I'm beginning to understand why it is that I don't try. It seems I'll just never be good enough. I used to try things, and I thought I should give it another go. Once again though all I heard was ponies telling me I could do better. All I heard was them saying that I wasn't good enough. At first it seemed like maybe they were trying to get me to better myself but as time went on it became obvious that this wasn't the case. I could tell that they all didn't like me and that they really thought I could never be good enough. Do you have any idea what that's like? To be told constantly that you're not good enough? To be told that you'll never be able to do what you want to do?
I suppose while none of you told me that outright, I knew that's what you were all thinking. None of you thought that I could do what I wanted to do. None of you ever thought I was good enough. Instead of trying to help and support me though all you did was tell me that I wasn't good enough. I thought that you liked me, and that you wanted me to be the best I could be, but in the end I guess I was wrong.
I guess I was foolish to hope wasn't I? It's hardly the first thing I've been a fool to hope for I guess.
This time though I really thought things could have been different. I thought that this time I was with people who really did love me and didn't just say it. Even if it was false hope you gave me, for a while it was hope at least. The people before didn't even give me false hope. They just told me outright that I could never do or be anything. All I was to them was a worthless little filly who couldn't do anything right.
I think that's why they abandoned me really. Everypony has abandoned me in the end but it really started back then. They were the first to abandon me. I could never be good enough for them so they didn't even bother trying. They just shipped me off to the orphanage and made me somepony eleses problem. Before they dropped me off I overheard that my mum was pregnant again. I heard my dad say that he hoped that the new foal wouldn't be a worthless chicken this time. Personally I think they only have themselves to blame for that. The people in the orphange weren't so bad at first. They felt sorry for me and tried to show me I wasn't worthless but eventually they gave up on me too. Nopony wanted to adopt a Pegasus that couldn't fly. The one and only time I managed to succeed at anything was when I escaped from there on a scooter they let me play with.
If my parents are to blame for how I turned out though then why am I the one being punished? Why am I the one who is left broken and alone? Why am I the one who can't fly? Why am I the one who has to sleep in a clubhouse in the middle of a farm because I have nowhere else to go?
Are you shocked to learn this is where I live? I suppose you would be. You never cared enough to ask me things about my life. You can say you just assumed things but I won't believe you. You just didn't care enough. When we tried being on the school paper and Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle were with their sisters, where was I? I was alone, like I've always been. Did anypony care to ask me why I was alone? Of course not, they were all too busy playing happy families to notice me.
I remember one time Sweetie Belle and Rarity got in to a fight and Apple Bloom said Sweetie could borrow Applejack for the day. It was something to do with ponies and their sisters and some silly competition. I don't know what happened really because, once again, I wasn't there. I didn't have a sister, and I don't think I ever will. I'll probably never have a loving family. I sometimes wonder why she never gave me that offer, so I knew what it was like to have a sister, but I suppose that, once again, she just didn't care enough about me. I know we're the Cutie Mark Crusaders, and we've made a promise to always be there for eachother, but you guys aren't here when it's cold at night and when I'm scared. You tease me and you don't know how much your words can hurt. You laugh at me and call me a chicken. Sometimes you're no better than Diamond Tiara and Silver Spoon with how you treat me.
Don't even get me started on those two. Calling me names like "Blank Flank" while Miss Cheerilee just watches as the other kids in class laugh at us. At all of us. You guys seem to be able to just brush it off and go about your day but it gets to me. When it's dark and all I have are my own thoughts to keep me company.
I'm tired of all of this. I'm tired of being called a chicken and I'm tired of ponies thinking that I can't fly. I don't care what it takes, I don't care anymore if I live or die. In fact I'm making that my oath right now. This is it. I don't care what happens to me any more. I'm going to Ghastly Gorge and I'm going to prove once and for all that I can fly, no matter what you say. I'm going to go there and I'm going to jump off of the side in to the gorge and whether I live or die, well that's up to if I fly I guess. This life so far has been nothing but pain and one way or another I plan to be free from it.
I swear I'm going to fly, and prove you all wrong. I can be good enough. If I can't, then at least I'm going to be free. Cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye.
~Scootaloo.
"Oh...buck..." Rainbow Dash said to herself as she read the letter that had been left in the clubhouse. She promptly set off in to the air, in the direction of Ghastly Gorge. She prayed she wasn't too late.
It's got potential. Keep it up!
