I continuously pet her mane for what seemed like hours. After a while, Fluttershy opened her eyes and looked up at me. At first, she looked extremely sad. Within a second, her smile spread across her face. She jumped up from where she was and gave me the biggest hug anyone had ever given me. I hugged her back, but the shame of what I had done last night stayed on my mind. She squeezed me extremely tight, showing me that she must of been worried. She broke the hug and looked up at me, and then to the floor. She quietly whispered,
“I was very worried about you... I did not know how badly Spike had hurt you... Twilight would not let me see you...” Her voice was now trembling, and I could feel my heart breaking. I reached my arms out and hugged her again, feeling tears rush to my eyes. I was determined to not let her see me cry, so I said in the happiest voice I could muster,
“I am very happy you were so worried about me... but I’m okay now, that’s all that matters.”
She returned the hug, gladly squeezing me as hard as she could. My tears were now rushing down my face and onto her hair. I knew she could feel my tears hit her, but I did not want to let her go. I wanted to stay like this forever. I wanted us to be the only beings on Earth, and for this moment to last for the rest of out lives. She tore away from the hug, and saw the tears that were streaming down my face. My body felt like it was frozen, I could not bear to move. She frowned at me, and my heart started to race. What if she figured out about last night? What will she do... What will she think of me?
My tension was soon put to rest as she lifted her hoof to my face and wiped away my tears. She smiled back at me, and embraced me into another hug. I wanted to tell her how I felt, and just as I was about to Twilight burst into the room with a book obviously excited. She stared at Fluttershy and I, and Fluttershy broke our hug. She was now completely pink, and looked towards the ground. I started to rub the back of my head, not knowing how to react. Fluttershy started to say,
When Twilight interrupted Fluttershy with a loud, somewhat disappointed whimper and said,
“What are you two doing in here?” She looked extremely tense, and stared over at me. I felt my body turn stiff as I grew embarrassed at what she had seen, and Fluttershy stared at the floor. Twilight looked as if she was about to cry and turned around, dropping the book that seemed to cause her so much joy. Without looking at either of us, she ran to her staircase and into her room. I could hear her door slam, and it caused me to feel even more ashamed of myself. I looked over at Fluttershy, and she returned with a confused stare. I slowly sighed and stood up. I looked down at her and said,
“I... should to go to talk to her.”
Fluttershy seemed to cringe at the thought of me being alone in the same room as Twilight, and I could feel her watching me as I walked away. I walked up Twilight’s staircase slowly, each step causing my heart to skip a beat. I could feel my blood pulsing through my veins as I neared the door, and I took a deep breath. I stood in front of the door and tried to calm myself. I reached my arm to the door and slowly knocked. When there was no response, I put my ear to the door. I could hear Twilight crying, and my body refused to work for a moment. I almost fell onto the door, but caught myself halfway. I took in another deep breath, and knocked on the door again. I slowly said,
“Twilight... please talk to me.”
For a moment, there was complete silence. I began to think that she was going to ignore me, but I felt the door open. Twilight stood there and looked up at me. Her eyes were red from crying, and it made me feel like a monster. I stared at her in silence, and she stared back. After a few moment’s of this, she quietly said,
“What was last night to you...”
I felt my face drop as she said this, but I continued to stare at her. Her look of sadness continued to grow, as she stepped away from the door. She kept her stare on me and said,
“Please... just leave me alone for a while. I need to think...”
The door in front of me slowly closed, leaving me standing there. I tried to collect my thoughts, but they moved in too quickly. I turned away from the door and started to walk down the staircase. As I walked back downstairs I saw the book that Twilight was holding... well magicing. It was entitled ‘Humans and Their Emotions, the Dummies Guide’ I slowly knelt on the floor and picked up the book. Was she meaning to give this to me? Taking this as a yes, I put the book under my arm and stood up. I slowly walked over to where I left Fluttershy, who looked exactly as she did when I left her, but somehow...sadder. She stared at me as I walked towards her, and I sat down beside her. Fluttershy sounded as if she was trying to say something, but stopped her sentence. As we sat in complete silence, my thoughts began to catch up with me. I began to think about how much of a monster I was, playing with both of these girl’s feelings. I began to feel very dirty, and I felt a hatred for myself grow. Why the hell was I put here, and why am I acting this way? I am such a terrible person...