A single tear ran through my cheek at the wave of emotions that hit my heart… the fear, sadness, hatred, rage, rejection, disappointment, misery and a deep desire of revenge that came along with my memories…
All of these were old feelings, feelings that I have had ever since I was born, feelings that, regardless of the time, their presence was still strong inside of my heart…
And they kept growing…
I was amazed at how couldn’t I have ended in committing suicide with seventeen thousand years of constant pain.
…I guess I don’t have this Cutie Mark for nothing…
But there was still love and hope inside of my broken heart… My mind was filled with thoughts of my sister; she was that smart, talented, beautiful young unicorn; she was a heroine, she freed Luna from Nightmare Moon’s darkness, and Equestria from Discord’s chaos; the best of it all was that she was not alone…
She had five wonderful friends and an amazing princess by her side, protecting her, no matter what the situation could be… she always had everything I didn’t… but things happen for a reason… right?
At the moment, she could be at her balcony crying, hating me for stealing the love of her life; it had to be her hurtful past coming back… in other words, me.
I feel the warmth of Celestia’s sun rays caressing my skin; it was already morning; I had been crying the whole night. The warmth of the sun made me think of Celestia and dissipated that lonely feeling that had made my crying worse.
...Thank you Celly…
…You are very welcome, dear…
My ears perked up at the serene voice inside of my mind. Celestia could communicate telepathically; she is the all powerful sun princess after all… and my second mother…
Though I still felt she was hiding something from me… the way she acted when I asked how my mother died…
…You still there?
She’s avoiding the question…
Soon, my train of thought changed from Celestia, to her sister… I noticed that my tears had ceased; the mere thought of my lover brought peace to my heart…
I was in Luna’s bed. She had been gone all night due to her night duties. Before leaving, she told me she had a surprise for me, but I had to wait until… ‘moonrise’, as she preferred to call it.
Perhaps a new constellation? Ah… I should do something for her… oh I know! I should take her to Manehattan! …no, she is a princess, there will be paparazzi following her…
Luna also told me a resume of the second Nightmare Moon incident, when she finally came back from her one thousand years of isolation on the moon. It had passed five years since then, five years that allowed her to adapt to the modern ways. As a result, Luna finally became a little more appreciated by ‘her’ subjects.
A gentle smile drew on my face as thoughts of possible gifts to Luna ran through my mind; it was my second attempt at coming up with something good to give her.
Soon, these thoughts were interrupted by two names… two names that referred to a single pony…
I jumped out of bed and ran to the balcony, subsequently throwing myself and expanding my wings, catching an air current that lifted me higher in the sky.
From the heights, I could spot my destination… Ponyville.
I could feel my eyes closing by themselves; the consequences of not sleeping the previous night were showing up. I tried focusing more in the flight… but I could feel my attempts going to waste…
My surroundings were pitch-black… I could see nothing; the place lacked a source of light. I was just standing there…
Suddenly, a red light appeared… it was small at first, illuminating a small portion of the place, which revealed… pasture. Then, it started growing, and growing, shining brighter and brighter, until it reached me, revealing a paradise.
There was fresh pasture under my hooves that was moved by a subtle wind. The sky was half day, half night, being divided by twilight. There was a moon, it looked bigger than normal; however, there was no sun; the area was being illuminated by the red light that was a few meters away from me.
In the middle there was a huge tree with red leaves and golden peaches, though they looked like they still needed to grow more. Under the tree, there was a tombstone, it read…
Around the paradise, the panorama was completely different.
The soil was infertile and the sky was covered with dark clouds. There were also dead trees everywhere. I could see another tombstone; there was a hole in front of it, where the coffin was supposed to be, but it was empty. There was supposed to be a name engraved on the tombstone, but most of its letters were scratched, making it almost impossible to read. I could only distinguish some letters.
“Good Morning Passion…” a deep male voice spoke, its source was unknown. I started looking at my surroundings for possibilities “I am right here” the voice spoke again, my vision focused on the red light in front of me.
“Now, who are you and where am I?” I spoke with annoyance.
“Ways to speak to the one who has helped you through nine thousand years…” he said with amusement “I am The Spark, and this is… your heart."
“Beautiful in the inside and catastrophic in the outside?”
“No” it giggled “you will eventually understand, of that I am sure, but it is certainly not my task to reveal the meaning of this place, it is yours and yours alone.”
“I believe I have revealed to you a fragment of your past…”
“So, the memories were actually sent by you?”
“You were answering my questions…”
“And I know you have more.”
“Yes, uh... oh, I know! can you tell me how my mother died?” I sighted "I doubt Celly would ever tell me."
“It would be my pleasure show it to you, yes… but I am afraid this is no moment to do so…”
“Have you forgotten that you have fallen asleep in midair?”
Everything went black again.
“Oh, and you can buy a private beach at Vanhoover.”
I could not see, I could not hear, I could not smell, I could not taste… I could only feel pain…
“Ugh…” I groaned as I opened my eyes. I could see a purple silhouette with green circles in its head.
Dawn?... nah she is not this small… and since when does she have green hair...or... whatever those things are?