Heh, reading this while listening to "Song of the Night" by MandoPony made me want to shed a tear, mood was appropriate if nothing else...
Why is that Scootaloo always kills herself?
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Shes very, very depressed. You're right though that she is the one who always gets this kind of treatment. It fits her though given that she doesn't really have anyone besides the CMC there for her. If you take those away, then she has nothing.
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Thank you very much guys
2451532 I suppose.
I'm quite a fan of the scootaglect and scootabuse stories, involving her as a homeless, or living in the CMC club house, or some other tragic event leaving her either, family less or with a set of horrible parents that, well, show her 'ruff luff', and this story goes same, I'm a fan of it. Keep up the work on it, go scootabuse! (in a good way)
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I'm actually not a big fan of Scootabuse. I used to be but then it really got to me and I started feeling really bad for her. But I think at this point it's quite clear that she probably is a poor, dejected, and crippled orphan. Poor thing
2451810 Doesn't stop me from liking stuff
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Each to their own It's just one way the show changed my perspective on a lot of things really. The old me would have loved Scootabuse. I did actually. Now I'm all for happy endings and sappy fluff. It's hard to write that when depressed though
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THERE IS ONLY ONE THING WRONG. YOU CAN'T BREAK A PINKIE PROMISE. NO ONE BREAKS A PINKIE PROMISE.
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She's not going to break the Pinkie Promise. Nopony breaks a Pinkie Promise
Except Applejack but there were extenuating circumstances. She was technically correct that she didn't break the promise.
Man I get this, I mean I think we've all been there, where we think we're no good enough or we have to stay strong and no one cares and there's no point. I understand this in my own personal sense and, well, anyone who has been in this kind of situation will know that it's hard to come back from even if it's "all over" it doesn't feel like that. Anyway, I hope you're able to finish this as I'm quite curious as to what will happen to Scootaloo.
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Fun fact: The story took so long to be approved (16 hours) that I actually finished writing the second half while I was waiting I'll put it up tomorrow. Writing this fic actually did help me get out all of my emotions and help me recover a little bit, so I'm pleased to say I'm doing better personally. Thanks for reading and I hope you'll enjoy the second part. I'm already contemplating writing an alternate ending, but if I do it will remain a definite alternate ending, and I'll post the *real* ending first.
2452768 Huh that is a fun fact. Well anyway, in that case, I look forward to reading and it's good that writing has helped you recover from whatever has happened to you, all the best man.
dude...
the feels right now.
i love/hate it when i read a sad story that i can relate to, i have spent many a night lying awake wondering, "why the hell am i even here, no one seems to give a crap about me." these bring back sad memories, but it comforts me in knowing that other people know what I've been through and can relate with me, i love the brony/pegasister fandom for that exact reason too.
all of us are connected in ways beyond our imaginations, but in this group we are all connected by something we love, whether it be for the animation, one particular character, or the series as a whole. i hope everyone who reads this gets something out of it, and, smile at a stranger, you just may make their day.
's to everyone and don't let ANYONE make you think you are worthless.
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That may be the greatest comment I have ever gotten. That was one of the points of all of this, and definitely the point of the second half (which I'm about to submit ) Thank you very much for that.
"Sometimes it's what is NOT said that matters."
Everyone assumes, and no one asks. I hope you can make it through the hard time and find someone to confide in. Or at least find a outlet like you did here. Good luck to you.
I cant feel sorry for her because she's being quite a, for lack of better terms, collosal bitch. But it was well written for a 2am brainstorm coping story so i can dig that, just not hitting home with me.
I cant feel sorry for her because she's being quite a, for lack of better terms, collosal bitch. But it was well written for a 2am brainstorm coping story so i can dig that, just not hitting home with me.
Yep I've been down that road once or twice so I know how it can all just feel like too much to bare , so I know how scoots is feeling. In the end though I know I can't let life best me so here I am.
Good story moving on to the second part and hoping for a happy end.
And I laugh me ass off...
Parents who would do that to their child are the stupidest people on the planet.
i know how it feels like to feel like your useless and I've been down that road once or twice but after a while i proved life wrong i proved that bitch wrong and have became a stronger person for it good story man keep writing its getting to me
We all need support in life family loved ones anything like with out how can we go on like a robot not truly alive
Very nice little story.
Didn't find it sad though.
Seriously, this is more inspiring than anything.
Why must I be attracted to sad stories?!