Chapter 5: [url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0yvkmgy9B4[]Room Of Angel
The feeble desperation in the eyes of the lavender mare had stunned Applejack, but not enough to deter her from explaining what the farm pony already thought to be public knowledge.
While she did not presume to know the situation in all of its magical-mumbo-jumbo Applejack did understand this; the Princess of the Sun had been killed in an unfortunate and quite devastating accident of magical origins; an accident which ended the life of the Goddess almost outright, while nearly ending the young Princess Twilight Sparkle in the process as well.
Applejack had explained what little she knew of the situation with as much detail as she could offer once pressed further upon the subject by the bedridden Twilight Sparkle whose insatiable thirst for knowledge was comfortingly present, despite her current injured predicament.
While Applejack found solace in this reaction from the studious mare, the farm pony still found herself unnerved by how little Twilight seemingly remembered of the event; she appeared rather unsure and gave the farm pony a skeptical once over with a look in her eyes that Applejack had seen far too often, most of which revealed itself that one day a year or so back while Twilight attempted to figure out Pinkie Pie’s infamously reality shattering ‘Pinkie Sense.’
Had her memories not returned, or were they just a little fuzzy? Was the damage far worse than what they all had originally feared? Perhaps she was not as healed as they were all led to believe. Maybe Twilight still needed to be in a hospital to fully recover from her life altering injuries?
The damage to the mares brain was a great concern for many of Twilight’s friends for they knew no normal pony could had survived what she had went through, even though they were assured by the royal physicians who had saved Twilight’s life, that her recuperation was not only supernaturally swift but fairly remarkable, for not only was she attended to by Canterlot’s finest but Twilight was also attended to by the Moon Goddess herself, who personally attended to the wounded Princess many a time, by lending her powers to aid and accelerate in the healing process.
The doctors said it should had taken weeks; maybe even months before Twilight would had been able to properly and clearly think for herself, and move around unattended. If it was not for Luna’s intensive healing sessions which had negated all of that arduous therapy, Twilight could had still been in far worse of a condition than what she was now.
She might had even died.
Throughout it all, Applejack felt powerless to help Twilight. She had wondered how she could help her, but found herself coming short of ideas. She had no fancy magic to call her own; no super healing powers or complicated memory spells to fix the Alicorn’s memories… she felt utterly useless.
The only attribute; the only way she could think of right now to help her was by simply being there for her, to talk to Twilight about the details of the assassination truthfully and honestly with all of her knowledge upon the subject.
Perhaps in this way, she could aid the healing of the broken lavender mare’s mind the Princess’s magic could not, and help Twilight fit the pieces back together. To clear the confusion and to help her remember what Twilight had thus far only struggled and battled with inside her nightmares.
From what Applejack understood; and what she garnered from the very lips of the Moon Goddess, Princess Twilight Sparkle and Princess Celestia were engaged in what appeared to be a delicate experiment involving specifically the Element of Magic, attempting to discover what it was made from and how such a material could possess its attribute to harness the other Elements of Harmony as magical conduits, while simultaneously focusing and containing the volatile energy within itself only to manipulate such raw power into a concentrated radiation of pure, controlled Harmony.
Of course, Applejack explained all of this in not so many frivolous words by mostly glazing over the details with an uncertainty, half expecting (half hoping) Twilight to correct her mishaps in regards to the subject when she could not quite find the correct scientific phrase to explain what it was that she was trying to say and what the Moon Princess had told her.
But the lavender mare did not. She merely stared at Applejack with an uncharacteristically disinterested and distant expression, hardly seeking to correct or even educate her upon her misuse of the correct terminology.
The earth pony could almost see the cogs working away inside of Twilight’s mind, as she processed the information she had just shared, but gave away nothing in return in regards to remembering or denying the event ever took place.
However, the young alicorn Princess wore an expression of a particular manner that was again all too familiar with the farm pony, for Twilight often looked like this when she was trying to find the solution to some mind numbing problem she did not quite know the answer to.
After many long awkward moments of silence as the two mares gazed at each other, Twilight simply turned away in the bed and closed her eyes without another word.
Struggling against a yawn, Applejack glanced to the bedroom door, half expecting Rainbow Dash to return from her confrontation with Princess Luna, or even Fluttershy with a doctor to attend to Twilight’s needs.
