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She found her sister again, and I realized I never even knew her to begin with. She sent me away to make friends, and didn't even bat an eye when I chose to stay. She talks on and on about how she's proud of me but never about how she cares about me. I'm a shining figurehead, not a friend. I spent hours just trying to talk with her and all she said was that it was funny watching my friends ruin the evening I'd spent so long planning for. And even then, while she's patting me on the head and showing me off to the ponies of Canterlot like a show dog, I'm besmirching all she's given me wishing I had more. I'm belittling our bond through a child's crush long since spent. She doesn't even know...or does she? Does she just think I'm that beneath notice? Does she see it in the way I fawn over her, the way I can never find words around her? And does that truly mean nothing to her? I fought her oldest enemy, saved her entire kingdom and united her country in the span of a single day and she barely even looked at me. Am I really that little to her?
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I never wish to think ill of my student, but...Lately I can't help but wonder. She fights so very long and hard to earn my respect, but she never asks for my affection, only my approval. Does she see me as a source of strength? Is there a "Celestia" beneath that? Or am I just the figurehead to her sailing ship? A good luck charm? I saw the joy in her eyes when she left for Ponyville to make friends. Was there any remorse at leaving me behind? Does she think that I can't feel? Does she think because I put a friendly face on for everyone that there's no genuinity to my smiles? All that time planning a Gala, and I had to laugh off how ruined it was and claim I meant it that way. All to see her smile again, and know she still had that nebulous approval. Know she was still my best friend. Know that I still loved her, and that I always will. Does she really see nothing back?