After Pinkie Pie nearly neutered me I followed the girls to Rarity's house. Apparently she was the fashionista around these parts. As we walked I was being stared at from all directions their eyes were glued on me. I was getting extremely uncomfortable; being the center of attention is definitely something I never want to be. I just played cool and looked ahead not paying any attention to them. It was a short walk to the Carousel Boutique the building had many bright colors on it and was fairly large.
"Paul why don't you stay out here with Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash go get Applejack, I'll go get Rarity." Twilight said and at that they disbanded leaving us here alone.
"Alright sounds good." I said as I sat on the ground. I already knew very well where this was going. Awkward silence.
"So..nice weather out huh?" I said immediately face palming myself in my mind.
"Oh yes it is a very nice day outside." Fluttershy said sitting next to me.
"So are Pinkie Pie's parties good?" I asked.
"Yes they are really fun it is her talent after all," said Fluttershy.
"So do you like the night too?" I asked even though I had no idea what I was doing.
"Yes but sometimes the dark can be scary." She said.
"The only thing to fear is what lies behind the dark. Normally I enjoyed the dark it was a place where I could just be alone and not have to be seen." I said looking down at the ground between my legs.
"Oh come on Rarity your work can wait you have to meet him." Twilight said though the opened door of the Boutique.
"Alright I will is he your special somepony I have never seen you so excited for me too me another stallion before,” asked Rarity.
"No he’s actually not even from this planet, and you know I don't have time for a special somepony I need to focus on my studies," Said Twilight.
“Well then why don't you show me this alien,” was all she said as she looked at me and froze in her tracks.
“Hi my I’m Paul and I suppose you must be Rarity?” I said trying to put on a good face so she wouldn’t be terrified of me.
“Oh, yes hello Paul and yes I am Rarity.” She said partially out of her state of shock.
“It’s a pleasure to meet you.” I said putting on my best smile.
“Looks like Rainbow Dash is here, perfect timing too,” Said Twilight.
“Alright what’s this I hear about some alien?” Said the one I assume to be Applejack.
“Yeah that would be me nice to meet you.” I said waving my hand.
“I can’t say I've ever seen anyone like you around these parts,” said Applejack.
“Well I am quite different from anyone here I can see,” I said.
“Hey maybe we should head over to the party it’s getting kind of late and I’m sure the party is set up by now,” said Twilight.
So we did a short but awkward walk. None of us really talked at all. I could still feel the eyes of passing by strangers slicing through me like a hot knife through butter. If they had a question they could just ask but I felt if I told them that it would be endless questioning. I’ll just let ask me on their own time. Before long we arrived at Sugarcube Corner. The excessive use of bright colors is very strange here and especially the designs of the houses. The inside didn't look much different. As soon as I walked in I was greeted by Pinkie Pie screaming in my face.
“ SURPRISE!” She screamed as streamers and confetti went everywhere.
“Oh thanks Pinkie this looks really nice I can’t thank you enough.” I said pulling a goofy smile as she got dangerously close to my face.
“ Don't you worry about thanking me just have fun!” She exclaimed obviously overly excited to be throwing a party for an ‘alien’.
“Alright will do,” I said as I looked around the place did look great even though I wasn't a fan of parties I had to admit it was nice.
I grabbed a cupcake and some water and walked around for a bit. I found a nice empty table and sat there. Being 6’4 was making me feel like a giant even while sitting down. But still I tried my best to just piece together the events of this day together. I sat there staring at my hands and fiddling with my thumbs until I felt a light poke on my back it was Fluttershy.
“Hi I saw you were sitting alone and I was wondering if you wanted someone to talk to. If you don’t that’s okay I will just go,” said Fluttershy.
“No I would love to have you sit here with me here take a seat.” I said as I pulled out a chair for her.
“Oh thank you,” said Fluttershy as she sat down next to me at the table.
“So what did you want to talk about?” I asked growing curious as to why she wasn’t having fun with all of her friends.
“I wanted to ask you why you were sitting here by yourself,” she said looking towards me.
“I was never good around new people I always just stayed back and watched them do whatever it was like that for most of my life,” I said.
“Well I was like that to and still am shy.” She said trying to relate to me in a way.
“Yeah I know what you mean I never really had that many friends either I just picked them wisely and watch them come and go,” I said.
“I only have the other five girls and they’re all I really need,” she said.
“I agree you six all have an amazing relationship that not even death can split apart, you know Fluttershy the more I get to know you the more I can see how we are alike.” I said realizing this was very true in more than one way.
“Oh well I never really realized that until now,” she said.
“Fluttershy I'm having a really great time talking to you but do you think that I could go walk around for a bit?” I asked already knowing the answer but just wanting to go.
So I got up and walked around and found exactly what I was hoping for the back exit door. I slowly opened it and walked outside the back. It was really dark outside I liked this. I found a nice spot on the grass and pulled out my IPod. The fact that full battery power left amazed me. I opened it and flipped to music and turned on The Album Leaf-Windows. This song has no words not a single one but yet it speaks to me like some don't and simply can’t. I sat looked up at the moon and its beauty. As I listened to the song I remembered all of the good and bad times I had and as the song progressed the more these memories flooded my mind. I realized I was crying. I forced myself to stop. I always viewed the ones who could cry as strong and not afraid to show how they feel. I was not strong at all and did not deserve such a title. There are far more deserving people then me. In fact I deserve none of this.(A/N Start playing this )
None of this new chance at life I had been given. None of these friends I have made. I deserve nothing. I don’t deserve Fluttershy giving me a home a party the only thing I deserve is this swollen lip. As I sat there I started to tear up but this time I made no effort to stop them. As I started to remember the time of my childhood my father beating me and my mother and when it was my mother’s turn make me watch. As the vivid memory of a boy sitting there tears welling up in his face begging him to stop but he just kept going, and even the time on my own birthday yelling at me for his problems. I started to sob and run my fingers through the dirt remembering how I had to grow up fast how I had no childhood. The times when I was still in my mother’s womb and he yelled at her so much she walked around the streets for hours sobbing. By this time I was shaking violently and sobbing but not so loud enough for anyone to hear. But still she heard me and she was right there beside me.I just kept thinking to myself why does she care.I tried to speak but the mirth forming in my mouth did not allow me.I just sat there with her.The only thing I felt was her warm embrace.I muttered the words thank you and she continued her warm tender embrace.The longer her embrace went on the more the song played I could feel these memories and the pain leaving me.I returned the hug and let my heart speak.
"T-thank you for this i-it means more than you could ever know Thank you!" I exclaimed through small gasp and stuttering.She just slowly caressed my hair by this I knew she was saying it's alright you're going to be fine.No other words were spoken that night.