"I'm here Doctor, sorry I'm late." said Luna as she quickly entered the small living room, the brown earth pony was in the middle of eating a banana in an extremely suggestive manner, causing Luna to giggle slightly.
"Oh no you didn't princess, why I thought you were better than to think something like that." said the Doctor as he ate the banana in one quick bite and quickly disposing of the shell.
"Though it's nice seeing you smile for a change, you look so much better when you do so. I presume you had a good day's rest right?" asked the Doctor as he began searching for the recorder, Luna's face was filled with a blush as she looked away from the Doctor.
"Sit down and tell me about it, afterwards we'll go on with the usual your majesty." said the Doctor as he found his recorder, he prepared the couch for the princess to lie down in it and got a chair for himself.
Before I go on with what happened yesterday, I think I might've left a few loose ends from my last story. I woke up in the morning with my sister holding me in her embrace, the sun was in the sky so I guessed she lowered the moon for me and raised the sun. At the thought I became ashamed Doctor, my feelings should in no way be an excuse to avoid my duty as a princess.
Anyway, I snuck out from her hug and began looking at the drawings on the wall with more interest. I still remember when we did them, those were darker times in which Discord ruled over the land, not only did we use to play in the cave... but we also hid from him in here. Many of our drawings represented a hope for a better Equestria, the will of ponies to overcome chaos and give way to an era of harmony and friendship.
Childish dreams that are now the foundation of our society.
Though many of the drawings were crude and foallike, there was one that was expertly made. It depicted all three of us, standing in front of the statue of the defeated Discord, half of the painting was filled with sunlight while the other half was filled with moonlight. All of us were smiling, finally being able to bring harmony back to the land, I think that was one of the happiest days of my life; as I watched I couldn't help but feel a familiar tugging sensation in my heart... one I used to feel when I was close to him.
I felt a hoof touching my shoulder, I turned around to see Celestia giving me a small smile. I tried returning one but barely managed to do so, the events of last night catching up to me. I gently removed her hoof and looked at her shamefully, thinking she would be angry due to my persistance last night. Instead of a glare or just a neutral look, she looked at me with a wide smile as she pulled me into yet another hug.
"I'm sorry for what I said Luna... I had no right to tell you who to love... can you forgive me?" asked Celestia as I felt a tear making contact with me, I made my sister cry? Why was she apologizing? She just said what needed to be said, I'm no longer a little filly and I shouldn't be pursuing dreams that I know I will never achieve.
"I can't... you have nothing to apologize for. You're right Tia, no matter how I look at it, I'm just trying to live an impossible dream." I said as I began stroking her with my hoof, She quickly pulled apart and looked at me in the eyes with an expression that radiated extreme determination.
"Luna, even if you love a dead pony. I'll always support you and you shouldn't change your way of thinking just to please me." said Celestia. Now I have known my sister for a long time and I knew that she was really serious about this, was she telling me that I need to follow my dreams? Even if they're completely illogical and impossible?
"We're a family Luna, and even if you never find your special somepony... I'll always be here for you." said Celestia as I felt more tears fall on me, this time they came from me.
He said those exact same words before he died, if I had known that I would never see him again.I would've told him; I didn't care if his wife would've killed me, I would've told him how I felt.
"I'll always be here for you my moonlight."
"Would you like to stop Luna, err I mean your majesty.?" asked the Doctor as he handed her a tissue, she had already begun to cry and the Doctor was very unsure as to what to do.
"N-no... I need to tell you, I can't keep this to myself any longer, and please... call me Luna." said Luna in a broken voice as she dried her tears with the tissue. After a small amount of time she had finished drying her tears, the Doctor was waiting patiently for her to finish crying. Then slowly but surely, she kept on speaking.
Afterwards we just went back to the castle and acted as if nothing had ever happened. I told the elements I had very important matters to speak with Celestia and that I was sorry for missing out on the celebration. It wasn't a lie, it was just an incomplete truth.
It's not something I like, but it's better than telling them the truth. There's no sense having them worry so much over me about something that can't be changed.
Of course I didn't feel fully satisfied, I still kept the flower he gave me so many years ago, I still cried in the nights I spent alone. Even with all the precautions I took, Celestia took notice of my condition, and she didn't like it one single bit. To tell you the truth Doctor, I entered a deep depression, terrible thoughts began to plague my mind. Thoughts of joining my love on the other side... ending my immortality and leaving everything behind....
I have a weak will, and I know it. I would've never gone through with it and I will probably never do it.
I still think there's some other way, I still believe we will get our happy ending.
