• Published 25th May 2012
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Lament of a Spoon - Zytharros



Silver Spoon questions why she participates in the destruction of the Cutie Mark Crusaders.

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Epiphany

A deep-gray-coated filly rests on a large, purple cushion in her room in the vast Ponyville estate owned by her parents. The room is layered with red velvet curtains, illuminated with candlelight from nearly fifty different sources. Gold-filigreed windowpanes protect her from the elements, though one, draped in white, translucent curtains, is opened just enough to allow the slightest of midnight breezes into the room and through her silver mane and tail. Her workbench rests under the window, covered in miscellaneous silverwork materials. A delicate flame is emitting from a silver heater tool below a mold of a necklace, being prepared to just the right temperature for work the next day. Two books, one opened to a specific page, fill the rest of the space – books on silver-smithy technques borrowed from the town library. A night-stand, sandwiching a large, soft sleeping-place with the desk, has two highly-detailed statuettes made entirely of silver and a delicately-folded pair of pale-blue glasses atop it. Her four-poster bed, lavishly covered in a white bedspread and located between the workbench and night-stand and encased by the thinnest of pale green sheets, is unmade, the filly having just recently awoken from a restless sleep, disturbed by her actions the day before…



How did this happen?

How did I, Silver Spoon, fall in league with one of the snobbiest ponies in Ponyville?

Sure, Diamond Tiara’s fun, sure, we’re both rich and sure, we both have our cutie marks, but she could be kinder to those poor blank flanks… It’s always been one of my big complaints about her. We’ve been best friends since I was little, but I’ve never truly been a fan of her inconsiderate ways.

Consider this: I usually volunteer at a soup kitchen once a week, helping those far less-fortunate than I or my family gain a little bit of satiation for their bleeding stomachs. She would much rather throw soup at the poor dears’ faces… and then laugh! Oh, the equinity!

I would never, in my wildest dreams, bring it up in front of her, though! I have to keep up appearances for my father, obviously. You know the type: the snobby-rich-girl-head-held-high-in-the-clouds façade. That means teasing anyone less than my status. I mean, I didn’t get my cutie mark – a silver spoon with a pretty diamond on the top – for nothing, after all. I’ve been fed with silver dishes since I can remember. Even though my parents and I live in Ponyville, we can still maintain the high tone and fancy to-do of any of the wealthiest families in Equestria. To act as if we, the rich and wealthy, are equal in any measure of society to common ponies… that would be preposterous!

…I guess I just answered my own question, didn’t I? Diamond Tiara’s dad being the filthy rich Filthy Rich, after all, and my dad being Baggin Bitts… they kind of scream “rich” don’t they?

I’m such an egotistical maniac…

Apple Bloom seems nice enough… though she’s got that low-class drawl, it’s actually, in a primitive way, kind of intriguing. The way she’s so loyal to her friends as she figures herself out is marvelous! I have often observed her from afar, wishing I could, just once, socialize with the dear and not be called a bully or a brute… I really am a brute when I’m with Diamond Tiara, aren’t I?... such a pity… I long for the day when I can freely approach and talk with her. She seems like she would be a great friend to have…

Sweetie Belle is the sister of the one mare I idolize more than any other – Rarity. Her class matches well with the grace and poise one finds in Canterlot. Even Sweetie is beginning to show the early signs of having the same poise as her sister. It is a wonder, then, that we are so far apart, merely because she possesses no cutie mark. She could be a wonderful companion. Her care and attention she gives to the tasks assigned to her by her friends is immaculate and beautiful. More so, however, is her unearthly, natural grace. Not once does she complain while in their presence. Even her… well, to preserve the grace of the lady, her less-graceful moments… are full of such poise it makes me jealous and a little envious of her.

…Diamond Tiara would have a fit if she could see these words I write now… she has never cared for them, and likely never will. I write my sigh of lament – I wish I could befriend them, show them I am not as snobbish or mean as they believe me to be. Alas, I fear it may be too late for redemption now.

Scootaloo is the only one I do not believe I would have a very good relationship with. Her coltish demeanor and sporty attitude and my refined flavour and tastes would likely not mesh well. That said, however, what I have secretly observed about Rainbow Dash and Rarity may prove true for us as well, if given the chance. Sometimes the sporty and the glamorous have that spark that takes them beyond friends, their very differences fascinating each other beyond the platonic…

Oh! Oh my! Did I just spill their secret?! Naughty me… Naughty, naughty me… But it’s okay. Only my eyes will ever grace this page… I hope… I better burn this before Diamond Tiara comes over tomorrow… she’ll surely have a fit… or publish it under that Gabby Gums underground tabloid she’s been trying to start in the wake of that horrific victimization of most of the town of Ponyville last week. I am utterly sure she will include me and ruin my family’s lofty position in the world.

Or send me to play with… Snails… Ewwwwwww…!!! That settles it – I’m burning this parchment when I’m done writing.

Anyway, Scootaloo and I are so different that we may never get along, but that does not mean we cannot try.