“Passion! You’re awake!” a young male voice shouted.
“Oh…” my vision cleared, revealing a purple dragon “hi, Spike… what happened?”
“You crashed…” he pointed at a hole on a wall that was in front of the bed I was lying on. There were pieces of wood scattered everywhere “and your left wing screwed up."
“…What a nice way to put it…” I saw my left wing; it was bandaged “for how long have I been unconscious?”
“4 hours” he said while scratching his head “make sure you don’t move that wing.”
“Don’t worry… anyways, where’s Da--Twilight?”
“At Canterlot Castle…”
You're kidding, right?
“Now that you bring that up, she’s been acting weird lately” he added.
“…Continue” I sat up.
“Remember the day we met and you fainted?” I nodded “and when she left the bedroom running and sobbing?” I nodded again “well, she returned crying and depressed, she barely slept and she was saying ‘Luna’ and murmuring something I couldn’t understand the whole night. The next day she didn’t eat, and the scariest thing is that she didn’t read anything… not even a single page… ‘dun, dun, dun….’” There was an awkward silence for a moment, I had no idea if I should facehoof or laugh because of how terrible the 'joke' was “ah come on! I was trying to add suspense!”
“…Just… keep going."
“Whatever… (and I thought you weren’t boring…)” he muttered.
“What?” I had a small grin in my face.
“N-nothing! Well… the next day, things got even weirder, she was all happy and she was even singing songs, and… she made breakfast!... and she would go to the balcony just to stare at the sky… at day… (I think she was staring directly at the sun… how can she not be blind?) … and at night, she got a letter from Princess Celestia, I wasn’t sure about what, but after she read it, she started jumping around saying ‘yes, yes, yes’."
“Ok?” I started scratching my chin with the tip of my hoof “and what happened next?”
“Then, she started leaving at night and returning in the afternoon of the next day with a smile that would put Pinkie’s to shame… that continued for a week… and because of that I have to take care of the library and I can no longer visit Rarity!”
Pinkie and Rarity?... ah two of her friends... and Elements of Harmony…
“Well… I have to go downstairs and clean up a bit… you hungry?”
“No, thanks… but a glass of water would be fine."
“Alright, I’ll be right back."
When the purple dragon left, I recovered my previous position; I laid down on my back and let out a loud sight.
Can’t there be a day when I don’t get an injury?
I was at the balcony, staring with awe at the piece of art painted in the night sky… which seemed more like staring at a galaxy…
So... THIS... is Luna's surprise...
There were millions of stars of different colors surrounding the moon, which was shining brighter with a subtle golden color. Yes, it was simple, but its simplicity made it more gorgeous.
“I am glad you have finally found happiness… even if it would not last for too long…” the same deep male voice of the dream spoke.
“Yeah.. a-anyway! Why didn’t you wake me up before?!”
“Why did you fall asleep, in the first place?”
“Because…!” I had no words left; the entity's wisdom was, by far, superior to mine “argh… whatever… what do you need?...” I asked coldly.
“I thought you wanted to know about Miss Andromeda’s death."
“’Miss Andro…? OH! Right, my mother… yes!” I sighted “would you show me?”
“Indeed… now… close your eyes…”
I did as commanded… the feeling of the world fading was already a habit.
The filly me was sitting with her eyes closed, in other words, meditating. I could feel pasture under me.
“Now, Passion… focus… focus on that small voice you have deep inside of your heart…” a soothing voice said in a whisper, I identified her as my mother.
After some seconds that felt like hours, I appeared in the same black room of the dream, in front of the same light, which grew and grew in the same way… but a sound of thousands of hooves hitting the ground interrupted my trance; the light now growing smaller and smaller…
I opened my eyes in shock. I saw my mother in front of me, she had a fighting stance and her horn was glowing with a red light. In front of her, I saw an entire army of royal soldiers. A tall alicorn, who I recognized as Origin, was making his way between the soldiers, who moved at the sight of their king approaching in both fear and respect.
“…I love you… now… go…”
“W-WHAT?! NO!!” I took a step forward “I AM NOT LEAVING YOU HERE!”
After a blinding flash from her horn, I disappeared and reappeared a few meters away from the spot, behind some trees. I could see my father approaching my mother, his horn glowing in the process. He shot a beam at my mother, a loud scream coming out of her…
My eyes filled with tears… the only pony in the whole world who supported me was being attacked by my worst enemy… and I could do nothing to save her.
I ran… and ran… as fast as I could… with my eyes shut…
I could sense a flash with more intensity than the one that teleported me… I stopped, opened my eyes, and looked behind…
The light was intense; it reflected in the clouds, the night sky turning to a silver color…
Then… a shriek… I knew who’s shriek was it… but I didn’t want to accept it… I just didn’t…
I took a few steps backwards… and I ran deeper into the dark forest… without caring where I was going, how it would be, or what would happen to me.
However, there was one name that raced through my troubled mind and was still present inside of my disastrous heart… I yelled it as loud as my vocal cords let me... begging for the name's owner to appear, to be by my side, to protect me...