"Rainbow Dash!? Are you ok?" Fluttershy sobbed, as she began to feel her own eyes dripping water. Rainbow Dash just stayed where she lay, not responding to Fluttershy. However, this didn't stop the yellow pony from continuing to run towards her.
"Go away Shy. Please..." Rainbow Dash muttered. Fluttershy stopped where she stood, her mouth opening wide as she tried to get over what Rainbow Dash had just said to her.
"Wha... what did you say?" Fluttershy asked, hoping that the cyan Pegasus was only joking. Sadly, this proved not to be the case.
"I said, go away, Fluttershy," repeated Rainbow Dash, with slight annoyance in her voice. Fluttershy shook her head, not wanting to listen to what she was being told.
"N-no, no. No, I don't wanna go Rainbow..." Fluttershy told the rainbow-maned pony who lay on the ground in front of her. Fluttershy continued to rush towards her friend, feeling extremely distraught about her. Fluttershy instantly dropped onto the ground, so that she was level with Rainbow Dash. She began to slowly caress her rainbow mane, but Rainbow just pushed her hoof away.
"Please Shy, just go.... I want to be alone..." Rainbow Dash grumbled, still crying lightly into her forelegs. Fluttershy started shaking, becoming really scared about her friend. She crawled right up next to Rainbow Dash, nuzzling her face into her neck. Rainbow Dash shivered slightly at the sudden contact, but she didn't force Fluttershy off.
"Rainbow, please tell me... what's up?" Fluttershy complained, feeling herself want to burst into full-on tears, "Please Dashie, I'm really scared about you... You seem really upset, and... I-I don't l-like it..." Rainbow Dash winced, feeling herself becoming more and more distressed at the situation.
'Come on Rainbow Dash, you're gonna have to speak to her,' Rainbow Dash told herself, trying her best to calm herself down, 'She's really worried about ya. Seriously, just do it, don't hide your feelings from her like this. You... you can trust her.' The cyan Pegasus was really beginning to panic. Rainbow Dash let out a big sigh, then moved her head up from her forelegs. She turned her head to face Fluttershy. The yellow pony noticed how red Dash's eyes were. Fluttershy cringed slightly, unsure of how to feel. Rainbow Dash sniffed, as she began to speak.
"Listen, Fluttershy..." Rainbow Dash began. Fluttershy instantly leaned in closer, to hear everything her marefriend had to say. "I've uh, I've been having a bit of a, rough time... these past few hours. I've been crying my eyes out, as you can probably see..." Rainbow Dash pointed to her blood-shot eyes, to which Fluttershy's shaking increased. She put a foreleg around Rainbow Dash, as said pony continued her conversation.
"Sooo, I've been trying to get over my little 'incident' at the party... You know, me getting seriously drunk, and then kissing you in front of everyone." Fluttershy nodded, taking every word in. "And... I will admit, I feel really embarrassed about it - I really do.... I wish I could go back and stop that from happening..." The two ponies were getting completely soaked in the rain. Fluttershy wasn't really one who liked getting wet. But, Rainbow Dash instantly opened up one of her wings and put them above Shy's head. The timid mare looked at the cyan Pegasus with big eyes, to which she responded by giving a small, but also sad smile. Fluttershy tried to manage a smile of her own, but failed miserably.
"Anyway, while I've been, regretting doing what I did at the party, it's made me think of many other things I've done in the past which I, uh... regret," Rainbow Dash continued, to which Fluttershy found herself getting more scared at each sentence that she heard. She'd never heard Rainbow Dash speak to her about things like this before, especially not with her thinking those things.
"Rainbow..." Fluttershy tried to speak, but Rainbow Dash cut her off. She put a hoof to her mouth, as she spoke softly.
"Fluttershy, it's not your fault... It's not..." Rainbow Dash reassured the shy pony, although Fluttershy still continued to panic, "But, and I guess this is where it gets dark... but - I'm beginning to, *sniff* uhh, ummm *sniff* have... d-d-doubts..." Rainbow Dash felt the urge to rub her eyes into her forelegs again, but Fluttershy noticed this and quickly used her own hoof to wipe away the tears from her lover's depressed, magenta-coloured eyes.
