Chapter 70.5: Help

It took some time before Fluttershy was able to quell Dusk’s anger with her parents. She was relived that she was able to stop him before he did anything rash or unpredictable. Based on experience, she knew that he was quite easy to anger. She loves him, but his Red-Eye scared her. His eyes during that time are like a void, completely removed of all but one emotion; hatred. It is the look of pure hatred, which gaze seems to look at your very soul. As much as she hated to admit it, she feared him whenever he got angry.

She needed to tell him soon.

But now, she need to deal with a slightly more depressive version of him. He seems truly regretful for his aggressive attitude, and apologized to her for ‘my rude misdemeanor’, But she was disappointed when he added that "I'll still find them," At the end.

By then, he had started to dwell on the fact that he had made her remember that ordeal. Even with constant reassurance that everything was alright, he still managed to get himself in an emotional pit of self loathing and worthlessness. Even with support from Fluttershy, he seemingly refused to get out of this state of his. She thought that he was acting like this because he feelings for upsetting her the way he did. But according to him, it went a bit deeper than that...

"...also, I honestly don't see the kinds of qualities you see in me really. Okay, while I can understand why you might have somehow fallen for me back then... it was probably more of a pity thing more than anything else, but-"

"What do you  mean by 'a pity thing?'" She asks in a confused tone.

"Well I know that you wouldn't go out with anypony based on their appearance. (Although that would just give me more questions) You are the kind of pony would look past all of that, and date somepony based on their personality. Now what confuses me, is that you just happened to fall for me, which doesn't make any logical sense in my opinion. Before that rather uh... sudden confession a few weeks ago, you saw me do many stupid, and rather terrible things. I upset one of your friends, had a silly, and rather melodramatic breakdown in your house, and was simply a bit of an arse during that time. I don't deserve you." He seems intent on the destruction of his self worth, but Fluttershy didn't want to hear anymore of it. This isn't the stallion she knows and loves.

He continues his talk about his misgivings... "And you may talk about all of the good things that I did during that rather small amount of time, but I am honestly surprised that we are still together right now. I mean, you've seen me at my worst. You've seen me lash out at the smallest of things. Not only have you seen my Red-Eye, but you have also seen me almost kill somepony because of it. So yeah... that is what I mean by pity thing." His tone was cold, but not aggressively so. He seemed to be targeting himself with his words.

"But you are a good stallion, and you know it Dusk."

"You know I'm not." He says darkly, with his head down.

"You have a good heart. You always seem to put me over yourself in a lot of things. You seem to forget all the good that you have done in the time you've been here. You are nice to everypony you meet, ans my friends all respect for the things you have.done. The town to likes you as well; you are considered a hero. Not only that, but you saved me twice since you've been here. You may be a bit... rough on the outside, but you really are a kind and loving pony." She gives him a small kiss on the cheek as she finishes, "I hope you understand that Dusk."

It took a few seconds before Dusk was able to respond with an audible sigh. Looking up, he could see Fluttershy giving him a small smile, which made him fell a little bit better about himself. "Thanks Fluttershy... you've given me something to think about." He says as he slowly walks towards the nearby door, "I-I just need to step out for a little bit. I need to think about a few things."

He opens the front door, and expects some kind of resistance from Fluttershy, but as he faces her, he could see her solemnly looking back at him. She knew he needed time for himself. He turns back towards the door, and steps outside, before flying off to the sunset...

Author's Note: As I said before, I'll be going on hiatus for a few months. The reason behind this is because I need a rest from Opportunity of a Lifetime. Its becoming a bit of a chore to update, and I hate that. So I will be halting the fic for now. If I work on anything involving OoaL, it will be updating the older chapter. (Since quite a few of. them are just awful) I may begin a new fic during the hiatus.

So... bye for now...