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Pyromaniac


Back after being in a coma for four years. Call me Henry, I write about horses with multiple personalities and anxiety.

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  • 180 weeks
    I didn't disappear again, I promise

    This year sucked.

    I've just been trying to cope. I'm in and out of various kinds of episodes. Quarantine has me fucked up. The last week has me in some fucked up relapse and I've been forgetting the days. I keep have fits of rage because I can't remember what year it is. I hate this.

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  • 222 weeks
    Things slowly get easier

    My birthday is in a few weeks, and it's surreal. I'm going to be 20, but I still feel like a child. I guess that comes with the territory of lost time

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  • 223 weeks
    It's been hard

    I've been in and out of consciousness the past week. Everything's been rather hard, my schizophrenia has had a flareup and it's hard to get out of bed when I'm having delusions and hallucinations again. I haven't been in control very often the past few days, it's mostly been the adults in control, I guess

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  • 224 weeks
    Oh...

    It's 30 minutes to midnight.

    Our fiance fell asleep, so I'm totally alone.

    I've been crying nonstop, and having urges to self-harm again honestly

    This is horrible. I feel horrible

    I just want to fall asleep for a few days until I feel better...

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  • 224 weeks
    In case I don't make it to midnight

    I was really excited for the new year. Especially for the new decade, and I didn't think I would be

    ....then everyone I know had a bad new year. And people started telling me they felt awful that it was a new decade, and they missed the past, etc

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Aug
24th
2014

LISTEN UP YOU FUCKERS · 10:04pm Aug 24th, 2014

I WILL NOT BE CONTINUING MY NAME IS NIGHTMARE MOON.

I WILL NOT BE CONTINUING I'M ONLY SHY.

I WILL NOT BE CONTINUING ANY OF MY FO:E SIDEFICS.

I WILL NOT BE WRITING A SEQUEL TO YOU'LL TURN OUT OKAY.

NOTHING WILL BE UPDATED.

I DO NOT WRITE ANYMORE. I AM FOCUSING ON MY ART AND KICKSTARTING A HOPEFUL CAREER IN GAME DEVELOPMENT.

STOP ASKING ME "WHY IS X CANCELLED?" OR TELLING ME TO RELEASE ANOTHER CHAPTER.

THIS SHIT IS NOT HAPPENING AND IT'S FUCKING PISSING ME OFF.

I HAVE SHIT HAPPENING IN MY LIFE, AND I AM TOO BUSY FOCUSING ON OTHER PROJECTS TO WRITE. AND INCESSANT NAGGING DOESN'T MOTIVATE ME.

I WAS GOING TO COME BACK, BUT NOW I'M AFRAID WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I GET EVEN MORE POPULAR.

I AM NOT PUTTING UP WITH THIS SHIT. ONE MORE FUCKING MESSAGE LIKE THAT, AND EVERYTHING GETS DELETED.

HAVE A GOOD FUCKING DAY. PYRO OUT.

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Comments ( 18 )

Lesson one in game development: learn good PR. Talking in all caps and swearing every sentence is not how you get positive attention in the industry. You're acting like an even more self-righteous version of Phil Fish. At least he didn't go on an all caps rage.

My advice is if you want to be a game developer, get off your high horse and humble yourself. Majorly. Hell, continue writing even, because it teaches you to multitask. You will have to learn to focus on multiple little things at a time, like going back and forth between five projects at a time while balancing your social life, professional life (if it's not your job), and personal hobbies. Right now I'm going through college, work, writing, and getting back into using my Wacom all while doing game design as a hobby until I can start making enough scratch from it to actually afford a better life.

You are the reason why I hate it when people stare wide-eyed and talk about their over-ambitious dreams of being a game developer.

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This was several months of pent-up rage that was just waiting to blow up. I'm not on a high horse, I'm just sick of constantly having people demanding more chapters when I flat out state I have not had motivation to.

I don't see how I'm being self-righteous. This is a plain as day "I am not writing anymore" so people can stop asking why I don't update.

Good PR? Humbling myself? Multitasking? That's literally my entire life. Sometimes I rage. That's human. But yeah, being human is the worst thing anyone can ever do, though.

Wow, no need to be a dick about it dude. Good luck to that career of yours.

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Do you know how many times people have asked me to continue DESPITE THE FACT THAT I EXPLICITLY STATE I CAN'T?

*Sighs* But thanks...

2398241 Thats why you be the bigger man and ignore the ones trying to get a reaction out of you.

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It wasn't malicious, it was people who just couldn't take a hint.

Good luck with the developer job :pinkiehappy: :scootangel:

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Thanks, man! I'm hoping to start working hard now, so I'm really good when it's time to get a job or even go to college.

2398393 :eeyup: Would you believe I have some plans (not quite worked out yet :twilightblush:) to be an animator?

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Rock on, man! Animation was my original choice, but I switched to game dev because I love the challenge.

2398476 Yeah, I'm planning to go into either game design further down the road (when I have more experience), and in the mean time try and get my foot in the door in the industry...but, I digress, that's a while from now.

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I know what you mean. I got four more years, though that won't stop me from trying as hard as I can.

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That radioactive symbol fills me with inspiration.

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Writing normally didn't drill it into their heads hard enough.

While I am not aware of the details of what has transpired here, I wish you Godspeed in your efforts towards accomplishing your lifes goals. Game development from what Ive heard is not always easy, therfore I wish you well and hope you succeed.

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Pretty much, there was a rant fic I had written, and people loved it so much they kept sending me message after message to continue, although I said I do not want to continue it, and I am physically incapable of doing so, too.

And thank you so much. I understand I may come off as a brat here, and I'm really, truly not, but thank you for being kind anyway.

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