Despite many minutes of drawn out silence and neither of the ponies showing up, the exhaustion of the day had crept up upon the earth pony, causing her to settle down beside the bed and to rest her head upon her crossed forelegs, creating a makeshift; albeit somewhat less than comfortable pillow.
When Applejack had closed her eyes, the lowering sun and its bleeding orange hue spilt out through the crack between the curtains, with the calming sounds of birds chirping merrily away beyond the patio window that led out onto a small private balcony that overlooked most of Canterlot.
By the time Applejack opened her eyes again, her mind reeled as she had to adjust rather swiftly to the sudden time dilation and drastic change of ambience.
The warm glow of the setting sun was replaced by a consuming darkness that threw the bedroom into a somewhat cold, unforgiving space. From her position on the ground, Applejack quickly gathered her bearings and released a rather loud and a rather sleepy yawn, a hoof rising up to rub at her sleep-sparkled half lidded emerald eyes.
“Ah must ‘ave fallen asleep…” She groaned, before her eyes settled onto a note that had been placed rather purposefully and neatly upon the ground inches before her.
Applejack squinted her eyes to inspect it, and noted almost immediately that the mouthwriting was that of Fluttershy’s.
We thought we would let you sleep, I hope you don’t mind. We just didn’t want to bother you... The doctor checked in on Twilight and gave her a mild sedative to help her sleep better. If you need anything, just come to my room. It seems Rainbow Dash is a little upset over something and she wants to spend the night with me. I thought you should know incase you go looking for her. Fluttershy xx<3<3<3xx
“Maybe Luna gave her a good tongue lashin’ after all. Just hope she didn’ say anythin’ too stupid.”
With that said, she moved to rise up onto all four hooves, stretching each leg individually to work out the kinks as she casually tossed her dreamy eyed gaze to a bed she fully expected to observe a somewhat sedated Princess Twilight Sparkle.
Instead, the bed was unoccupied.
Applejack quaked into a full alertness within a blink of an eye as her mind realized in its sudden attention that Twilight Sparkle was no longer there, however it did not take long for Applejack to break away from her sudden concern, for despite the inky darkness of the night consuming her still adjusting sight, a spectral beam of dazzling moonlight cut across the room from the now open patio doorway, illuminating the silent lavender mare as she stared out to the world beyond with her wings sprayed out wide as if basking in the cold light of the moon, as one would relish the warming rays of the sun.
Adjusting her Stetson so Applejack could get a better view of Twilight’s figure, the farm pony found herself unable to speak and unable to approach her friend. In fact, Applejack was simply entranced by the sheer magnificence of the alicorn, despite the blood stained bandages that remained wrapped about her flank.
Maybe it was the way the curtains curled and danced within a gentle breeze around the alicorn, or maybe it was because she was still half asleep and everything just seemed that bit more surreal and enchanting than it ought to had been.
Regardless of the reasons, it spurred a deep rooted blush to form upon Applejack’s cheeks.
Whoa there, nelly. She doesn’ need tha’ righ’ now. She needs a friend. N’ she definitely don’ need you oogling her. Now snap on out of it!
Finally, Applejack spoke, but in a soft and calming tone she often used to comfort Applebloom when the filly was upset about something.
It was a sisterly sentiment that extended to Twilight, whom she considered almost like family like the rest of the Elements. They had been through so much together after all, so it was no stretch of the imagination that Applejack loved Twilight and the rest of the girls like her own flesh and blood; and if the truth be told, that love ran far deeper than she cared to let on when it came to Twilight Sparkle.
Breaking free from the spell, Applejack offered a soft smile and equally soft voice. “Come on from th’ window, sugar, it’s freezin’ out tonigh’.”
Twilight said nothing.
“Ya’ll catch a cold if ya stand there too long, an’ ya don’t go needing it in ya condition. An’ let’s get fresh bandages on ya flank there, they’re lookin’ a bit dirty.” Applejack stifled a yawn with a hoof, lifting it up to rub at her eyes as she glanced about the room in search of a medical kit of some description, “an’ I think we could be usin’ some more shut eye, ah’m beat.”
The lavender mare remained exactly where she was before the open window frame with her back fully facing the farm pony, immobile and seemingly defiant in her statuesque position, despite Applejack’s more than inviting suggestion of further rest.
