Post-Con depression is a bitch... · 8:18am Oct 23rd, 2014
It really is. I feel worse now than I did before I left. That's not to say I didn't enjoy myself! St. Louis was amazing, and I'll never forget the good times I had with Grand Moff Pony and Tommy Oliver.
But god damn it all, I hate feeling like this.
Playing League like shit, can't write, can't even think straight. And I've got a headache.
And I'm broke.
Needless to say, staring at blank gdocs for 4 hours with nothing to show leaves a sour taste in my mouth. I'm very tempted to throw in the towel and retire, as I said I'd consider with my blog post before the two-month break. But I know this is just a temporary thing, as most all my depressions are. Thus, I'm gonna take another month to sit back and reconcile. If I still feel like this in a month, I do believe I'm going to retire from writing. It's just one more thing I don't need on my plate weighing me down right now.
In one more month, I'll take a closer look at things and see where I stand. Unfortunately, this means no Cloptober.
I'm also on the brink of another blog-wipe, where I delete all but the non-essential blogs in my history.
Gah.
Fuck post-con depression.
Fuck it straight to death.
TL;DR:
-Depression sucks
-Taking another month-long break
-Blog cleanup imminent
-INB4 Madness Brony hate
Don't do it Loyal. You're an amazing writer, and your fans believe in you. We'll be willing to wait however long we need to to see another beautiful piece of your writing.
Just don't give up. We're always here for you.
Post-con depression, m8? I know that feel, it's so anti-climatic afterwards. I generally just watch some porn. And then some more porn. Oh, and maybe a side of porn. Then guess what? More porn. A few weeks of that, and I'm usually feeling much better. That's usually when I bother to write clop again.
If you need someone to talk to in the future, I'm here. As someone who suffers from Depression and is most likely going on a fourth medication for it in the near future, I'm right here for a venting wall for you. We talked before, but if you would like to get back in contact and need someone to push out your anger on, I'm here. I really am.
I just think you need someone to talk to and not stare at a blank google doc like that. Maybe get some sleep. Sleep helps me.
But have you ever considered you may have clinical depression? It's a very real possibility. A lot of creative people do, and if your depression is weeks or months long at a time, you should look into it.
I just recommend you don't stop writing period, like I did and am trying to fix as we speak for the tenth time. I stopped writing because I was a fucktard, although my own depression isn't helped by not writing. Maybe you need to stop thinking so hard and just write whatever comes to your mind. Even if it's random gibberish and makes no sense as you slam down keys onto Google Docs. Don't think about it. Just let your fingers go until all of that energy comes out of you.
What you need to realize is write because you love writing. I think you do, otherwise you would not have written as much as you have just for shits and giggles. I think you're going through a slump, and throwing in that towel won't solve your problems. I don't know what kind of hectic things are going on in your life right now, but just consider if this is a pleasure or a job for you. I think it is a pleasure, with how much you've produced over your life on here. I think if you gave this up, you would not feel better, but worse.
2550954 I have to agree. Don't let the darkness(depression) consume you. In every darkness there is a light and we, as your loyal readers, will be there to help you find it. But regardless of your decision we will support any decision you make. Its your life and we can't tell you how to live it. But we can be there to help you through the rough patches. After all were all Bronies and in the spirit of MLP:FIM that is exactly what we are here to do. Here, we're all friends and friends help each other through what ever life throws at them.
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^^What he said x100. That's one of the best things about this fandom - we stick up for each other and give help however we can.
And there is no way in heck I'm going to let a stupidly fun con weekend be the last hurrah for you as a writer. You're too good at this, and I owe you more than that anyway.
Give me a buzz today or this evening, and we'll chat. you know we're here for you anytime.
Quit your belly aching you little bitch.
I am so late to this pity party, but I just wanted to remind you that people enjoy your writing, and that I am so damn jealous that you got to go to a con!
I will more than likely never be able to attend one for numerous reasons.
I can definitely sympathize with your depression. I tend to passionately throw myself into something, be it reading a story, or playing a game, or whatever until it's over or I just burn myself out on it. The habit is terrible, and leaves me feeling empty and depressed, particularly at the end of a really good story. But there's always something else out there! I threw myself into ponies during a temporary layoff from work. I tried and failed at a little of everything creative. I still feel pent up creatively, but I feel I don't have the talent (or time!) to express it. I just "settle" for reading good fics when I have the time.
Just hang in there; take a break. Find anything else to occupy or distract you.
Good luck!
C'mon loyal. You surely don't know me (heck, i've dropped out a year ago and managed to get forgotten a bit everywhere) l, but don't let such feelings get to you. Might I add, i'm in depression too, though writing is what keeps me going.
If you've got time, I'd like to chat a bit with ya. I might not look like it, but I've been through some deep shit, and have studied some psychology. Maybe I could help you a bit? Your writting is too good to be wasted, and nobody would want you to retire. Not after all that you brought to our community, and the people who follows you.
Anyways. Good luck friend, and get whatever is deppressing you away. And sleep lots.
Hey, i'm not sure how other way i could help but, hit me up on league of legends my username is "Soul san" if you ever feel like playing sometime. Mind you I'm only gold 5.