"Dash, please, oh please don't say this... I'm begging you, no..." Fluttershy wept, feeling herself starting to be unable to hold in her sadness. Rainbow Dash wrapped a foreleg around Fluttershy, holding her tight. She didn't want to say what was on her mind, but she knew that she had to.
"I'm, I'm really sorry Flutters. I really, truly am..." Rainbow Dash explained, to which finally broke Fluttershy. The yellow pony now began to sob into the cyan pony's neck. Rainbow Dash felt a fresh batch of tears of her own, trying to make their way through her eyelids. Unfortunately, she just couldn't hold them in. Rainbow Dash leaned into Shy's large, fluffy pink mane, using it as a tissue to cry into.
Both ponies lay near the cliff of Mount Pony, both crying their eyes out. Not because they wanted to, but because they had to. For a few minutes, neither of them spoke. Apart from their sobbing, there was complete silence between the two ponies. Even when either of them wanted to speak, all that came out of their mouths was just a breathe of air, no words.
After about 10 minutes of non-stop crying, Rainbow Dash managed to continue speaking, although she had to stop constantly and have breaks - so that she could try and stop more tears from coming out of her eyes.
"I, I just don't know *sniff* why this is, happening to me. *sniff* I don't understand why..." continued Rainbow Dash, as breaking down into tears kept getting harder and harder for her. Something which usually, was very unlikely from her. "But, but... *sigh* it's, uh, been a few weeks now. I've been getting *sniff* these, umm... thoughts. Regrets. Doubts even. They've, uh... been about, me. Me, my life, and what I've done within my life."
Fluttershy gasped in horror, and Rainbow Dash knew why. However, the rainbow-maned pony didn't dare say a word. Instead, she allowed the shy Pegasus to speak.
"These... thoughts, you've been having.... please don't say they've been, horrible ones..?" Fluttershy pleaded, hoping Rainbow Dash wouldn't say the one thing she felt like she couldn't handle hearing. Dash took a deep breath, feeling really worried about speaking now. However, she knew that she'd already gotten too far into the conversation, so she couldn't back out of it now.
"Listen, Fluttershy... I've uh, I've really been thinking some... dark stuff lately..." Rainbow Dash admitted, making Fluttershy eep in fear loudly. Rainbow gulped hard, then continued. "I've been thinking, about... how worth it, is my life? What do I matter in this world? Do I even deserve to be here? *sniff* I just, I don't know what to do with myself... I haven't exactly been the perfect pony." Fluttershy wanted desperately to step in and just tell Rainbow Dash to calm down, and that she'd promise to help her, but she felt like it would just be useless.
"Let's face it Shy: I don't deserve ya. I really don't... And you don't deserve me." Fluttershy couldn't take this anymore. In her head, she had no choice, but to have her own say, on what her opinion was in this conversation.
"Rainbow, please... please don't hurt yourself or, or even worse... Pl-pleaseee, I've been through this myself... You know I have. The last thing I want is for you, for you to suffer, from the exact same thing..." Fluttershy cried, as more tears began to appear from her watery, cyan-coloured eyes. Rainbow held Fluttershy as close as she possibly could, gently rubbing her back.
"I'm sorry Fluttershy, I really am. Honest, I don't wanna feel like this..." Rainbow Dash explained, trying hard not to allow any tears creep from under her eyelids. "But, I really have been thinking, quite badly about myself... Let's think about it: I'm a lazy, dishonest, tomboyish son of a, you know what, who never plays fairly at sports, is always trying to pick fights with others... I don't even deserve to live!" Rainbow Dash's voice increased in volume on her last sentence, as she dug her head as deep into Fluttershy's fluffy, pink mane that she could.
The yellow pony resumed caressing Rainbow Dash's multi-coloured mane, although this time, Rainbow didn't shake Fluttershy's hoof off. Fluttershy felt so hurt by the words she had just heard. 'How could Rainbow think like that?' Fluttershy thought to herself, not sure how someone like Rainbow Dash could think such awful things.