“It wasn’t an accident,” Twilight finally whispered up at the unforgiving coldness of the clear skied night, spectral wisps of hot air curling from her lips as she spoke, “she was murdered…”
Applejack blinked once, her eyes registering the information with a widening stare at the bandaged hind quarter to which she had been morbidly observing for quite some time, her gaze quickly switching to look at Twilight’s frizzled, disarrayed state of her mane when she posed her bewildering statement with a tilt of her head.
“S‘cuse me?”
“Princess Celestia…” Twilight’s entire body trembled at the mere mention of her name, her wings drooping low to the ground while her ears fell flat against her head, “she was killed...”
The abrupt sobs that shook the lavender mare threw the farm pony into action, swiftly moving up alongside Twilight Sparkle in an attempt to support her with a subtle lean.
“Shhhhh—it’ll be okay, ah’m here sugar. We all are. Ah know what ya’ll goin’ through,” Applejack moved her head to nuzzle her Stetson and blonde locks comfortingly into the nook of Twilight’s neck, just under her chin, “when ah lost m’ parents, I was distraught too. But ya’ll gotta be strong, Twi’. Ya’ll not alone. Ya’ll have family and friends to be there for ya like ah did.”
“But—”
“Ah understand ya’ll confused and hurtin’ righ’ now, but ya’ll got to listen to reason. The Princess wasn’ killed; it was all jus’ one big terrible accident. Ya’ll gonna find yourself feeling disorientated for a while, but it’ll all—”
“I’m not confused, Applejack…”
The farm pony sighed.
“Listen, ah kno’ the doc’ said that ya’ll memory will be a lil’ scrambled ‘cause of the accident,” Applejack pulled her head back to look at the pained expression upon Twilight’s face, noting how tense the mare’s body had become, “an’ ah know how it feels when grief makes ya think silly things; trust me sugar, ah know exactly how ya feel... When ah lost mah parents, ah blamed herself, when it was nothin’ but an acci—”
Twilight muttered something under her breath as she turned her head away, causing Applejack to tilt her ears towards the lavender mare, “Sorry, sugar? Ah couldn’ hear you.”
“It wasn’t, an accident.”
“Listen’, ah know ya hurtin’ over the loss of the Princess—we all are. But ya’ll need to go back to bed an’ jus’ rest. Ya’ll exhausted an thats not helpin’ any. With some good shut eye an’ a good meal or several ya’ll be seein’ sense again, an’ we can all get through this mess together,” Applejack smiled sympathetically to Twilight, placing a hoof upon the mare’s shoulder tenderly, “ah Pinkie Promise... things will get better.”
“Just… Just shut.., up.”
Applejack appeared dumbstruck, as if Twilight Sparkle had just slapped across the muzzle. “W-Wha’?”
Twilight lifted a hoof and simply shoved Applejack from her, turning about to scorch a glare right at the farm pony who instantly coward back from her friend with several retreating steps.
Flaring her wings wide, Twilight continued her advance until Applejack was pinned between her and the bed, “Just shut up for one bucking second Applejack, and please listen to me! It was not an accident! How many times do I need to say it?!”
“Twi’, just calm down, an talk t’—”
“I WILL NOT CALM DOWN! I have been trying to talk to you but you keep dismissing everything I say! You are just not listening to a single word I am saying! Nopony is! I thought you girls were my friends!”
“We… we are, sugar! I jus’ don’ understand what ya’ll are tryin’ to say.”
Twilight stomped a hoof angrily, huffing through her nose to a point that she almost angrily snorted at the other mare she considered a close friend, “Celestia was not in some stupid experiment! She was not in some kind of an accident!”
The stench of burnt flesh invaded the air...
The lavender mare wrinkled her nostrils as the ghostly smell of cindered fur and skin invaded her nostrils, ignoring the memory even though it churned in her stomach, causing bile to rise up in her throat.
“Hun, she was... ya’ll might not rememberin’ it well, but she was.”
Moving both of her hooves out to place them upon Applejack’s shoulders, she gently shook her the mare as if to illustrate her point further. “She was murdered in cold blood by a gryphon assassin! I was there! You have to believe me!”
