It Still Hurts

by Mashed Potatoes


An Accident

I never wanted this to happen
No one did
You were my hero
My captain
My friend

I didn't think
Didn't think when I called your name
Didn't think you would lose focus
Didn't think you would crash
Didn't think you would fall

I can't undo the past
I can't bring you back
I can't apologise for taking away a leader
Taking away an idol
Taking away a fiancé
Taking away a sister
Taking away a friend

I remember when they rushed you to the hospital
I remember when they tried to bring you back, and failed
I remember when the gave the news

"I'm sorry" The doctor said. No. No! This can't be happening!
"NO!! She can't be dead! Not now! I never apologised! I never said goodbye!" Soarin comforted Fleetfoot as she was screaming.
"I'm sorry..." I said with tears in my eyes.
"This is all YOUR FAULT! If you hadn't been so careless I would still have a sister! Now she's gone forever!!' Blaze yelled to my face.
Misty Fly and Surprise was trying to calm her down. "It's okay Crash, it was an accident. Look I'm sorry Blaze is acting irrational. I think everyone is right now" Misty Fly said to me, looking at Fleetfoot, who was now thrashing about. Blaze was right. It was my fault...

When I was little
I used to look up at the sky
With hope
With happiness

Now I look up
Knowing I took a soul

It wasn't your time
I should have fallen
I should've been in that coffin
I should've been the one that was gone forever

Now you're gone
And I can't bring you back

I hope you can forgive me
I hope you can finally rest in peace
I know that I never will

And someday, I will get to see you again
To say sorry
To express my regret
To get punished

To get punished for my foolishness
To get punished for my carelessness
To get punished for my ignorance

I will never be the same
No one ever will
No one could ever replace you

And as I'm standing here upon your grave
I wonder
Will you ever forgive me?