They are trying so very hard to get their cutie marks, and when I observe their actions in private I cannot help but feel like offering a helping hoof. Yet Diamond Tiara seems to always be watching me, keeping an eye on me, corralling me… It is horrendous living under her shadow. I cannot help. I shan’t help. For their sakes, but most importantly my family’s sake, I won’t help.

And it is killing me.

Every time we make fun of them, it kills me.

I laugh on the outside, but inside… Ah, but I am becoming redundant, and nobody likes redundancy.

I oft ponder, however, if Diamond Tiara does it out of jealousy. Her cutie mark is the least-useful out of our whole class. It seems all she can do is wear that gorgeous tiara over her head, while I discovered, though ‘twas only recently, that although I had been the first of my entire generation to get my cutie mark because of my association with silver since I was naught but a foal, my passion, my true, Celestia-blessed passion was silver-smithing. My father has set me up with a beautiful shop where I can hone my talent. I am extraordinarily proud of my blossoming skills, yet recently, whenever I’ve shown Diamond Tiara a new project, she simply groans and walks away… I wish I had someone to ogle my work like the Cutie Mark Crusaders do of theirs. I have very few other friends besides Diamond Tiara, though I wonder if I should even be calling her a “friend”, now that I think about it.

I wonder if I should even be friends with someone so black anymore…

Yes. It is true. I am almost certain Diamond Tiara acts as she does out of jealousy, more than anything else. I have seen her as we watch them, each showing off their true talents in moments of brilliance so bright she turns green with envy.

“Just look at how plain their cutie marks will be!” she often mutters. “I don’t know WHY they can’t see them!”

She then gets even angrier, intent on bringing them down even faster with her taunts… Recently, she has muttered a few things in my presence even I disapprove of.

“When are you going to stop working on that and help me?”

“Why do you have to get your hooves so dirty?”

And my personal… “favourite”: “Stop working on that junk so we can think of ways to destroy those Cutie Mark Crusaders!”

But what would Diamond Tiara say if she caught me? Would it be insulting? Would I see betrayal? Would she, Celestia forbid, get violent with me? We had created that wonderful team atmosphere… the cheer, the greeting, the secret hoofshake… she wouldn’t do that to me, would she? No… she wouldn’t. Why would it be me getting “caught”, anyway? I was the one who decided to talk with them. I decided of my own free will what to do. So what was holding me back?

…I wonder if this is what’s called an “abusive relationship?”

Maybe she was trying to keep me alone, so I didn’t know of other friendships. She had also recently become mean and insulting to my last two remaining friends other than her. She had even become more selfish than I had ever seen… and it had been scaring me fairly badly. Come to think of it, she would haunt me when I talked to those friends, making snide and uncalled-for comments behind my back to them… they told me themselves this was the case.

Maybe Diamond Tiara’s friendship is no longer healthy for me, as my daddy claims.

I begin reflecting on how she spoke of me early in our lives, like I was the only one who mattered in the world. Even as a foal-filly, she made you feel special. Yet as she grew older, she had become more rebellious to the strict lifestyle she had grown up within, even though her father had tried to introduce normal aspects of life to her. She had become meaner, more callous, and certainly more degrading.

It only got worse after she got her cutie mark.

Thinking herself the princess, that tiara perched ever so perfectly on her head, she began teasing those without their cutie marks. I joined in initially because it was fun and there seemed to be minimal feelings being hurt. I was also relieved to finally have a friend with a cutie mark, having myself been the only one in class with one for the longest time…

…Wait. I was teased just as badly for being an “early flankie”... as we teased Apple Bloom, Scootaloo, and Sweetie Belle for being "blank flanks"… Oh boy, have I screwed up bad.

Today was especially bad, however. We were doing our usual, harmless teasing routine, when out of the blue Diamond Tiara started teasing Scootaloo about being a chicken in the middle of the whole class. How she managed to get that idea into her head, I honestly have no clue. She kept beating poor Scootaloo with that idea until the coltish filly blew up, accused both of us of some kind of conspiracy, beat the tar out of Diamond, and took off. Still, Diamond continued her verbal tirade against the rest of the Crusaders. It got to a point where I couldn't take it anymore and stormed off in tears, having had quite enough of her antics. This led to me bearing witness to a fight between the Cutie Mark Crusaders about who let her know, which left their friendship on the verge of collapse...

That settles it. I have made up my mind. If she's going to do that to those poor souls, I think it is high time I made some new friends, regardless of what she says about them.

Tomorrow, I shall go and talk with Apple Bloom and apologize. Hopefully it is not too late to start over.




The silver filly approached the school. Noticing her acquaintance was not there that day, she nervously made her way into the schoolyard, towards a lone, butter-coloured redhead with a pink bow in her mane.

“Apple Bloom,” she said.

Her schoolyard acquaintance greeted her with the same disdain she had come to hate: “Oh, Silver Spoon… what do you want?”

The filly hesitated, just for a second. She swallowed and pulled off her glasses. Lowing before the one she had driven into the ground, she took a long breath.

“We... we need to talk…”