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// Nightmares 
// Story: My Life In Ponyville 
// by Skitzo Tune 
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Authors' Note: I'm sorry about the recent chapters being a little later on coming out than the previous ones. I've been sick since New Years and it's really doing a number on me. Also I have an up coming MTG tournament in the area soon and I've been working on that too. I've also been trying to make the chapters longer so that you guys can enjoy yourselves more. Love you guys btw <3. Again sorry.


As I slept, I dreamt of what anypony could only say was a nightmare. 

I was there, with Flare and Apachie, as we flew to the hospital that never came into sight. It seemed like we were being held back by something. I looked behind us and saw nothing but darkness, creeping darkness. I could see it around our legs holding us in place. I could see it taking its' hold over Flare. I tried to fight it off, hitting nothing but smoke. The smoke went into his body which caused him to cough and cough. I looked over him trying to keep him awake, to make sure he was ok. Flare looked up at me with those sad eyes of his, tears falling, his face screaming out what his voice couldn't. I'm sorry. I couldn't find it in me to turn away. Another tear fell from his eyes. I'm so sorry. I felt like I was losing myself in those eyes, losing everything. I was losing my brother, I was losing my best friend, I was losing someone I loved with all my heart. I was losing my reason to be happy. Why couldn't I be faster?! How could I let this happen?! I promised I'd keep him safe! I could see with every cough, the black smoke went inside him faster. We were finally getting close to the hospital. I hugged Flare trying to block the smoke from getting into him. I didn't want to let go. I felt if I let go everything would just disappear. I could feel Flare growing colder and colder with every passing second. He wrapped his legs around me and continued crying into my shoulders.

"Gale?" He asked softly. "Why is it getting so dark? I'm scared of the dark. I can't see you anymore." 

I felt my heart get torn out of my chest and shred into billions of pieces. "It's ok Flare. Everything will be alright." I heard my own voice crack as I tried my best to hold back my tears. "I'm sorry I couldn't save you Flare. I'm so sorry. You trusted me to keep you safe and I failed." I could feel the tears falling from my eyes. "If only I was faster I could have caught you and none of this would have happened. I'm just so sorry Flare. I'm so sorry." The tears blocked out everything. I couldn't see Flare clearly, as if he was fading into nothing. I held on for dear life. "Don't go. Please don't go Flare. You can't just leave like this damnit I love you...."

I woke up in a cold sweat. I got up and let everything hit me. "CELESTIA DAMNIT!" I grabbed my suitcase and threw it across the room letting it hit the wall. I heard a break and saw that part of the suitcase had hit the window and broke a piece of it. I didn't care. The anger in me had taken control of my mind. I walked up to my door. I turned around and kicked the door as hard as I could. It went flying across the hallway and hit a few feet away from Apachies' room door. I was somewhat glad that Apachie was such a heavy sleeper cause when I stepped out of my room I didn't hear anything. I didn't care in all honesty. 

That nightmare was one that always came back every now and then ever since the accident. After the first few times I had the dreams I had realized that the dream was what I truly felt and what I wanted to say. Why I got so angry was because I never had a chance to tell him that I loved him. I never had the chance to tell him just how much he meant to me. I would have gladly given my own life if I could have just saved him. It always got me angry and the only pony that could ever hold me down long enough to calm down was Apachie. 

I walked over to Apachie's room and openned the door violently. I saw Apachie laying there on the floor, his face covered with pain. I looked over him. "It's my fault Gale." I heard him say. "It's all my fault."

I walked out of the room and punched the door frame of my room. I left a dent. My anger seemed to calm down a bit after seeing Apachie. I came to my senses and realized I had unhinged the door and it was sitting there next to Apachie's room. Great. Now I have to fix this damn door. I walked into the door way and as I bent down to pick up the door I heard the doorbell ring. I looked up with surprise. I figured it was around two in the morning when I looked out the window. What the hay are ponies doing awake at this time? 

I walked down the stairs and turned on the light outside and openned the door. I saw two mares standing outside with a scared look on their faces. One was a mare with a light purple/pink coat with a darker mane. The other was just a filly that looked exaclty like her but lighter shades. They were bother earth ponies. 

"Ummm is everything alright?" The older one asked. "We heard a window break and then a large crash." 

"I'm terribly sorry for disturbing your rest. That was me. I saw a rat running around and tried to get him out. I must have broke a few things in the process. I'm really so sorry for waking you up Miss..."

"Berry Punch." The older one said. 

"And I'm Pina Colada." The younger one said finally deciding to speak up. 

