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// Pinkie Pie's Desire 
// Story: My Demise 
// by That Pony Writer 
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I want to see everyone smile. It's my desire. Every time I see that grin... I can't help but laugh. At least... that's how it should be. But now... ever since... I can't smile, I can't laugh. There's no way I can just giggle out of this.
They always said face your fears. That they can't hurt you. Not when you laugh at them. Except... My greatest fear... Was my friends dying.
I knew it would happen. Even I'm not that blind. I could tell by how edgy everyone was getting. Each time we saved Equestria we all realized that it was getting harder to play it safe.
I mean, I was a little oblivious. I still pranced around. I still stayed my usual self. And I think everyone enjoyed it.
It was a painful awakening when Rainbow Dash died. She was my bestest friend in the whole wide world. We were always together. Playing tricks, laughing, having a great time.
Why did she have to die?
My fears have hurt me. Suddenly all my friends just keep fading away. How can Apple Jack and Twilight move on so fast? I just can't. I can't let go, can't let their memories fade away.
All those nights... all those days, spent locked inside my room, with everyone begging me to come out. I realized, finally, what my true desire was.
That was to see everyone...
Every single pony...
Every pony in Equestria...
In the world...
In existence...
...Smile.
How can I laugh anymore? How can I smile? I wish the world wasn't so dark.. Because I can't go on grieving like this.
I can't go on at all.
Because right now... I'm dying.
I had to see everyone smile. Everyone who's left. I didn't want them to go. To leave me. So with what reason can I leave them?
Sometime after Fluttershy passed, Apple Jack came to me. She said that things were getting dangerous, deadly. As if I hadn't noticed. But she told me something else. And after I just couldn't stop the tears.
Twilight had to live. She's the Princess of Friendship. Out of all of us, she had to live.
So Apple Jack was willing to give up her own life, if it meant Twilight kept hers. But she asked me not to. She asked me to stay by Twilight's side, when she was gone. Through everything else that would come our way.
I'm sorry... Apple Jack. But you never made me Pinkie Promise.
So... here I am. Even Pinkie Sense couldn't save me. But this was my desire. This is how it's suppose to be.
“Pinkie! No Pinkie, not you! Anyone but you!” Twilight cried beside me, leaning over and letting her tears fall onto me.
I tried for a smile. I really did. But seeing only two friends... knowing the other three are dead. Who can smile when things are like this?
“Oh, Sugercube,” AJ whispered, crouching down beside me and pushing her snout into my fur. “You didn't have to do this. It was suppose to be me, ya hear? Not you. Celestia knows, not you.”
But it was me. Apple Jack didn't understand. It couldn't be her. It had to be me. I couldn't protect Twilight. Not like she could. So instead I protected her.
“Pinkie Pie! Stay with us! I promise you, you're going to be okay!” Just like every time before, Twi was crying, hard. She chocked and sobbed, unable to do anything but deny the truth.
“Do you... Pinkie Promise?” I wheezed, trying to no avail to keep my eyes open. It hurt so much. Did Rainbow Dash... Rarity... and Fluttershy go through this as well? Dying was so painful. Why did it have to be like this? Why did it make me regret so much?
Twilight sniffed, eyes shining hopefully. “Cross me heart... and hope to fly... stick a cupcake... in... my eye.”
“It's a promise,” I confirmed, allowing for my gaze to finally flicker closed.
“Pinkie!” Twilight instantly shouted. “No stay with us! I promised you! You're going to be okay!”
“I know... You can't break a Pinkie Promise,” I whispered, feeling my breathing ease slightly. I couldn't feel my heartbeat. Was that bad? “I'm just tired.”
“No, Pinkie, don't go to sleep! You just ate all those cupcake this morning, right? Sugar rush! You've had too much sugar to be tired!” Twilight practically screeched.
Apple Jack had been strangely quiet. But now she leaned in close, breathing into my ear. “You're not going to make it... are ya?”
I shook my head without Twilight noticing.
“It's okay... It'll all be okay.” AJ murmured, starting to stroke my mane.
I felt comforted by the gesture. And sleepy. Really sleepy. But I still had too much to say. And I didn't think I'd be able to say it all.
“Apple... Jack, look after Twilight, okay? Please. For me.” I asked, starting to cough again.
“Don't worry,” Apple Jack mumbled. “Ah will. Pinkie Promise. And Ah won't ever break a Pinkie Promise.”
I smiled and opened my eyes, angling my head weakly so I could look at both Twilight and AJ. “I just want to see everyone smile. The both of you... you're the bestest friends a pony could ever wish for. Everyone will be sad, but can you be happy? I want to see you guys smile one more time... before I go. Please?”
“Of course, Sugarcube.” Apple Jack forced a grin onto her face, tears now visibly falling from her cheeks. Twilight wiped away her sobs and looked at me, calming herself and giving the saddest smile I'd ever seen.
But it was still a smile.
“Don't... forget... your Pinkie Promise.”
And then I closed my eyes. I felt so tired. Like I was sinking into a deep sleep after a hard day of partying. But I knew Rarity, Fluttershy, and Rainbow Dash were waiting for me. In this eternal dream.
So I fell asleep. And the pain... the sounds... the sights... Just all went away. I pictured my friends smiling... and I felt happy. That's right... Like I'd always been taught. Smile... and your fears go away.
And I think I died smiling. That made me happy.
And I know no one will smile at my funeral, but I really hope they do. Throwing a party would be great.
A... farewell to Pinkie Pie party.