Applejack steeled her resolve, her patience wearing thin. She had all the patience in the world for her friends and family and rarely did she ever lose her cool towards them. But Twilight was acting uncharacteristically violent and it irritated her to the point of anger.
A dominant force overtook Applejack’s initial fear of the threatening demeanour of her friend and she forced her emerald eyes into a focused and fierce expression right back into the dual coloured hues of amethyst and white that were evidentially wide with hysterics.
“Get off me, Twi’, ya’ll startin’ to scare me.”
Twilight only persisted, her entire body quaking as desperation forced the mare to scream her words right into the orange mare’s face. “You have to believe me, Applejack! Please! I am not crazy! I am not making this up; it’s the truth! I didn’t imagine this!”
“Twilight, ah’m givin’ ya’ll one more chance… git off me an’ we can talk ‘bout it like civilized—”
Hot, angry tears coursed its way down Twilight’s tempered features as she allowed the darkness in her heart; filled with the combined influence of gut wrenching sorrow and uncontrolled anger to bubble up into an amalgamation of rage, in the shape of words and actions she would never had thought of doing or even fathom to consider, in her entire life.
Savagely, she pushed Applejack down on the bed, moving to straddle the earth pony and press her hooves firmly upon the surprised orange mare’s exposed chest, pinning her there beneath Twilight’s full weight combined with a strength she did not know she could possess, her serpentine formed amethyst eye darkening a shade as her mane subtly flowed about her head as if caught in an unseen, unfeeling draft.
“NO! I have had enough of my friends ignoring everything I have to say! Every time I try to explain myself you say I’m confused and sick, showering me with concern I do not need! Well guess what? I am in full control of my mental faculties so you are going to shut the buck up and listen to me you stupid mud pony!”
Both ponies froze, each sharing a similar aghast expression upon their faces. For a time, both mares did nothing but stare into each other eyes.
W-what… what did I just say?
One half-blind set beheld the sheer horror and immediate regret of what was said, while the other filled with an affliction of tears coalescing into a maelstrom of hurt that spilt out to dribble down Applejacks temples and to soak in the golden locks of her mane.
W-what have I done?!
Twilight Sparkle retracted herself from upon her restrictive position atop of the orange mare and moved to step back from the bed, a trembling hoof floating before her lips as she turned her head away in shame, the subtle change in her working its way to returning her to a normal state.
A different kind of remorse filled Twilight, and it only served to mutate into a self-deprecation she now felt in lieu of her senseless outburst.
How could she say something so horrible to a friend?
I’d never… ever say something so…
“A-Applejack… I… I didn’t mean to—”
Silently, Applejack leant up from the bed and too moved to stand without another word, keeping her eyes firmly upon the ground beside Twilight’s hooves as silent tears dribbled down her cheeks, unable to move and unable to say a thing, yet the damaged caused was written plainly across Applejack’s face and it only served to deepen Twilight’s desperate attempt to correct her actions.
“I… I wasn’t thinking straight...”
“Clearly.” Applejack replied emotionlessly, trying her best not to sound snappy.
Twilight took a step forward, “I don’t know what came over me. I-I-I didn’t mean it. I’d never want to hurt you or any of my friends. You know that, right? I was just—”
“Ah know,” without so much as looking at Twilight; hardly offering her the chance to reply, Applejack headed for the door, “but ah suppose this inferior mud pony best be goin’ now.”
Nonononono—this can’t be happening!
“Wait!” Twilight moved quickly, blocking Applejack’s path to the door, both of her hooves moving up as she expressed her regret.
“It’s just—you have to believe me, Applejack,” Twilight swallowed hard as she angled her head so she could try and look into Applejack’s teary eyes that still refused to look back at her, “I’m sorry for what I said and did, but you have to believe me! I’m telling the truth! Celestia was murdered—ask Princess Luna! I’m sure she will tell you the same.”
“Never in mah life have ah ever wanted to—Twi’, please leave me alone before I go an’ do somethin’ ah’m gonna regret,” the orange mare hazard a glance at Twilight, trying hard to control herself and not glare at her friend, “Ah need some sleep. An’ so do you... goodnight, Twi’. We’ll talk more in th’ mornin’.”
