now, seeing him like that, it scares me. I know he’s part dark elf, and they have been noted for having violent tendencies, but to actually see it is just... I don’t even know how to describe it. It was terrifying yes... but also a bit exciting. I read that dark elves fight to maim or even kill their “prey,” but Trace seemed to fight defensively, doing his best to disorient the bear. Are dark elves not as bad as they're made out to be, or is Trace better than the normal elves? Better? Oh come on, Twi, it's a different culture, I shouldn't be talking in terms of 'better' and 'worse'.
I shouldn’t be worrying about this, Trace will be okay, Emerald said his injuries weren’t too severe, and he should make a full recovery in week at the most. Everything will be okay tomorrow.
He said he loves me! I can’t believe I was so worried that he wouldn’t, but he does! Oh Celestia I haven’t been this happy since the Princess said I could stay here in Ponyville.
But, where do we go from here? I’ve never really been in a relationship with anypony other than that brief one with Rover, and that ended before anything could happen. I mean, I could see if the library has any books on relationships, or maybe ask one of my friends that are in a relationship if they have any advice. But then again, Trace has experience with this, maybe I should just ask him, I’m sure he wouldn't mind telling me.
Then there’s the matter of my family. I know mom is nervous around Trace, but I hope she can at least try to get to know him. Dad seemed to be okay with Trace, so I shouldn't have to worry too much about them getting along in the future.
Shining on the other hoof...
I know my brother cares about my safety, and that he’s cautious with humans, but I wish he and Trace can get along. I understand his concern, considering what Alex has been through, but I trust Trace, I feel, no, I know he would never do anything to hurt me.
I suppose there’s not much I can do about it. I just hope my BBBFF and my coltboyfriend can get along in the future.
I happy to say that there has been some decent progress between my parents and Trace. Not a lot of progress, but a decent start.
Mom’s definitely more comfortable around Trace, though it’s still clear she’s not that happy with me being with him instead of a pony. At the very least she’s agreed to give him a chance, so there’s definitely hope that she’ll grow to like him in the future.
Dad on the other hoof hasn’t really changed much, but then again he seemed pretty accepting the first time he met Trace, so I can’t complain. I guess I should be glad my parents are at least willing to give him a chance, since I’m still having doubts on shining.
Every time I try to think of how I might be able to get Shining and Trace to get along, I can’t help but feel that it won’t work, like there’s something that’ll keep Shining from being able to really accept Trace.
I guess the only thing I can do is simply wait and hope for the best.