Now on to yesterday, I arrived at home after telling you the story. To tell you the truth I was feeling much lighter and for the first time in the last three months, I felt as if I was released from something holding me back. However, I wasn't able to foresee what was waiting for me at the castle, I had arrived close to midnight so I suspected that Celestia would be sleeping already. I quietly entered my sleeping quarters in hope of getting a quick nap before having to lower the moon again when Celestia turned on the light and gave me a really grave look.
"You're late." she said as she began slowly walking towards me. I didn't cower and instead stood in front of her head on, it isn't as if I did something wrong, coming to visit you. When she was just one step away from me she finally asked where I was, I opened my mouth to answer her but instead of hearing words coming out of my mouth I heard laughter. It was an outburst... something that happened completely on instinct and I felt terribly embarrassed for doing it.
"I don't see what's so funny Luna." said Celestia with a forced frown, or at least it seemed very forced to me since the corners of her mouth were rising. I tried to calm down and succeeded to some extent. I told her the truth, I told her that I went to Ponyville to clear my mind about the events three months ago, of course I couldn't tell her about you yet or else she might get the wrong idea and insist on calling you on some royal business and then she would simply ask you if you're my coltfriend.
That wouldn't be a pretty sight for either of us, still she pressured me to know if I had moved on and decided to get somepony else for a change. She kept on all day while I was trying to sleep, I did my best to ignore her and I succeeded to some extent. The only bad thing is that I didn't sleep so well and some of the things she said were rather... um... personal?
"And that's why I didn't have such a good day's sleep." said Luna as her cheeks were filled with a blush. The Doctor couldn't help but smile at the last comment she made.
"That wouldn't be a pretty sight for any of us, I'm not the kind of pony that likes to deal with a royal summoning. Much less a very curious ruler that thinks of me in that way." said the Doctor as he stroked his chin with his hoof.
"Why? Do you fear my sister and I?" asked Luna with newfound curiosity. The Doctor began smiling as he was in the middle of a great memory, for a moment he spaced out and just looked at the wall as he smiled.
"The last time I dealt with royalty, I might've gotten myself just the tiniest bit exiled." said the Doctor as he smiled sheepishly, Luna's eyes opened wide with interest. Besides the fact that he was a doctor she didn't know anything else about this rather peculiar pony.
"That's a story for another day Luna, we're here to listen to you." said the Doctor as he grabbed a muffin he had nearby and began to eat it hungrily. Luna was still curious about his exile but decided that pressing him further now would do no good. Besides, she still wanted to speak with him about their first meeting.
"You're right Doctor, I'll tell you how I met him." said Luna to the Doctor.
As I told you before Doctor, I met him exactly one thousand three hundred and seventy three years ago, at the time Equestria wasn't the land you live in right now. It doesn't even compare to the small utopia of chaos Discord created in a day, it was the same but yet at the same time so much worse than you could imagine.
Everypony was discorded, that was a general rule passed on by Discord himself. I think that was the only rule that buffoon ever made and the only one he tried to follow to the bone.
There was nearly no water in the land, even though he constantly gave us chocolate rain to restore our energy... it could only do so much to restore our thirst. The same went for the cotton candy clouds, we were trapped in a permanent state of perpetual hunger and thirst. But we remained alive... I think it was mainly due to Discord's magic.
The world of course was plunged in madness, ponies walked backwards and entered their homes through the roof instead of using the door. The land was filled with hate, one minute it was daytime and the next one it was nighttime. Ponies were sad, they had lost hope for a better future and had resigned to simply surviving in that pathetic excuse for a life.
My sister and I had been abandoned by our discorded parents, usually little ponies had to wait until the age of 7 to be discorded. According to the god of chaos, it was an age in which all ponies had enough memories to remember how they used to be.
Being abandoned was a common sight in Equestria, families were a thing of the past... and so was friendship, for the majority of the ponies at least.
Celestia wasn't only my older sister, she was my best friend, she was my teacher, she was my mother, she was my everything. She was my day and my night, the last shred of sanity that remained in my world. In the days in which I couldn't find food she would give up hers, the days in which the water was almost gone she would fly until she found a pond and then she would return for me, take me there and wait until I was completely full before drinking herself.
She went through so much for me... and all I did to pay her back was... betrayal. How could she do it? After giving her entire being, her life to a single pony, and then getting stabbed in the back like that. How could she keep on living? I still can't live with myself for commiting such a stupid act! I betrayed the trust and love of the one pony who loved me above anything else, even more than her own life.... I took everything she gave to me and broke it in front of her eyes!
"Luna!" yelled the Doctor as she grabbed the princess; she had started to yell obscenities in the air about her. The Doctor held her in place, preventing her from trying to do anything stupid.