With that, Applejack moved to brush past a defeated Twilight Sparkle, who offered little resistance to stop her save for a hoof moving up to brush pathetically against the orange’s mare shoulder in passing.
“W-wait… I’m sorry...” Twilight meekly wept.
Don’t leave me, Applejack… not like this!
Kicking a front hoof out at the door to swing it open, Applejack departed, leaving the stunned Twilight Sparkle without so much as another word, leaving the lavender mare in the total darkness of Princess Celestia’s bedroom alone with her festering penitence.
Yaaay new update!
4269853 Thanks. :D
Ohhhhh, crap, Twilight! I know that you're majorly upset by Celestia's murder/death, but saying that to a friend who is majorly worried about you and who also loves you as much as AJ obviously does (and not just as a friend, it seems, from what she (AJ) was thinking early on in the chapter) was way the heck out of line! I just hope that the two of you can make this up later. Especially after that rather stupid racist remark that you made there.
Anyway, excellent update, and I can't wait for the next one. Looks like our resident egghead princess has some serious, serious fences to mend where Applejack is concerned. I just hope that AJ sees past Twi's upset and listens to her once they both calm down again and get some sleep.
(Although, after what just happened between them, I don't think that either AJ or Twilight are gonna be gettin' much of that this night.)
On the other hoof, though, I have to say that I'm more than a little aggravated at AJ for not hearing Twi out more. I mean, I don't know if this is set after Twilight and the girls returned their Elements to the Tree of Harmony, or when, but I've always thought that AJ just had this ability to tell when somepony is telling her the truth, or not...whether said somepony is distraught, or not.
All in all, though, I'd say that they both stuck their hooves in their mouths. Clean up to the elbow, in Twilight's case.
4270097 It is set before the Tree of Harmony. However. You are correct. AJ can detect lies very accurately in this fic too. However, as pointed out before in a previous chapter, Twilight admits even she cannot believe AJ believes her lies.
Because she became rather good at it.
I'm glad you like the update.
Now the Intrigue part happens.
Was there really an assassination? Was it a crime that Twilight only remembers?
Or is it really all in Twilight's head that she dreamed up, her mind trying to cope with the experience that her mentor died and so pinned the blame upon someone else when in reality it was a natural, yet tragic happening.
Also Daaamn Twilight, you've had those thoughts before because that sort of spec ism doesn't just happen in anger.
Yay! Fire! Destruction! There's something wrong with me!
4270503 There's something wrong with us all.
Yes! Emotional drama! I love it. This made my night!
4270633 Glad I could be of service?
4270603 I know! I just think there is more wrong with me than others...
I LIKE PONIES AND THAT'S NOT WIERD!
4270636 My minds going to be churning over all of the possibilities of whats going to go down. I'm excited.
btw that was a crazy fast response time.
4270653 It was. Maybe because I was online at the time
4270403 Thanks for the confirmation on all that, hun; especially about the Tree of Harmony thing.
As to that, I think I'm going to have to go back and read the previous chapters, because I think that I must've missed Twi's admission of that.
It would certainly go a long way in explaining why AJ thinks that Twilight is just imagining things. Or lying again, to cover up her grief about Celestia's death. Or whatever.
And I kinda noticed that.
Is it okay if I wanna give Twilight a good whap upside the head for what she said to AJ in that one bit, though? I really want to, but I also think that she's really punishing herself pretty hard there for what she said, anyway.
And I certainly did! As I said, I can't wait til the next chapter update (I know I (we) have to, but it's hard!). It should be good!
I also hope that AJ decides to talk to Princess Luna to get confirmation for what Twi said about Celestia's death. (Why do I get the feeling that that won't be as easy as Twi makes it sound, though?)
I'm not 100% sure, but I think I sense a conspiracy. Whether that be on the gryphon's part or Luna's part, I know not, though I predict there will be swaths of blood galore.
Best of luck, stay healthy, and update soon!
-Sky66
4271026 The next chapter will make that 100% change one way or the other.
4271474 I am not finished with torturing our poor young Princess just yet. Lots of darkness to come. I promisessessessesses.
Wooh! This chapter rocks! I love the interaction between AJ and Twi. Hopefully, they'll apologize to each other.
I just wanna hug Twi...
