Within the month, eh? · 9:10am
I had written several paragraphs of self-indulgent whining and complaining that I decided were of no use to anyone and deleted them, but then I realized that no matter how I try to do this it'll come off as whiny. Being unhappy with the status quo, I am providing an update regardless. At the end of the last one I alluded to having something for you a little over two weeks ago. I did not make a promise, so I did not BREAK a promise, but I still feel bad and at the very least you deserve to know where things stand.
I've been wasting my time and yours and that's not okay. I have many excuses, but no reasons. Lacking both confidence and certainty, I don't think I can realistically make a promise about when I'll have something done. Instead, I can pull the ultimate motivational tool/attention horse technique out and ask that you help me with an ultimatum for myself.
If by August 16th I have not either posted the first chapter of my project or a blog post here explaining that it is sitting in EqD's queue or something of the sort, I'd like you to unfavorite my stories or unwatch me. Something to take away my credibility and reputation, those meager things being all I have to lose that any of you have power over. As inconsequential as they are, they mean a lot to me and I would very much like to not lose them. It's inexcusable that I still have nothing to show you. My life is not so busy that I couldn't have found the time to write a few hundred words a day. The original idea sprouted in FEBRUARY.
Don't let me get away with this. Hold me accountable for my failure to deliver. Trust me when I tell you that I really do want to write more. Once I sit down and get going, I have a blast. It's just that for some reason, I can rarely convince myself to START.
I apologize for both the annoying content of these blog posts AND the lack of sufficient updates on either stories or my progress in the creation thereof. This way though, you either won't have to read these anymore by virtue of unwatching me or I won't have to make them anymore by virtue of being able to provide updates based on content. Whether I succeed or fail, the blog posts that I'm making now will stop showing up for you and I'll either fix my bad habits or learn a lesson about consequences. Everybody wins.