//------------------------------// // A sad moment. // Story: My life // by Najee_uzimaki //------------------------------// I get home and Sunshower didn't have food cooked for me. “that's odd. Usually she would have cooked something by now...” I whisper to myself. “Well I guess she can't make food for me all the time.” I walk upstairs and when I am about halfway there, I here some sobbing. I wanted to turn around and leave again, but every bone in my body told me to stay and watch. The door was slightly shut. I slowly peeked my head into the door to see what was going on. Sunshower was on my bed sobbing. Her face were in pillows and her hoofs were shoved in them. I heard her mumble things, but I could not quite hear her. I tried to move a little bit closer to hear what she is mumbling about. “W-why...*sniff* Why cant he j-just love me?” She says still in her pillow. “He? Who is he? Is she in love with another stallion?” I whisper to myself. The thought of that kind of spark a nerve in my body. It kind of felt like I was a little bit jealous. Wait...Jealous. Heh, why would I be jealous? “I-its so hard to try and act normal around h-him *sniff*...Please..I-I just w-wish I could be with him for one night...” “Who is she talking about?” I try and piece together what is going on, but Sunshower had other plans. She started to walk toward the door. Snips. I quickly moved back and hid behind the door. She hesitated before opening the door. Damn. I think she caught me. “I almost forgot. I need sniff to take a shower...” she said, while turning around heading toward the bathroom. “Oh sweet Celestia. That was close.” I let go of breathe that I didn't even know I was holding, and slowly stepped down the stairs. “Sweet Celestia that was close....” I whisper to myself as I walk out the door to take a stroll in the night. “I need to figure out this stallion she is talking about loving. Maybe I can convince him to date Sunshower.” Thinking about that made me happy and mad at the same time for some reason. As I went outside, I looked both ways. One had a lot of lights and pony's who were happy and celebrating something, and the other was a dark road with nopony on it...I think I will take the dark path... I kept trying to think of ponies she might be interested in. So far I had no luck. I mean, no offense to her, but this pony is a social outcast. She never really 'Got around' as you would say. She was always in the house. I reached a dead end turned around to head back to my house. When I got there the smell of toast, oats, and apples started to fill the air. Sunshower was cooking. I walk in the kitchen to see a burnt our sunshower waiting at the table for me. “Eh. How are you doing today?” I ask her not trying to think about the fact that I know how she actually felt. She didn't reply as fast as I thought she would. She just slowly shrugged her shoulders. “I've been fine....How about your day? Hmm?” she said as she try to hide the fact that tears were running down her face. I tried to pretend I did't notice. I bucking hate awkward moments. “I've been good...Oh hey, you cooked me some food. Mmm. Oats, toast and apples. My favorite” As I changed the subject I sat down and stuffed a big apple into my mouth, with a follow 'Mmmm' sound coming from it. She just sat there sheepishly smiling like always. After we finished. We went up to our room, took showers, and got into bed. Sunshower was more quiet than usual. I kind of felt really bad for her. I mean, image if it was you. Image if you have gotten beat up and raped, then thrown into a window not remembering anything from your past life. It must be hard. Tonight, I did something weird. As Sunshower got into bed, I hesitated a bit, but I closed my eyes and kissed her forehead and said goodnight. Now, I didn't know if she blushed or not as a fact, but I could feel her hot blood rushing to the center of her face. Trying to avoid eye contact, I turned around quickly and put the sheets over my head. There was no noise for the rest of the night. I dreamt of a pony. Yeah, that's not not interesting is it? Well, this pony wasn't any normal pony. It had flames shooting out of it's horn. The color of the pony was red, a really dark shade of red. I couldn't make out the face. The flames started to consume the space between us. It burned. I started to sweat and scream loudly. The flames against my coat was not a good feeling. It was a cold feeling at first. No pain, no blood nothing yet. There was no reason for my to scream at the moment, but I just knew. I just knew that there was suppose to be pain there. Burning to death is not that bad as people make it out to be. I slowly closed my eyes to accept my death when I suddenly opened them. It was 9:00am. I didn't notice this at the time, but I was breathing quite hard. I turned to look at Sunshower who was still asleep. “Sunshower....” I whisper. There was no reply. I sigh and get ready for work. I had two hours of free time so I walked around ponyville for a little bit. There was a lot of stuff that went on during this early in the morning. I wasn't surprised. I mean, most of these ponies have happy lives. One's that they are afraid to lose. Thinking about this made me envy them a little bit. Especially Twilight Sparkle. I remember hearing about her become a princess. Pff, she was such an attention whore. I didn't like her. I went to work at exactly 11:30. How? I have no idea. I even got up early to do this. Snips! Applejack was not as mad at me as I thought she'd be. She just told me not to do it again and get to work. It was a slow day today. All I really thought about was the dream that I had, and in the process of doing that, I stopped a few times to think, which only allowed me to get twelve pies done. That dream I had was really weird compared to all my other nightmares. I mean, I don't usually have nightmares but when I do, its basically a pony chasing me with a knife or a chainsaw, plus I never experienced death during any of them. So, I didn't know if that dream was telling me something or not but it did creep me out. When I arrived home, I saw that Sunshower was actually not there. Which was good. I am proud that she is starting to get around more. I go upstairs and lay down on my bed. There was a envelope next to Sunshowers pillow. I slowly picked it up. On the front of the envelop it read. To: Sunshower from: pinkie The envelop wasn't opened yet. I tried my best not to open it, but my curiosity got the best of me. When I finished opening it, I heard the sound of a door opening. Snips, It was my door. I quickly hide the envelop under her pillow, and pretend to be As she got upstairs I could hear a sound that reminded me of how I felt when my mother died. Sorrow. I hated that feeling. To me, the feeling was just uncalled for. What does being sad have to do with life at all? All of a sudden, my thought process was broke by something really wet hitting my cheek. It felt warm. I slowly open my eyes when I am suddenly bombarded with a bunch of these things. “W-why? W-why couldn't you remember?” A familiar voice said from behind me. “Why didn't you remember it was my birthday?” She said trying to wipe tears from her eyes. What she said made my heart drop. My eyes where fully open now, but somehow she still didn't notice I was awake. “I-It was her birthday.....?” I said to myself. “No wonder she wanted me to stay home today...” The feeling of guilt rushed throughout my body. I felt a hoof touch my face. “You know, your the only pony that keeps me living, and you couldn't even say happy birthday.” I myself started to feel a tear come out of my eyes. I just didn't know what to do! It sucks, how much she resembles me. I think the only reason I am crying now, is because of the fact that I know how she feels. Its like a feeling that will stick with you forever, despite the fact that you've gotten over it. “W-well, I can't blame you. If I had a role in life I would forget a worthless pony’s birthday to.” I tried to hold it in. Just a little bit longer. I knew exactly how she felt now. My memories from the past made it harder to control my emotions. I heard Sunshower steping away from the bed and walking into the bathroom. Still sobbing she got into the shower and stayed in longer than usual. As if it was automatic. My tears started to run down my face by itself. I put my hoofs on my face and just cried for the next few minutes. After about an hour, Sunshower was in the bed, and I needed to walk. Walking helped me out so much. When I walk everything made sense in life. It was like my thinking time, and right now, I really needed to walk. When I got outside the feeling of the night sky caught my eye. It was a midnight blue, the stars where well lit up, thanks to Princess Luna, and it felt warm. This is what I love about night time.