"I hurt her! I hurt her! I hurt her!" yelled Luna between sobs as she tried to break free from the Doctor, for being such a small pony she had to admit that he was strong and didn't waver his grip once.
"Luna! Don't do this to yourself, ponies make mistakes all the time! Those mistakes make us who we are... they teach us about life and how to live it! Stop punishing yourself like this!" said the Doctor as he kept her pinned to the couch. It took a long time, much longer than last time but she managed to calm down again. She was now sobbing softly, the Doctor finally got off her and sat back down in the couch, an expression of sadness etched in his face.
"I'm sorry.... sorry...." said Luna between sobs as she looked at the Doctor's face.
"Keep on going." said the Doctor with no emotion on his voice. "Try to tell it in one piece."
"Where's the fun in not knowing how you used to be?" is what Discord told me when I questioned him about discording ponies at such a young age.
We were on the run, only 3 days remained until Celestia was old enough to be discorded. My sister and I had decided we would escape from this fate. Being alicorns made it close to impossible to keep ourselves hidden, we stood out like evil would on Equestria. Nearly every discorded pony was linked to Discord and only they had food and slight amounts of water; we were constantly forced to reveal ourselves though he still wasn't on the lookout for us.
When the day arrived, it was a completely different story.
"Hurry Luna! They're nearly on us!" said Celestia as we flew swiftly above the lone plains that would later become Ponyville, we had been flying for what seemed like hours and the elite pegasi squadron was still hot on our trail. They were the best fliers ever to set a hoof on Equestria, a simple five pony formation for effectivness. They were relentless and never allowed anypony to escape them, not even their families. Even though we were young and therefore they should've caught us hours ago, we could use magic while in the air and that gave us the greatest advantage anypony could ask.
Even with all of that, they proved to be a tough obstacle to overcome, they received energy from Discord himself and he never tired. My sister and I on the other hand, we did get tired due to our tender age and lack of training on the magic and flying department.
"I'm flying as fast as I can sister! I... I don't think I'll make it!" I said to her, being smaller than her meant that I had to fly like a pony 3 years older than me with close to no training, considering the circumstances I was doing pretty good. Celestia started looking around the plains desperately for a place to lose them, she managed to spy a small forest below us. What was weird about it was its normality, it was just a regular old forest... a bit creepy looking from above I will admit but it was normal.
"Follow me Luna, I have a plan." said Celestia as she flew at the forest at an alarming speed, I followed behind her at the same pace. My heart was beating like mad at that moment, my mind had reached its limit... out of the corner of my eye I saw two pegasi surround me by my sides, looking at me with those grey lifeless eyes. Devoid of love or any other positive emotion for that matter.
"End of the road princess." said one of the pegasus in Discord's voice, he raised his hoof and was ready to bring it down upon me when several things happened at the same time.
First of all, the two pegasus crashed into the trees. They had been so distracted with me that they failed to see what was in front of them.
Second of all, I crashed into the ground... hard. As I made contact with the ground I felt as many bones in my body broke simultaneously and I think one of my wings broke too. The amount of pain overwhelmed my senses and left me numb on the ground, unable to move the slightest part of my body with the exception of my eyes. To be honest I can't remember Doctor, but I'm sure I also broke both of my wings, The thing I was facing happened to be a small hut with smoke coming out of it. I saw my sister knocking the door desperately, begging for anypony to open the door.
While she was doing that, I had lost the sense of touch in nearly all of my body. All I felt was my head throbbing in pain... in those moments I only wanted the pain to go away... I was starting to feel sleepy Doctor, that was one of the moments in which I stared at death in the eye.
And believe me Doctor, being so young and so close to death changes the way you think about life. I think that's the reason I've been unable to take away my life Doctor; I'm glad I have it.
This part is what Celestia remembers, after knocking quickly a seemingly discorded colt opened the door. At first she was scared and was prepared to fight till the death in order to protect me, but upon closer inspection she saw that his mane still retained color.
"Please... help us." said Celestia with tears in her eyes, she told me that the colt looked over her and saw me in the ground. Even now I still don't have the courage to ask her just how terrible was my condition, she told me that the squadron was circling the forest and that the two members had already recovered by the time in which he reached me.
As I was closing my eyes I managed to get one last look at our saviour, from afar he seemed just like any other discorded pony; grey and devoid of color, but when he approached I saw that his mane and tail did have a color, green and blue. I smiled goofily at him and whispered in what my sister would say was "An angelic voice."
"Pretty... colors..."
I passed out seconds later, in the middle of what is now known as the Everfree Forest.
Author's 2nd note: There will be more conversation outside the story in the next chapter, meaning the Doctor will finally be able to give her some advice.