The Fear Of Leaving
I am starting to miss that shell that protected me
From this new hell.
I am not free
As far as I can tell.
It was better being in there;
At least I had somepony that actually loved me.
And even cared.
Too bad they are not here to see
My so called happiness, and life, all taken away
Again
From me today
In the end.
Her sun shines on me till I burn,
And suffer more...
Till I learn
How to teach myself how to endore.
Leaving you behind was a mistake
Can't you tell?
How much of pain do I have to take
As I sell
Away this body and sanity in me
Just so you and I could finally be free!
My mind is gone,
What've I done this time?
It's laying here, staring at the sun...
While I still hear your mellifluous hymn.
The fear of leaving controls
Everything I do; trying to
Find you
In that dark, deep, cold hole.
But I will find you someday even
If begin to fade away
Like you without a reason.
Can't you hear me calling out for you to stay?