4270699 yup
4271876 I love this story and yay to the darkness yet to come , I am hoping for more drama to happen like maybe something Twi finding out that Luna had a small hunch about the assassin but didn't do anything so she is partially to blame. Or that Twi feels she can't trust anyone and runs away when she is still a bit unstable (she must be dramatized by seeing her mentor/lover/mother die). Then her friends, Shining armor with the royal guard and Luna have to go find her before she is killed or something like NMM happens. Poor Twi theres is yet more to come little alicorn
Way to fuel the darkness within her Applejack!:D
It's funny how no one listens to Twilight yet they all believe Luna.
Was there even a friendship between them in the first place? They discard her feelings just like that.
4272463 Thanks man. Glad you like it. There maybe forgiveness soon enough. Or not.
4272676 Thank you and I am pleased you like it so much. And while they are feesible directions, I plan for something far more sinister to happen in the net chapter.
4272697 Heh. In regards to them not believing Twi, they are all still under the assumption that her memories are warped from the accident. However, retribution is to occur in the next chapter. I plan to put a blog up today hinting at certain things, and I will be putting up a small quote from the next chapter just to tease you all on how seriously fucked up things are about to get.
4272767 - How could the rest of the population not know Celestia was assassinated? Assuming she was of course and there isn't some weird parallel world or inception style memory bending going on? Guards, Diplomatic corps and nobles all saw the Griffon all but admit to assassinating Celestia and attempting to get Twilight in the process. Regardless of attempting to bank the fires of war, it's downright criminal to try and hide the fact, let alone successfully from the element of honesty. The news would have leaked, and everyone would have known... this cover story is paper thin.
4277688 You are very, VERY correct that it is all very paper thin. I have not answered some of those questions yet in story because I want it to be as suspicious as I can possibly make it until I reveal some things. I have behind the scenes not written that somehow the truth has somehow not yet been leaked, even when there are many, many witnesses. However, the 'council' has been sworn to silence in regards to the matter (it was briefly mentioned I think), but some of the present nobles during the trial? Not quite. And the guards? Well. That will be explained in due to time.
However, as you can probably tell the truth has yet to escape the castle itself, let alone leak into the rest of Canterlot or Equestria itself, so it does beg to question just how that has not yet happened. Because surely someone is going to leak that information, right?
And memory altering? Who on earth would do that? I mean. It's not like there's been examples of something not quite right about Twilight...... Or anything..... Right?
Wow, Applejack, thou art stupid indeed. I suppose I should congratulate Luna on the degree of belief ponies have in what she says.
this just gets better and better! well, for me at least... not so much for Twilight...
I suppose you mean accident in place of assassination here? Or is it me that is too tired to understand anything? The fact that I'm trying to restore my unemployed bum dropout sleep schedule to something suitable for a clear mind at a 9AM ultra important appointment doesn't really help my ability to comprehend your sometimes a bit convoluted storytelling style, so I can very well be wrong.
The way I gather it (haven't read the whole thing yet, paused to say this) the general people, and apparently even the bearers, including AJ, doesn't know about the assassination and think it's an accident right?
Edit, a few paragraphs later:
Really?
Edit #2:
>twilight calling AJ a mudpony
Well, the racism event horizon has been crossed, that's it, our beloved twilie is officially evil!
I'm going to pause here for the night. I'll have the review done in the next couple of days, but just know that this story is Good. There is a lot I can praise here.
Applejack confirmed for worst pony.
6273602 yep
6273602 Same
I thought I already saw the idiot ball of the day earlier in my daily reading. I was mistaken. I was so, so mistaken. Applejack, just... just urgh
Also, why did you have to use the only in-mane 6 pairing which is a pet peeve of mine
I get that AJ should have listened to Twilight but in response to some of the comments down here:
It's understandable that she thinks that Twilight is a little... not quite right in the head after whatever happened happened. Twilight herself was just as, if not more, out of line when compared to AJ and yet I see much less criticism of her in the comments than I do of AJ...
Not to mention, Twilight seemed extremely emotionally compromised, which someone as perceptive as AJ probably noticed. And more than almost anyone, AJ knows what grief is like, and how it can warp ponies' view of the world and their memories.
I am not trying to say that it was right of AJ to write off Twilight's recollection of things in favor of Luna's explanation, but please, try to look at it from both sides before you start bashing AJ in the comments.