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1w, 1dThat time of year again!4 comments · 58 views
Heya guys, it's the middle of November, so that means it's time for me to disappear for a whole week! No electricity, no running water. Just a lone cabin in the woods. Sorry I've not gotten near as many fics as I wanted to get posted, but I'm making progress anyway. Welp, if I'm not back by at least Monday the 24th, I probably lost a fight with a bear. I doubt I'll be getting a deer, which is fine with me. Just need to get away from things, which I'm sure many of you know.
So, until next week, toodles!
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Welp, thanks to the five of you who stopped by. I might try to make this a regular Friday night thing. If I do, would you guys be interested if I wrote down some of my records and made a list, then you guys could vote on what to listen to while I stream?
3w, 3dLivestream! (Ended)2 comments · 63 views
Thanks to all who joined the livestream. All eight of you, it was fun. Until next time!
4w, 22hFight for Survival12 comments · 156 views
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Hello, faithful watchers. ROB here, you know, "The MLD Guy", the one who doesn't ever seem to keep any signs of steady progression when writing? I've been doing some serious thinking the last couple months, about my stories, both published and not published. I used to believe that I needed to stick to a regimen, keep focused on only a couple fics to update while other stuff just sits around and gets worked on on the side lines.
Well, a couple nights ago, while I was listening to some of my Frankie Laine 78's and drinking some bourbon, I got really thinking about it. What, exactly, am I doing? You all know, as much as I do, that I start something and then I just stop. Disappear for however long, maybe throw a blog post around about nothing important, or give you unfulfilled promises of "the next chapter is coming soon!"
What a load of horse shit I am.
Many of my friends in various skype group chats have seen some of my unpublished works, or me spawning new ideas for more fics. It's a constant cycle of "Start this one, stop, go to another one, stop, back to the last one, stop, new one, stop, etc etc..." I just, for the life of me, cannot just stick to focusing on a single fic for more than two days.
I have been trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Is it from my depression? Do I resent that MLD is probably gonna be my one hit wonder that'll haunt me forever? Or am I just coming up with excuses, and all excuses are, are excuses.
So what, then, does that leave me with? Do I just throw in the towel, give up, slink away and just let everyone remember me for something that doesn't really matter in real life? Don't get me wrong, I know MLD has been great for some people, but when I stack it up with what is really going on in my life, it doesn't mean the shit on my shoes. And I just mowed our dog yard, so there's a lot of it. Or do I keep pushing on?
There are so many things going on in my life anymore, things that have been going on since before My Little Dashie, that have been getting worse and worse with time. Soon, I don't know how soon, but soon one thing is going to happen in my life. This one thing is going to start an avalanche, and I'm going to be at the bottom of that mountain with a bottle of bourbon in one hand, and a garden trowel to dig myself out with in the other.
So, I've made a decision. No no, before you think the worst thing that I'm going to give up and leave, that's not happening... yet.
But what I have decided is it's been enough. Enough with piddle fucking around, leaving fics unfinished. So many potential fics rotting in folders, never getting the air they so desperately need. No more fussing over "Gee, should I re-do this" or "gosh, I'm not sure if that's right. Maybe I'll sit on it and think about it."
I'm gathering up all my fics, some I'll have a few friends breeze through for grammar checks and what not. But once they're clear, I'm gonna start posting these sons of a bitches. I'm sick of leaving all this potential of inspiration and creativity to lie around and rot on my computer. I lost countless fics when my first laptop died over a year ago, so I only got a handful of ones that I managed to save on an external drive, plus more that I've begun since I got this newer laptop six months ago.
Once more, I'm gonna start digging into these fics I currently have up, screw "editing them for continuity", and gonna get goin' on the next chapters cause enough has been enough. I'm done screwing around, lying, putting on a fake smile as I tell everyone that it's going alright. It's not fuckin' goin' alright. I feel like shit. Life is all gonna come crashing down on my head sooner or later, so I don't wanna go down without a fight.
I'm not gonna promise you a when, but I will promise that come hell or high water you're gonna soon have a fic-splosion from my account. Mostly all single chapter fics still works in progress, but fuck it, I'm sick of these things just sittin' around. I'm hoping, maybe, with all my cards on the table, it'll provoke me to actually work on stuff. And even if I can't find people to help with edits, or grammar checks, fuck it! I've seen fics that look like the authors poured alphabet soup on their keyboards and called it stories and they STILL PASSED. I'm sure my crap can't be worse than that.
The shit winds are a howling, so before we're all covered in the shitagedon that this fandom is slowly becoming, I wanna know that I did my best to write horse words, and show that maybe, just maybe... I'm not a lost cause.