"I just, I just wanna curl up and die - or even worse, jump off of this cliff and fall to my death. That's all I want to do now. I mean nothing, to anyone..." Rainbow Dash claimed, to which somewhat angered Fluttershy. She raised her head from Rainbow's neck, and stared right into her eyes.
"Dashie, you are wrong on that statement. You DO mean something to people, many people in fact..." Fluttershy argued, disagreeing with Rainbow's comment.
"*sniff* Yeah, like who?" Rainbow Dash asked, although it was sort of a silly question.
"Rainbow Dash... your parents, your friends... me. We all care about you. You know that," Fluttershy explained, to which Rainbow Dash shook her head sadly.
"How, how can you care about me Shy!? How can someone as kind as you, give a single damn about me, after what I did to you that night!?" Rainbow Dash yelled, bringing up that night where Fluttershy had self-harmed herself again. Fluttershy jumped when Rainbow Dash spoke loudly, but she didn't let the terrible thoughts of what happened 'that' night, get to her.
"Dashie, I... I know you didn't mean it..." said Fluttershy, although Rainbow Dash thought she was joking at first. However, she knew that deep down, she knew that Fluttershy was telling the truth. "I know you never meant to hurt me, and... and I was silly to think that all of the mean comments that I'd heard from the mean bullies were actually true. I know now, as my psychiatrist said, that I am important, that I'm not a failure. I know I might not be perfect, and things are certainly harder for me than it would be for most other ponies. However, despite that, I should never give up at the first hurdle - I can do anything any other pony can do. Even if it does take me longer, I can do things as good as everypony else...."
Rainbow Dash felt more tears drip from her eyes, although these weren't ones of sadness - they were tears of joy. She understood everything that Fluttershy said, because it was true. Everything she said, was the truth. Fluttershy didn't exactly have it easy: she did have a smaller wingspan and wings and everything, which made a lot of Pegasi stuff much more difficult for her. Even some non-Pegasi stuff wasn't easy either, but, Fluttershy had finally realized - that she can do anything everypony else can. Sure, it may take longer, but nothing is completely impossible for her...
"It's, it's harder for me to speak to you about this because, *sniff* I've been through these same thoughts and emotions as you Dash. Believe me, it's horrible - to live your life in fear, sadness, and just wanting to do whatever it takes to end your life, right at that moment. But, but that's not what you should do, if you encounter any problems in life. Dr. Shrink told me that, I should never be afraid to ask for help... and from now on, I'll ask for help whenever I need it... because, I know I can succeed in life." Fluttershy paused for a moment, turning away from Rainbow Dash for a moment. When she looked back at Dash, her eyes were starry.
"And... and, and I love you... Rainbow Dash. I need you, I need you to be by my side, to help me through thick and thin... I care about you, an awful lot, and that'll never change, no matter what. How I feel for you, is unlike how I feel for any other pony." Fluttershy felt like crying again, but Rainbow Dash wiped her eyes with her hoof. She rolled onto her back, and held Fluttershy's head in her hooves. Rainbow's eyes also began to become starry, as a small red blush started to appear.
"You, you really know how to talk to other ponies, don't ya?" Rainbow Dash explained, making Fluttershy giggle slightly. A pink blush began to appear on her face. "You know Fluttershy, you're right. You really are. No one is perfect, I guess I have to realize that, whether I like it or not... I know things haven't been easy for you, and you don't deserve to have life be difficult for you. You deserve to have the greatest, most calmest, and most happiest life ever. Because, you... you are a good person Shy. My only friend, aside from Gilda, who perhaps I should get into contact again sometime... My only true friend in Flight Camp. I was always there for you, and you were always there for me."
Fluttershy felt her own tears of joy pouring out of her eyes. Fluttershy managed a small smile, which made a smile grow on Rainbow's face. "I care about you an awful lot too Flutters, and that isn't going to change. Not now, not tomorrow, not in a years time, not ever. You mean, so much to me... I don't know what I'd do without ya in my life..." Fluttershy's blush increased.
