A Brick Wall · 7:56am Mar 27th, 2014
That's what it feels like right now. Like I'm hitting a brick wall as hard as I possibly can, and have been for the past three days, without making so much as a chip.
Ugh, this chapter for Cheated Dreams is absolutely destroying me, which really sucks because it's the last (or possibly second last) chapter before the final bit.
I haven't even tried writing yet today, a combination of having an annoying social life that apparently needs to be nurtured lest it dies (which, honestly, I wouldn't feel too bad about right now) and diddly squat desire to write. Yes, I did just say diddly squat. No, I can't believe it either. Yes; you should shut up about it and keep reading.
So that's about where I stand at the moment. With no desire to write and a block over spring break, the only free time I'll get for the next two months, I'm just about ready to rage quit on this. But I won't, because I haven't been able to finish one of these competitions since the first one, and some of you may remember how that... thing turned out. That thing that I dare not speak of. Because yes, if you have not read it, it really is that bad.
On the brighter side of the spectrum of my current life... well, there's nothing else really. I'm on spring break!... Yay? Yeah, about the best I can do with my time off is sit at my laptop and ignore the world around me. I get to go visit my grandmother tomorrow. (Translation; I am being thrown in a car for just over a half hour with my mother whilst she forces me to come with her to my grandmother's house). I'm... well, I love my family, I really do, but... I do not want to visit. Well, I suppose I could bring my laptop and get some writing done (HA, like that would actually happen. I get more work done on a C-train surrounded by people I don't know than I do when someone I'm related to is in the building, never mind the room) but then my mother would get mad at me for ignoring my family and focusing too much on my computer.
Gah, why does life have to be so hard? Why is it so important to please other people? All I want to do is sit in my chair (which is god damn comfortable, by the way) and write. No one in the house to bug me, no one asking me to do pointless shit that doesn't matter or really involve me at all. I'd like just one nice, quiet day, where I sit down, and write. Nothing but write. All day. All god damn 24 hours of a single day. I could finish my story if I had that kind of time. But no. The people around me are well aware I'm in a contest that's ending soon, but they seem to think that what they need of me is more important than my own interests or obligations.
If I'm supposed to try my best to please other people and do as they ask, why the hell can they not offer me the same courtesy? Oh wait, I forgot; I'm not an "adult". Who gives a crap if you're older than me? Does that make me any less of a human being? Does that make what I want unimportant? All being older means is that you're closer to death than I am. Don't even try to pull the "wisdom" or "experience" card. I'm smarter than most people over 35 in today's world. Most adults I know wouldn't know how to balance and chemical formula or solve a quadratic function if they were given instructions!
Well I went on a bit of a rant there.... moving on.
Did you know in a recent poll over 50% of Americans believe astrology is a real science? Over half! What the hell is going on down there? It's like they don't even know the definition of science! And don't even get me started on the intelligent design people. Religion's fine, but if it's telling you to ignore all the facts, there's something wrong.
Stopping myself before I go on a religion rant that I do not want to waist my breath on. You cannot argue with those people. Trust me; I've tried.
I totally lost my train of thought.. where was I? Bleh; don't matter anyway. This was going to be a rambling blog from the beginning.
I'm gonna go try and push out a thousand or so words on the next chapter.
Until next time,
Kodeake out
Yay! Spring break! That break that's too long to be fully lived and too short to plan big projects! Yeah, i sort of hate spring break, but it's always nice to get out of school for more than two days.
...I wonder if it's even possible for someone to write something with someone else in the room (Aside from collabs of course.). Still, i wonder how you'd explain what you're writting to your grand mother. Actually, there's an easy way to do so: Talk a lot, don't say anything
I think that astrology IS a science. Or is it astronomy? I don't know, the one actually studying stars. That's the science. Maybe people got confused between the two?
Also, diddly squat? Seriously?
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Look at you, commenting on all the my blogs.
And astronomy is the study of the stars and stuff. Astrology is the one with birth signs and destiny and whatnot. And it wasn't people getting confused; for the pole it was made sure they new the difference.
And yes, diddly squat; I told you to ignore that....