"She's my little sister. We're sorry for the bother. We were worried that someone had broken in. This house was empty for a while so I thought some bad ponies had come in the night and tried to take something if there was anything to take. I didn't expect anyone to be living here." Berry Punch said. 

"Oh yes. Sorry about that. My name is Red Nightingale but you can call me Gale. We just moved in here last night." I said with a smile.

"We?" Pina Colada said.

"Yes. My friend Apachie Chief is asleep upstairs. We're both going to be living here." I petted her head which she seemed to like.

"How can he be asleep after all that noise? No-o offense of course." Berry Punch said quickly.

"He's a very heavy sleeper. We were outside last night while it was raining and he didn't notice until morning." I said with a laugh. "I'm sorry for waking you and I would invite you in but we've only just moved in and I haven't anything to offer."

"Oh that's fine we were just worried is all." Berry Punch motioned Pina Colada to go back home. "Well it was nice meeting you Gale."

"The pleasure is all mine Miss Berry. Maybe once we've settled in I could invite you over for a...drink?" I said making eye contact.

Through the darkness of the night I could see the red of her face perfectly clear. I smiled at this. "I-I guess I' might tak-e you u-up on that." Berry Punch managed to stammer out.

"Good night neighbors." I winked over at Berry Punch. "Good night." 

Berry Punch blushed even more. "Goo-od Ni-ght." She said barely being able to speak.

"Good Night Mr. Gale." Pina Colada said waving. 

I waved back and went inside and closed the door behind me. I slumped down the door and face-hoofed. "Geez what the hay am I doing? And here I am trying Apachie to slow down a bit. Buck, things just can't go the way I want them to." 

I picked myself off the floor and shook everything out of my head. Too much was happening already. My dreams were coming back. I'm afraid that I'll end up hurting someone here. I can't have that. "That's why I can't let this happen." I said softly. 

I turned around and turned off the light outside. I walked up stairs and saw the door laying there on the floor. I picked it up with my mouth and moved it over to its spot in the door frame. I looked around and saw a small metal spike. I picked it up and went over to the door. The hinges weren't broken but I was missing a spike. I'll just get one later. I placed the spike in its rightful position. I tested the door. It seemed to drag a little but that was fine. I closed the door behind myself and saw the darkness that was my room. Little light was coming through the window and I can see the broken glass on the floor. I'll clean that when I wake up. I layed down to go back to sleep. I saw the picture of mom and dad looking at me. I was ashamed. I put the picture of the them face down. I turned over onto my back and stared at the ceiling and something caught my attention. There was a small door on top of the ceiling. I got up and got a better look and realized it had a latch on it. I stood up and flew over to it. I un-did the latch and pushed the door up. It lead to the roof and the beautiful night outside. Seems like my room is alot more interesting than I first thought. I sat down on the roof for a couple of minutes and let myself get some fresh air. I then went back into my room and laid down to sleep again. I fixed the picture of my parents and said sorry. I soon began to fall asleep knowing that no matter what happened I would never be happy ever again because I failed to save someone I loved. The thought brought tears to my eyes and I fell asleep knowing that I could never bring myself to try and be happy. 

I'm so sorry Flare.I love you.

I dreamt over her this time. I saw her beautiful face, one of pure happiness when we first me. I saw her beautiful face, one of pure sadness when I left. The look on her face killed me inside. I only wanted her to have somepony as good as she was. As perfect as she was. And she deserved it. I just wasn't good enough for her. I had too much "baggage". I could never make her happy. I wanted to think that she didn't have those feelings for me. But I wanted her to because I had the same feelings for her. I hated myself for making her fall for me. I knew that I couldn't make her happy but being around her made Me happy. I was fighting a war inside my heart. It was between my happiness and her happiness. I soon realized I loved her too much to not have her happy. I still love her and it breaks my heart to know that after what I did I can never see her again. But I guess that it's for the best. I just wish I could have explained why...she wouldn't understand...but atleast she'd know why I did what I did. 

I'm so sorry Octavia. I love you. 

I woke up the next morning in tears. I looked around and saw the sun coming over the horizon. It didn't seem like my mind wanted to let me rest at all. I got on my feet and saw the glass on the floor. I'm so destructive. I fell back on my flank and broke down. I didn't make any noise but I felt every bit of pain come up from inside. I was toying with the hearts of everypony I met so far. I couldn't save my own brother. I couldn't make the mare I love happy. I hurt anypony who tries to get close to me. 

I really am the worst pony out there.