"We all make mistakes sometimes Dashie, believe me - I've made my own mistakes..." Fluttershy admitted, having a quick vision of ripping out her feathers on her wings, "But, as long as we learn to not dwell on those mistakes, and we move on... then everything will be alright in the end." However, Dash's small began to turn sad again.
"The thing is, Fluttershy, I really can't forgive myself for yelling at you like I did that night. It really haunts me..." Rainbow Dash confessed, which Fluttershy felt a slight sense of worry kick back in again. "I made you feel like ripping the feathers out of your wings was right. It wasn't... Problem is Shy, what upsets me the most isn't the fact that you actually did it - it's the fact that it was because of me that you were doing it... I have these nightmares occasionally, where you actually did, you know... end it..... It's horrible." It made sense to Fluttershy why Rainbow Dash felt so hurt by those events, but the timid mare didn't want it to bother her no more.
"Rainbow, don't hold a grudge against yourself for that night. It's not right - I don't want to see you suffer like this because of it..." Fluttershy told Rainbow Dash. The cyan Pegasus tried to look more calm, although thining about her 'nightmares' probably wasn't the best way of doing so. "Besides, if things get too much for you, I can always give Dr. Shrink a call... He's helped me, Dashie. I don't see why he wouldn't help you." Rainbow felt happiness beginning to return again.
"P-perhaps you're right..." Rainbow Dash agreed, smiling once more. "I guess, I guess that if I feel myself sinking down... I can get the help I need. ...The help you got. The help which allowed you to feel more confident and happier in yourself." Fluttershy began to feel a sense of joy fill her.
"Don't worry Dash, I'll help you through this," Fluttershy vowed, putting a hoof to her heart, "You helped me when I went through this... it's only fair I do the same for you..." Rainbow Dash shook the thoughts of Shy's death away. It was clear that the yellow pony wasn't going to allow her to hurt herself. Something which Rainbow Dash was relieved at.
"...I forgive you for that night Rainbow Dash, because I feel so strongly for you. I know how much I mean to you, especially now. We were alone around pre-school without each other. Not seeing you there, would make me sad. Seeing you there, would make me happy. ...I forgive you, because I've learned to forgive and forget. Even if it isn't easy to do so, it's still something you need to remember to do... I also forgive you because... I, I... I love you." A single tear appeared in Rainbow's left eye.
"I... I love you too, Fluttershy..." Rainbow Dash said softly, as she leaned up into Fluttershy's face, connecting her lips together. Rainbow pulled herself into a sitting position, while still connected to Fluttershy. The yellow pony did the exact same thing. They both held their hooves on each others faces, as they continued to kiss. They both felt their wings shoot open. Occasionally, both of them would moan softly, whenever the kiss got more passionate (which it was near enough, the whole time). Without warning, Rainbow Dash tried to sneak her tongue into Shy's mouth. The timid mare however, gladly accepted the 'visitor'.
Before they knew it, both of them were wrapping their tongues around each other, as they both began to really get into the kiss. After about a minute of being inside Fluttershy's mouth, the yellow pony decided to wriggle her tongue into Dash's mouth. Within no time at all, their tongues were doing the kissing for them again.
Rainbow Dash pulled away quickly, although her lips still hovered over Shy's. Both of them had their eyes half-open, while they breathed each other's air. "Your lips, are sooo soft Shy..." teased Rainbow Dash, to which Fluttershy chuckled quickly. As seductively as her bravery could muster, Fluttershy decided to have her own 'fun' with the rainbow-maned Pegasus.
"I never realized how sweet your lips tasted, Dashie..." whispered Fluttershy in a seductive voice. Rainbow Dash continued to smile, as she noticed how her marefriend was really enjoying this attention. After Fluttershy finished speaking, they connected their lips together once more...
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After about 5 minutes of non-stop kissing, the two ponies finally pulled away from each other, while they still held their heads in each other's hooves. Fluttershy & Rainbow Dash both stared into each other's eyes, as they glistened brightly within their own.
"I love you, Flutters... I mean it," Rainbow Dash told Fluttershy, who began to giggle again.
"Well, I... I really love you too, Dashie... And I always will," Fluttershy admitted, as the two still continued to look at each other. After a minute of being lost in each other's eyes, Rainbow Dash removed her hooves from Fluttershy and stood up. She helped the timid mare to get up, as she then kept a hold of one of her hooves. "Thank you, Rainbow Dash..." Fluttershy exclaimed happily, to which Rainbow Dash responded with a wink.
"Not a problem Fluttershy," Rainbow Dash replied, giving the yellow pony a big toothy smile, "I'd do anything for you... anything..." Fluttershy found herself laughing more at her friend's suggestive comment.
"Oh, oh please don't be so 'dirty' Dash..." joked Fluttershy, who actually liked it when Rainbow Dash spoke like 'that'.
The two looked at the beautiful view in front of them - the sight of Ponyville from so high up. Rainbow Dash decided to comment on the view.
"Ponyville looks so beautiful up here..." Rainbow Dash confessed, before quickly adding, "But not as beautiful as you." Fluttershy began to blush even more, as Rainbow Dash smirked at how her marefriend was acting.
"Oh stop it, Dashie. You just like seeing me all flustered..." Fluttershy told Rainbow Dash, laughing away to herself, "Although I'm flattered to be called beautiful."
"But you are beautiful Shy, you truly are," Rainbow Dash continued, "In fact, you're stunning, you're so adorable and cute, you're... you're..." Fluttershy felt like she could see where this was going. She bit her lip, putting on a romantic smile.
"I'm a what, Rainbow Dash?" Fluttershy asked, getting some distinct déjà vu from this situation. After all, something very similar to this had happened at the party, while Dash was drunk.
"You my friend... are not only one very, VERY naughty filly, but you, are also.... awesomely sexy..." Rainbow Dash concluded her statement, giving her own romantic smile.
Fluttershy flung herself towards Rainbow Dash, as she hugged her tightly. "I'm glad I'm with you Rainbow Dash - I feel so, special..." Fluttershy explained, to which Rainbow Dash gave an embarrassed smile.
"My pleasure Shy. As I said, I'd do anything for you," replied Rainbow Dash. After 20 seconds, Fluttershy removed her forelegs from around the cyan pony. She reached into a small bag that she placed on the floor when she came over to see Rainbow Dash when she saw her led on the floor crying. She pulled out two tickets with her mouth, to which Rainbow Dash was somewhat confused about.
"What are THOSE for?" Rainbow Dash asked, puzzled by what she was seeing.
"Well, Rarity said before I came up here that the two of us should enjoy a relaxing spa session after all this," Fluttershy explained, to which Rainbow Dash nodded.
"I would LOVE to go to the Spa with you Fluttershy," Rainbow Dash said, to which Fluttershy smiled, "After all, we probably need a spa trip after the state we got ourselves in." Fluttershy gave an embarrassed chuckle, as she remembered how upset both of them felt a while ago.
"Yeah, I was thinking the same thing too, Dashie..." Fluttershy agreed. Flutterhsy let go of Rainbow Dash's hoof and used both of her hooves to put the small, pale beige bag around her neck. She put the spa tickets back into the bag, as she then re-zipped it back up. Once she did that, she grabbed a hold of Rainbow Dash's hoof again.
"Come on then, let's go meet Rarity by the spa, then we can enjoy ourselves..." Fluttershy told Rainbow Dash, to which the rainbow-maned pony nodded excitedly.
"Yeah, I can't wait to go!" Rainbow Dash admitted, as the two began to make their way down the mountain. She shared one more quick peck on the lips, before they began to both raise into the air together.
"I love you, Dashie," Fluttershy said with a big smile. Rainbow Dash smiled back.
"I love you too, Flutters..." Rainbow Dash responded, as the two turned their eyes away from each other, and began to fly into the air. They flew slowly over to Rarity's spa, where they met Rarity, and got to go in for free (because of the tickets that Fluttershy had been given by the fashion loving pony). Once they arrived inside, they enjoyed a relaxing massage, got a face pedicure, and even enjoyed some quality time in the hot tub together. They had a lot of fun there, and as they made their way home to Fluttershy's cottage and got into Fluttershy's bed, they both decided to go again the very next day. The two of them slept happily together, enjoying each other's warmth...